It's.....



finally..........














HERE~!!!!

when clothes are never enough.....

i so love their dresses....
but they dun carry all in that one and only outlet in singapore.

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Dresses&product%5Fid=2026501641&Page=2


http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Dresses&product%5Fid=2028678129&Page=3

this is where my good fren jiefang comes into the picture.
right darling?
meet up before you leave ok?



it feels weird that there was no world cup match to watch last night.
withdrawal symptoms.
ha!



abby is very happy this morning
because she has finally reached the
next thousand in her savings account.

however, she foresees herself spending it away soon.
and bring it back down to square one.


wad to do...school is starting soon wad.
and i need more clothes.
if only we still have uniforms for uni....

i wish to wake up every morning.
knowing that wad i'm doing is right.

a part of me just refuse to accept the path i'm going to take.
a part of me just aint feeling right.

i miss my frens.
i dun wanna be there alone.

but it seems that circumstances tells me otherwise.

i ought to be happy that i'm starting a new journey of my life.
ought to is the key word here.

i think i'm just not willing to step out of my comfort zone yet.





a short shopping trip yesterday with vivi and sera.
sigh.... more clothes that i like.
much more clothes that i want.
grrr......oooo......
this is once again where money issues steps in.
* i still dun understand how ben can say that it's ONLY MONEY*

btw, i think i shrank.


to vivi: buy the skirt. buy the skirt~!!! =)


i miss you. hurry finish your course please. =(

Happy Birthday Sera DaRLinG~!!!


on the way up to the office,
a couple of standard chartered bankers were in the same lift,
talking about yesterday's match.


" All they had to do was keep the ball away and i dunno wad the stupid referee was doing."

" Italians are cheats... they cant cook, cant play, argh...i need to box someone, something this morning... They shouldnt have won this way."


He's an Austrialian. Confirm.














To Aust:
I still think you played very well.
I still think you shouldnt have lost.
I still think the BLOODY referee should not have given italy a penalty kick. FAKERS!!
I still think it's unjustified you lost this way.
I wished you could have won.


To Italy:
Bloody Hell......



World Cup aside.
A wonderful and yummy dinner from you last night.
Ahhh..... Bliss.

i found myself cursing and swearing at Ecuador last night.
and rooting for England to just score a freaking goal.
And when Beckham scored...i couldnt help but scream GOAL~!!!!!

World Cup...
i'm finally gradually being drawn into it.



School's starting in a month exact.
But i dun find myself feeling at all happy about it.
I foresee myself hating Uni.



Oh sigh.



Did i mention i have yet to start my BLOODY driving. Oh double sigh.

i'll state that i'm only doing this cause i'm VERY bored in the office, and because my cousin listed me as one of 5 to do this. grrrr...... lucky rite...

ok here goes.

firstly, name 20 people you think of now before answering the questions below
tag 5 person to do this, if he/she done it, there's no need to redo it again..

1. Andy

2. Vivien

3. Sera

4. Lijie

5. Weiwei

6. Wenwen

7. Prisc

8. Jess

9. Xiaofeng

10. Leslie

11. Yeanling

12. Wanting

13. Jiefang

14. Menghui

15. Small Grace

16. Mini Grace

17. Alvyn

18. Michele

19. Patricia

20. Cheryl the sister.

When did you meet 14?
In school. JC classmate
What will you do if you never meet 1 before ?
I would be single now. I would have a soulmate less.
What will you do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG~!!!!! I WILL BE SUPER DUPER DUPER SHOCKED!!! *andy!...read this part..hahahah*
Did you ever like 19?
Haha...she's my cousin.
Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
No. No. NO~!!!!
Describe 3.
She's a guy magnet. and sometimes girls too. My pretty friend.
Do you think 8 is attractive?
Yup... in her own very unique and lovable way.
Tell me something about 7.
She's gonna be the first to get married in our clique. *nods vigourously*
Do you know any of the 12's family member?
Eh.... no.
What's 8 favourite thing?
Shopping. Tanning. Shopping.
What would you do if 11 confess that he/she likes you?
I will laugh my head off. She's perfectly straight ok.
What language does 15 always speak?
English?!!!?
Who is 9 going out with?
No one. Single and available.
How old is 16 now?
18 turning 19.
When is the last time you talk to 13?
10 June 2006.
Who's 2 favourite singer/band?
Wah...i cant remember.... i think WAS Linkin Park.
Would you date 4?
Erm...NO? i dun date girls.
Would you date 7?
I repeat.... i dun date GIRLS.
Is 15 single?
Nope. She's happily attached.
What's 10 last name?
Let me think........OW.... if this is how you spell it.
Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
I REPEAT~!!!!!! I DUN DATE GIRLS....argh.
What school does 3 goes to?
NTU.
Where does 6 live?
Somewhere between sin ming and bishan. a penthouse at marymount dunno wad.
What's your favourite thing about 5?
Her nice hair. and oh so pretty face.... *dreams*
Have you seen 1 naked?
Half naked...Yes.
5 people to do this lame thing:
here comes the tough part.... sorry to all. Yeanling, Wen, Jiefang. Alvyn and.....Small grace.

