i'm still trying to smile and be happy.

today hasn't been a great day once again.
trying so hard to be optimistic.

but its true that when you're feeling down and low.
really.
everything seems against you.
nothing.
Nothing goes the way you want.


i waited 45 mins for a bus today.
just imagine.

my driving retest is now at dated 05/01/08
just freaking imagine AGAIN.
that's like how long later.

i really dunno how much worst my life can go at this moment.




on a really low. low. note.
maybe its really god's calling to go back to church.

still on a downhill

when i entered the test car this afternoon
only to know that the aircon was spoiled.

that's it.
i knew everything was not gonna go right.


guess what.
nothing went right.

running low

i pray hard that i can pass tomorrow.
maths test.
and driving definately.

paying for lessons and everything else myself is seriously sucking me dry.
i hope its a once and that's it thing.

i cant imagine having to continue taking more lessons.

please please please.
for now...
i shall just go work on my maths test tmr.

LOST

first the thumb drive i left in the usb port in the lib.
my cute micro vault.


had a bad instinct that i lost something else.
and guess wad.

i did.

my PDL!!!
4 more days to my TP and i have to freaking lose it.
now i have to replace it.

ultimate upsetness.
i need happy food.

downhill drive

life seems to going all a major downhill this couple of days.

i cant wait to step on the accelerator and head uphill.
you should have seen how fast i tried to zoom today with my PDL.
ha.

sprees are keeping me happy.
so are happy food.
but sprees are bad. REAL bad for my small little pocket.

baby baby.... PLEASE go to swiss with me.

Its time to grow up.

to be independent.
and not the little girl i used to be.


but that doesn't mean i dun love you anymore.

to stay or not to stay.

that is the question.

when i finally got offered hall.
my fav hall somemore..

i dunno whether to take it.
dilemmas are horrible.


weeks been pretty bad.
add/drop was a disaster and now i'm given a warning letter in my file.
wth.
i still feel very accused and unjust.
sigh

its just one of those days whereby you feel that everything just aint going well.

i hope tomorrow will be better.



i wanna head out for a trip.
like......bintan





















the people i love the most.
fun loving. spontaneous.
its just so easy to be happy with friends like that.
sigh. miss you guys already.

geog and cars

4 day week time table so din work out
he changed his mind in opening another tutorial slot
and refuses to change tut time.
fridays are now ONE hour tut from 1130-1230

let's do some maths.
travelling time to nie: 2h max
going home?: same same.
total travelling time; 4h.
total tutorial time:1h.
total wastage of time on travelling?: 4-1=3h.

wth.
was trying to bring across our situation with him.
heavier geog modules is no go since maths is already a killer.
one hour tut are pretty much unbearable since travelling time and cost kills.
he totally gave us random and beat around the bush answers.
wait.
he wasnt even answering our questions.

sian. this is gonna be a independent module.
equals... just DO yourself.
him? sigh. forget it.

on a slightly happier note.
daniel's gonna drive to nus.
which is happiness.
so gonna grab a lift from him every morning to the West at least.
evenings are even better where i'm will be driven home.
right to my door step.
beats taking bus and the 45 mins red line. =(

when baby starts driving the new car.
whoopee.
going home is gonna be so much more bearable!!!! wheeee

cars are my new love.
and mortal! you rock.

technicolours

Happy birthday Singapore.

pre national day shopping.

hit the shops at vivo with jess and andy yesterday.
ultra madness.

jess girl blew almost 200 in less than 3 hours.
me and my boy, somewhere there too.
what to do.
zara's new season was yummy.
fox had sale, so did warehouse, topshop and flash n splash.
forever 21 was as usual irresistable. but lucky for me, this season's not for me. =)
and lastly... big huge sale at river island.

3 new tops and slippers for the boy for his new back-to-school wardrobe.
1 new top for me ONLY. =( (told you its not my season).
i'm upset.
jess. ha...i lost count on wad she got.
she even shopped for her boy who's in aussie.
told ya it was crazeeee.

school blues

time table seems to be working out.
hopefully geog tut changes.
aed works on alternate weeks.
wonderful.
but that also mean that wednesday are just like mondays
all the way to school for 2 hours of lessons.
but itsok.
thou shalt not be picky.

i have a very cool aed teacher.
sixty plus and still rocks big time.
she can be pretty um lame. and sometime it makes you go huh?
but for someone her age.
she's seriously modern.

i've got the best maths lecturers this sem.
but also the toughest the modules.
i hope i do well this sem.

first 3 days of school was like spent running around.
my freshie year passed with me barely stepping foot pass the north spine.
but this last 3 days.
i've travelled to the south spine more than i have over the last year.
guess why.

it was great seeing familar faces around school.
justin, linus... and of course my boy.
justin. lunch someday alright.

i'm still upset over the issue of No hall.
when i've finally have more friends staying on campus.
i have to retreat to home.
worst. i think i'm more hard working when i stay in hall.eeeeks.

i wish wong allows me to take 251..
den i can be with my friends. anna and wj.
they are like my best working partners.
we pretty much have the same style of working.
and we contra each other pros and cons well.
sigh.
at least we have AAG231 together.

p.s. i've a very adorable junior. she's super high. cause i got her our school diary. =)

school's starting,,

in 2 days.
omg.
sucks.
i still dun have a HALL.
and my timetable is Soooooo still not working out.
one hour tutorial on friday is no go.

knowing me.
since i dun have a hall.
i refuse to travel 2 hours to school for 1 hour of lesson
and another 2 hours back home.
its just not worth the time.
opportunity cost damn it.

making it worst is that the tutorial is by... someone who's lesson i'll probably be stoning through anyway cause i basically cant catch wad he is saying.

sigh.
i hope he will be nice and open up another tut class ANOTHER day so i'll gladly PICK that.
please dun waste my friday.
travelling to school for a 1130-1230 lesson TOTALLY burns the day lar.

imagine. by the time i reach home its almost 3.
and i'll probably start wondering every friday when i reach home...
what have i done for the entire day today.... hmmm....
my entire morning wasted.
on TRAVELLING.
travelling time is x4 of my tut lesson.
wth.

trying to work things out with the bf.
petrol cost and sending me to school and home.
sounds like a great plan.
i offered to pay a sum for petrol which is half of wad my rental for a room in hall will be per month.

its only fair rite.
i dun exactly stay very near school.
in fact....its really OUT of the way.
hmm...
i only wish he drove a more fuel efficient car.

but its ok.
i still love you.
hope you like your back to school gift. =)

itchy itchy scratch scratch

here i'm in my fren's room
using her lap top while waiting for the other station masters to arrive so we can go get our things set up for our station.
wanted to be a nice girl and pei the people setting up the campfire.

but seriously,
mosquitoes are the downfall of my life man.
i stood there for NOT more than 30 mins.
and i'm plagued with almost 10 bites already.

so yesh.
i surrendered and retreated back to the cozy room. =)

killer heels

walking for about 8 hours in heels is really no kidding.
my knees are hurting, my legs are aching.
even my heel is peeling.
omg.


pain.