love my boy for waking up early to accompany me to church.



today's a sad sad day.
i spoilt my birthday present.
sob.

i love you so very much.

things seemed to have turn a little sour lately.
it just doesnt seemed the same.
maybe its just the stress.
maybe its just me being over-sensitive.

whatever it is.
just wanna knock it all out of my mind.
and just study hard.
*knocks hards*

but it just keeps tossing up and down my heart and mind.
and boy does it hurt.

i just hope everything's alright.

just when i felt confident enough to do well enough for maths....

sigh.
killer paper.

den again i expected it din i?

oh man.
wad kind of paper is that.
ARGH.

anyway...gotta like spent two hours to fold the clothes later.
that big huge mountain of clothes.
although i swear it seemed bigger when i left the house.
maybe the bottoms got really compressed??

oh well.

weekend wasnt too bad.
went to my cousin's chalet...and my aunt decided to ask andy along.
geezz.....
anyway....someone decided to bribed my little princess....- with a swimming pool at his place-
and guess wad....that little niece of mine decided she wanted to follow him home.
goodness....
she's so easily cheated.
haha.....
she actually cried and insisted she wanted to go home with andy.
no daddy no mummy...just andy.....
goodness gracious~!
she din even want me.

anyway...had gp yesterday.
i actually finished my paper in exceptionally fast time.
cool
let's just hope i cant break the C5 barrier...

now...i'm waiting for my stupid maths paper to come.
gotta prepare to go to school for my 3 hour paper soon
i'm scared~!!
i'm petrified~!!
i'm so afraid dat when i see the paper later....
everything will just like.....blast out of my brains.
den that's it.

the end.

itz been one hell of a long week
i gotta say i actually managed to turn myself into a mugger toad.
and start doing lots and lots of maths.

but i hardly feel i learnt much.
it seems like everything just comes out there and then.
i wish myself good luck.

i doubt i can pass paper one for maths.
differentiaiton.
integration.
vectors.
3D.
functions.
complex.

stuffs i'm not confident in.
which is like almost 3/4 the paper?
sigh....

stopped studying since 12.
just cant go on no more.
i'll have to continue later.

grace and cheryl came back to school today
miss them.
cab home with ms tan after that.
it was on the way.
and i was damn scared.
somehow....i just dun like being around ms tan.
stupid pple with poor results. like me.....dun really wanna be around with an f maths teacher.
-smart teachers-

going out with my baby tmr.
*smile*

its one hell of a draggy day today.
came back early and i still gotta mug for maths
mugger toad i've become.

i dreamt of maths formula today.
geez

4 days.
damn.


i freaking put on weight AGAIN~!!!!

little princess came over today.
kinda blew my plans on studying in the afternoon.
she's sound asleep now.

i'm just waiting for her to create havoc again.

a nice boy willingly gave me a ride all the way down to bukit timah.
otherwise...i prob would have to cab down.
thanks to my mom nagging and being angry
again.
anyway...thanks....you're QUITE a safe driver.

had lunch with andy and his family.
it was just....
nice.
but i'm damn fat now.

cab home in the end.
14 bucks.
f***
i'm freaking broke...and i just spent 14 bucks cabbing home
damn it.

anyway....went grocery shopping with my parents after dinner.
i love grocery shopping.
esp when i'm not the one forking out the money.
kinda bought enough food to settle my week. -in school and for studying-
yeah.

din study much.
i was tired. and homework is piling.

just bought my bro a really early birthday present.
and my mommy got jealous and started nagging again.
about wad a tough life she got.
hahaha....

i'll get her the nice bag i saw.
soon.
but i'm really broke.
as in...
negative.
deficit.
minus minus minus~!!!!!

my class finally gave in all to all the shit we've been getting from our teacher.
kinda had an argument today with her.
a pretty big one.
meiping and peiwen sure flared up big time.
i was shocked no doubt.

home visit was fun.
but my legs are aching from chasing the guy.
he's seriously over-hyper.

met bing over dinner.
he was complaining about the whole thing of VS going co-ed.
i gotta agree....
it's a really bad idea.

129 years of tradition.
you cant just change it to a co-ed just because of a freaking new IP
which therefore need more students.
it just doesnt make sense.
129 years of VS boys are sure gonna flip.
den again....the first 50 years or so are prob dead.
but pls...dun make it a co-ed school.