i believe i can fly...

just a dream.
a pilot i wanna be.
a fighter pilot.




can i replace it to stop myself from feeling even sadder?

it hurts to know it's missing.

but i too know, it aint your fault.

a bright and sunny morning. just nice for the beach.















the dudes and jess's floppy hat....















and the photographer goes snapping away...




























les and xf playing finger guessing game.















me and jess working on our tan.


















and the guys playing their waterpolo.




















my all time fav shot. out to kill man.














yup...all dead and shagged at the end of the day.

Jess's birthday

the birthday girl and her boyfriend.















the group of us who executed her birthday surprise.














at Mos.... les and andy playing some freaking psycho-motor game.
















the guys starting to get a little high.
















me and baby.














me jess and justin.














photo-whoring.....














yupz...notice why xiaofeng hasnt been in most of the group photos?



cause he was gone..... and sleeping. poor boy.

Happy BirthDAy my gOOd old Friend soNG jiEHui!!


i'm quite apprehensive over what i'm getting myself into.
i should be happy that i've some uni to go to. and get a fully paid education with pay.


but i really cant help wondering.
is this what i really i want?

i'll be signing almost 10 years of my life away.
but i'm left with no choice.



and congrats to xf.

my dearest daddy is so funny.

he bet 0 goals for the france v swizterland match.
seriously, given me.. i would have bet france win.


so yesh......i din think he stayed up to watch to match
so the next day, i guess he asked my cousin wad the score was.
and my cousin said 1-0 (referring to the brazil vs who?)

so my daddy was CLOSE to throwing his ticket away
cause he was so sad.
he bet 4 total goals for the korea game TWICE (by accident) and they scored 3.
and ya...0 goals...which he assumingly lost.

and then when he read the newspaper when he came home...
he got SOooooOOOoo happy.

"Bloody hell, it was 0-0..... lucky lucky.... lucky never throw. almost."


i think my daddy's mad.
his logic is to bet on those with higher odds. as in high high odds.
how can?

he says...like that den shiok wad.
win den win big....


ok daddy. you win.



went for the moe briefing this morning.
i'm scared of being a teacher suddenly.
it's the commitment.
gosh.


oh come on NTU. biz please.

surprise surprise surprise

Oh yesh...it's finally here!!!

"Your application was not successful. Unfortunately, we received many more applications than there are places.We will be notifying you in writing shortly. Thank you for your interest in SMU."


After making me wait for the reply for like donkey years...
finally ya.
ok. i'm pretty upset cause they dun want me,
but at the same time....so be it.
i would have still chosen NIE over it.


heh. ok.....i'm just hoping that NTU would offer me Biz.







met my A51 girls on sat....
for a brief 2 hour sakae dinner with fun filled jokes and laughters.
its such a typical girly day.
ah.....i just wanna go back to the JC days.


met up with phang and baby after that,
and worked hard in planning jess's surprise birthday.
how we said phang was still in tekong...
how he lied to her that i cant come because i fell down and sprained my ankle so badly
that i had to go to.......



A & E????


right.... it's so overdone.
but that silly girl believed it all.



so jess's surprise party REALLY REALLY caught her off guard.
how she was screaming in shock at the fountain outside taka.
how she was so happy that everyone who "couldnt come" came.

priceless...


next stop was Mos......
i'm still feeling sore over the fact that there were 7 of us.... and the lady scanned past EVERYBODY
den scanned me...... twice....
and said....


" IC please.."


like aHhhhHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
i'm 20~!! 20 20 20.....
i still look underage meh???

i swear i could hear everyone laugh at me...
especially YOU. grrr......


clubbing wasnt all that bad.
company was great i supposed.
how we played all those games...

phang totally died out after 3 cups?
right..... pictures up someday.
poor 1st time clubber.

jess lost badly to justin and baby.
and so leslie took revenge on me.
oh yeah.
since it was some psycho-motor game.
explains why I lost damn badly to a pilot?????

so at the end of the day....


jess was gone and i was high.
speaking of which, jess darling is amazingly funny when she's super high.


you were such a sweetie for accompanying me ALL the way home.
love you.