9 days to prelims.
it's finally on a single digit~!!!

i think i'm losing it.
bear with me.

11 days.
f***

blogging just isnt the same when u cant rant out everything and anything u want.
the school's been on it.
again.
some j ones got into shit i guess.
talking about a certain teacher.
whom i'm quite familar with.

seriously...
no one will blog bad stuffs about you if you werent creating an "impact"
in their life.
it just gets a little annoying when everything little thing you do
you're being controlled by a higher body.

will it work better if we start ranting out straight at your face
instead of "talking behind your back"
geez.....get a life.
no one even outrightly stated who it was.

a blog is no doubt not a private diary as its published on the world wide web.
but everyone is entitled to his freedom of opinions to a certain extent.

just dun go to the extend of writing out the NAME you are against.
how would anybody know.
seriously....wad is wrong with you guys.

i better think twice of wad i have to say.
or else i'll be next.

the tv messaging system flashed a big huge 12
in my face the whole day.
12 days to prelims.
and i'm barely half way done.

i finally got my sailing photos. wheeeee...
love the background. love the sea.
but it's not my sail..not my nooblet.~!!

someone sure knows his way around the opposite sex.
that's it.
my mommy definately likes him better than us.
we happily din get my mom anything for her birthday.
only intending to treat her to dinner...
and someone bought a bouquet of roses for her.
how can??

haha...
happy birthday mommy~!

prelims is starting in two weeks and a little.
sian.
i just dun feel like studying again.

badminton tmr...yeah
i think i'm growing fat.
bloop.

malaysian cars should be ban from singapore.
or at least roads surrounding the driving centres.

because of a stupid malaysian car.
i dunno when i could get my ride.

poor dear.
forget it.
just try again ya.

met my girls over dinner yesterday.
and a game of mahjong at sera's place.
miss them so much.


school started of pretty bad today
with a certain lit teacher screaming at the arts faculty.
as usual.
tracy decided to dare her.
and seems like she's gonna start taking attendance for MY class.
WTF.

missed civics caused we all assumed there wasn't
assumptions are bad.
apparently she got really mad and informed silas about it.
damn it.
gotta meet him at 4 tmr.
the whole class.
Wth....we din mean to skip civics.
it was just a freaking communication breakdown.



a nice lunch and long bus ride home.
however.
totally made the day a whole lot better.


18 days to go.

woke up fairly early this morning (considering the fact it's national day and wad hell time i slept last night)
met dear and his parents for breakfast (or was it brunch)
i really love cartel breakfast.
i dun think i would mind having it every weekend.
yummy.

was supposed to study when i reached home.
but i just gave in to my already tired body.
falling asleep and waking up every half an hour or so.
and this routine lasted me till 3

ok.
it's definately time to study at least a little.
19 more days to prelims.
no joke.

just came back from a really full meal with mr ng.
seoul garden with the sailors was fun.

and mr ng gave us a nice sailor table mat.
hahah

i still couldnt find my little heart.

but someone made me a new one.
*smile*


sigh....its been a pretty lousy weekend.
just wish i could turn back time and make it a little better.

losing something significant to you is just a sad thing.
i still cant find it.
and i probably cant find it anymore.
i'll try the LT first thing tmr.
hope it's there.

where's my little heart.





baby passed his medical.
which means flying off to aus in time to come.

some things should just be left as it is.
there are just this little things dat i chance about
and it makes me question so much about life.

why why why?
i could just feel everything shrinking inside me.

wad have i done to myself?

lurve...u

6 fabulous months.
180 wonderful days.

thanks for everything.
i love you.

exams is just like sailing.
u gotta keep putting in effort throughout the race
not make so many mistakes.
concentrate on your OWN race abby
race is won within...not by looking at how well others are doing..


dont be demoralised.
cos the a's results is the finish..
only then the results matter
until then u will have good and bad results.
just keep working smart.
doing badly now is like doing badly in a regatta in january

sailing hard= studying hard
sailing fast = studying smart
DONT EVER THINK YOU'RE A FAIL STUDENT

singapore papers always make people fail.
but when a level comes u wanna be prepared for CAMBRIDGE questions.
not sajc stuff
keep your mind focused on what u have to do to win okay?
dont get distracted by people or results.

take care abby..
you're always a champ to me la anyways
keep your head up k


jc is tougher than uni
so dont worry.
i got o's an f's too.
i was getting eee for prelims too.
but i never told myself i was stupid ..
what the hell..just study anyway la.....since got no choice.

if u ever get stuck with dilemmas in school
use sailing to help you.


spoken like a coach
with sailing as an analogy.

just went to the playground to relieve my childhood.
it was fun.

i'm at the last of my teenage years and i still act like a kid.
goodness.


vivi...hope u're fine~!!
hugs..

does it hurt alot to cut yourself?

is it true that physical pain can take away wad hurts inside?

i just want the pain to go away.
i dun wanna feel.

failures is the mother of all success.


whoever came up with this is totally bullshit.
i know i'm turning all pesstimistic...
but seriously...blame me.


its all crap when you were younger...your parents tells you that
its ok if you fail...just pick yourself up and you'll succeed.
since when is it true?


at least not for me.


i'm just so tired of picking the pieces up.
if failing means falling down....
i'm very sure my knees are all bruised now.
in fact...i might just shatter every piece of bone in my knee.


how many times do i have to fail before i could succeed.
i cant fail anymore.
i have only one last chance to fail.
just one.


i'm trying hard.
studying hard.
i really am.
believe me.

a certain teacher has this way of making feel as though results is all that matters in life
i mean that is no doubt true.
at least for now....
when my A's is approaching...
results IS ALL that matters.
but seriously.......do you have to make it sound like that?


someone has to tutor his junior.


call me being over sensitive...
but i just dun like the sound of it.

a sweet lil boy came all the way down to my place to have dinner with me.
despite hurting his leg.
i love you for being so silly.
love you for being so sweet.


it's just these little actions that makes you love a person even more.


dinner was great.

got back to school.
only to realized i'm lagging behind by quite a bit.
sigh.


failed my maths by 2 marks.
and i had like tons of careless marks deducted as usual.
sian.


failed human geog.
last in class.
great.
just really hoping i ace my physical part.
wad happened.


got c6 for gp.
lots of room for improvement.
still aiming for my B4 at least.
sigh....is it really that hard.


i happily lost my mommy's sd card too.
512Mb....aint exactly a cheap one to replace.


wad a week.
i hate it.
i'm just feeling down down down.


i miss you.

a job well done...

me anv ven...we won.

i just realized something cool.

http://www.ri.sch.edu.sg/nationalsailing/byclass.htm

that's it man.
i'm never ever gonna apply sunblock on my face
ever again.


my face is like a piece of patchwork now.
white patches here. black patches there.
thanks to the wonderful peels the sunblock gave me.
it's gonna take some time to recover.
dammit.
there's hell nothing i could do to save it now.
at least if you cut your face u noe you could apply cream to make it recover faster.
wad can make your face peel faster??
or like some miracle cream to make the tone the same??
anybody?
help.


my poor face.


how to face the world.


au natural.
is always the best.

a race well sailed.
a race well fought.


to my dearest sailing team~!!!
love you girls...
we won we won~!!!!
we beat MJ.....
we're second.... yeah baby yeah.
wonderful girls.


tied with mj at 54.
but thanks to our greatest 420 sailors.
we broke the tie and won.
jiayi and yulin....you're da girls!..


this is just the way to end our sailing year with a BANG!

to all pple who likes tanning out there..
when research says that the sun is the strongest between 11-3pm
believe it. and take really good care of yourself.
it's no joke to be BAKED under the horrendous scorching sun btw this period.
i tried it today.
its terrible.
you just feel totally dried and fried.


interschool started with a four hour slack
and three races in three hours.
the wind just dun wanna pick up.


i swear i could just punch a hole thru my bow.
frustration.
anger.
annoyance.
just so full of it after race one..


i'm tired burnt and sleepy now.
so i'll continue my HORRIBLE day tmr.


keep it up girls

.

woke up early to go for cartel breakfast.
yummy...
and i spent the next few hours shopping and shopping again.
bought a 3/4s from mango.
gorgeous....
it makes me look taller...
haha....and that's just wad i need.
illusions to make me seem taller....
ha....and now...i've the same bottoms as jess...
my other shopping mate.
the girl who seriously loves shopping.