Aust won Japan?
i was awake for the 1st 70 mins of the game.
getting so pissed that both sides were playing badly.
even Japan's goal was bad.
and when i fell asleep....
Aust scored....
3 times?!??!!!


maybe i'm the unlucky charm.

i'm still a little high from last night.
but spare me, it was my first.


i love my friends.
i'll blog about it tmr... ...




i flipped to obituaries this morning.
i saw her picture and din know wad to feel.
she's too young to be gone.

the sky is grey but you keep me GAY *as in happy*

yesterday was dinner with the girls i missed very much.

first was meeting viv in town and visiting wei at her cooking stall
before heading down to gardens.

yesh... wei is COOKING~!!!!!
ok.....beware ok...
esp if you wandering around taka...
dun say i dint warn you.



chicken rice for dinner, followed by chilling at coffee bean.
catching up on each other's life.
boyfriends, future, exs, and more boyfriends.

girly stuffs.
at 20, and conversations topic sure changed.
reminiscing about the past...
young and stooopid times of our lives.

*and i really dun remember ALWAYS quarrelling with HER okay*


wadeva it is...
i love wen.i love viv.i love prisc.i love sera.i love lijie.i love wei.


thanks for my forgotten gift.
and hope you like your small gift big bag wen.




p.s: be careful of what you say, because the world is really really small. at least singapore is.

i'm excited about tomorrow. and i cant understand why.



oh yeah. i miss you

to the senior who taught me gym back in st nicks ,
i always admired the flips and stunts you did.
you were primary 6, i was primary 3.

to the girl who always smiled at me and acknowledged my presence
although i did not know you that well.

to the girl who always had a smile that brightens up everybody's day.
the cheerleader, the gymnast, the athelete.

to lena cheo,
it's a pity that god has taken you to join him so soon.
wherever you are in heaven,
you will be missed by many.


my condolences to all those close to her.


life is just that unexpected,
so treasure it.

this was meant for yesterday:

Happy Birthday Wen Wen!!!



i've called MOE today , but they have yet to call me back.
nvm


3 days ago, i e-mailed the nice lady who conducted my interview...
and she replied!!!

.........

"Dear Abby,
As you have failed the PPT, you will need to choose another teaching subjects
and not PE in order for you to enter the BSc (Edun) course."


followed by...


"You may write a short note and attach it with your acknowledgement slip that you wish to change your AS1 to academic instead of PE."


oh yummy yummy.
i'm finally much more happier.

and i hope it stays this way.
i can finally set my mind at ease and say:




"I have somewhere to go!"





to yeanling: i've cleared my path. i'll pray that you clear yours too. love





i met wanting just now.
and she only further proved mystand that this year's acceptance is screwed up.
especially for UNiverSity.

see you girl. at NTU.

isaiah 40:26, 28-31:

Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.

Do you not know?Have you not heard?The LORD is the everlasting God,the Creator of the ends of the earth.He will not grow tired or weary,and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the wearyand increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles;they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.



my fate lies in a call tomorrow.
i'm jaded.



i thank all my frens who has been there for me.

i finally got the letter from MOE.


and it says alot.
but the most important part is in bold like this:

"If I am not exempted from the EPT and/or PPT, i need to pass the EPT/PPT by MAY 2006. Otherwise, the Ministry will withday the offer made to me."




so if you guys remember.
i DID NOT pass my PPT.


so yesh. i'm screwed.
darn screwed.


and i cant clear my doubts till monday since MOE works on a five day week.
and monday = 5 June.


screwed. screwed. SCREWED~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i probably will end up in a shit hole.
that is nowhere to go.



yesh. shit hole for abby's uni.
cheers.

to trust in you.

matthew 6:32 : your father in heaven knows that you need all these things. instead be concerned above everything else with the kingdom of god and with what he requires of you, and he will provide you woth all these other things.


matthew 7:7-8 : ask and you will receive; seek, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks will receive, and anyone who seeks will find, and the door will be opened tho those who knock.







thank you for giving me a fantabulous short 10 min drive yesterday.
thank you for trying all means to cheer me up and working things out for me.
thank you for being there when i need someone.


as much as i would like to smile and believe that everything is ok.
i cant.