shoppping with my dear is just so nice.
its just so easy to have someone to pick out nice clothes for you to try.


had to rush down to nsc at about 3.
argh...
in the end we only trained for like 1 hr....
when i could have stayed in town all these while.
talk about opportunity cost.
ya....and weiguo was so "nice"
thanks for wad u said about me.
ouch.


dun worry....i'll make sure i beat ven to prove you wrong.


rush back to town for dinner...
and someone surprised me the wallet i eyed....
lalala......

its finally OVER over...
wheeeeeee......
i'm so happy....geog din seem that bad
cross my fingers hard...
hope i can pass.
i think i can~!!!
yipeeeeeeeee.....


next week....i'm not going to school for the entire week
*laughs*
interschool.
now let's hope we can get second.
oh yeah....light-medium wind pls.
thank you~!

third paper down.
econs was a killer.
din do a 13 mark essay.
totally...first time in my life i TOTALLY din do a question.
jialat.
econs confirm fail.
=p


tmr's geog...
yeah...i'm gonna ace it~!

5 months.
love you

i just love u so much for being so special.


lunch company was great.
thanks dearie.


met alywin this morning....
yawnz....rush all the way down to see him for like 15 mins.
i could have taken my own sweet time. heh.

frustration frustration!!
just tons and tons of it...
only second paper down...maths
i had great confidence in it.
but i just lost it all again.


i lost eight marks....eight freaking marks which i knew how to do...
but at that point of time...
i just fell for the tricky part.
i fell for it.
damn it.


i hate it when i know i can do it
and yet i couldn't.

sera's party was a blast.
i guess meeting up with everybody was really fun.
crapping....verbal bullying...
met jules dear.....and his usual crappy shit...miss him loads.
thanks angelo...for being such a great host..
stayed till late....and took a ten mins walk home. hahah....talk about near...
had a great time...

caught initial D yesterday....
its a rather good show....
i'm not really into this kind of show...
but it was still nice to watch...
maybe cause edison is really cute.
ha....


woke up with a really bad diarrheoa...
been visiting the toilet say 4 times already...
argh....
couldnt bring myself to leave the house to go study with edgar and grace..
gotta go to sera's party later...
so i better visit all the toilet times i have to NOW.

school's starting~!!
it is it is.....grrrrrrrrr.....


yeah....and my dear's holding an office position at cmpb for the next 3 months...
and that's like a 15 mins walk away from school.
which means...i can still get to see him during the weekdays..
yeah yeah......
but that's till he flies to aus....
den....that's like a month...
its ok...i'll be having my A's by then
A's..........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......


dinner was great on sat...
i want my cartel breakfast though....

took the extra effort to wake up 30 mins after my morning call
and STUDY.
i was struggling btw staying awake and focusing on my notes
geeez.....it's so tough to wake up early nowadays.


met my dearie in the afternoon
and its another day where we spent the whole day shopping with each other.
i just love days like that.
it's a very nice feeling to just spend the entire day with that certain someone.
enjoying each other's company.


everything is short lived though....
block leave will end soon...
and its gonna be back to me and my mundane school life...
and mugging for the freaking A's
which seems to be moving towards me like this huge gigantic wall.


i'm not running towards it.
in fact i havent even finish warming up.
the finishing line is just moving towards me.
FAST pace.

i'm officially down with a flu and cough.



zzzzzzzzz....help...

Happy birthday JesS~!!



it been a nice 4 days...
slacking with my dear...
geez...if only life could always be like that
no sailing. no studying.


i'm sure...


just came back from bbq at andy's place
it was fun and hilarious...
the crazy bunch of peeps...


*sniff*
having a block nose...
how am i gonna sleep tonight...

This.......is my baby.

kisses from my "stead"

pretty babes. love you all.

love you all

i burnt and aching.
sucks...
gotta start mugging again.
cant wait for wednesday to come.

team SAiling

it had been a long week.


had a 5 day regatta....draining.
mentally... for the first 3 days
the wind just wouldnt pick up.
terrible.
AP AP....had to fight a battle with the currents.
the shifting winds. headers...lifters...
game plan game plan....
hot sun. sea sick.... everything
but i gotta thank weiguo...
he is a good coach.....
and he was right....i should be sailing a whole lot better den wad i did for this regatta.
shouldnt be so far behind ven...
he's very right.


4th day was even worst.
the worst of all.
2 races...
one which was strong wind.
couldnt hike out much....was struggling like a poor shit.
and claudia was flying....i could just see her way in front of me....with her boat flat...
and me....almost capsizing everytime i tack. crap.
the other was even more horrendous...
i couldnt start on time.....
i started like 10 mins late...
but i did sail well for it...just a terrible start. sigh. and that did screw me up real bad.
it's just disgusting. as weiguo would say.
but the day ended on a nice note....
when he came down.... and sailed my boat back with me...
thanks for coming down dear.....it was really sweet.


today was the best...
i sailed the best race in my life.
i had the prettiest start ever... first boat off and flying.
if only weiguo was there to see it...den he would stop saying my starts are killing him.
but....i guess i gotta thank you....for nagging at me the night before.
last race was gorgeous too....finished off sixth.
a great battle fought.
and hence....we beat MJ...yes...YEAH...we did it!!!...
nice one ven. nice one grace.
thanks for coming down too....grace ros zhenfang.
a big huge thanks for being there.....


had dinner with his family too.
one word.
fun.


i'm just tired now....sleeping time

just cut my hair.
hope i did the right thing.
haha.....

i'm stuck at home.
gotta study extra harder before my 5 days race
i dun really wanna sail anymore.
sigh....just an obligation to sail.
an obligation to study.
wad a forced life.


hey darlings...let's meet up one evening again.
it was great having dinner with you guys at chomp chomp
it was great catching up with all of you at the bbq.
a crazy time together.
i miss it already.


viv~!!!
wear your skirt the next time we go out k.
pretty pls.........love you.
hope you're working fine.
must get more sales k.

my other 2/3....making us a whole.

woke up early to have a breakfast.
caught an early movie.
and spent the rest of the day shopping.
it was tiring.
but i had wonderful day.
thanks.


the company was great.
and that's all that matters.

thanks for the handmade book
thanks for the cards.
had a wonderful meal at cartel with sera and lijie yesterday.
catching up on everything.
school. guys. army.
argh.
time was short.
hope to see you guys real soon


went to watch bball finals.
HC girls thrashed VJ 68-34
sadly,
HC guys lost to TJ by 5 points
no. 10 is cute.
haha...


yeah...he's coming back tmr...
but dun think i'll get to see him
gotta wait till monday. -pouts-

my "cuzzie" my darling and myself. love you

a big thanks to all who remembered my birthday. sera wei viv lijie wen sameema prisc jiehui ben. everybody
esp the guy who msg me from aust. THANK YOU~!
love ya all.
to my darling class.....for giving me a surprise celebration during econs. with almost 19 candles.
to my dear sailors....thanks for the gifts and yummy cake too.
to wanting...for the error filled birthday card.
and to yeanling for the wonderful pictures.... thanks.


it was a great day.....with a little downside... =)


lijie dear....is everything alright?
how's the application and all?
hope everything's fine.
been a long time since i last caught up with you


sera dear...
i dun like the army.
keep me company ok?
sigh.....


viv...happy working at video ez...
is it fun?
i'll call you when i can k... sorry
been busy.......acting guai.
hahah...


another week to last.
seven days.
three days without news.
hope you're fine.
get well soon.

stop buggin me to study.
i need a break too.
so sick of coming home and knowing that i have to study
just to satisfy you.
i'm so tired of studying.
i'm just studying for the sake of studying.
sian.


sigh. one more week....meet the hod.
think its the arts hod.
praying real hard she's nice.


got down to ordering the flowers for my mummy and his mummy for mothers day.
i think they are gorgeous.
ha...i'm so proud of myself.


i wanna go shopping...
been a long time since i last shopped.
ARGH.
so irrritating.


hehe
I MISS SERA TOO~!!!

heh...been almost a month since i last blogged
so many things happened
but i'm obviously too lazy and too cant be bothered to blog everything down liao
heh...
hhaha....my com crashed...and no one at home bothered to do anything about it.
so well...
i'm at andy's house now stoning.
so i might as well blog.
before pple like dear jh start scolding me again.
hey darling...rest well ok....how did u get appendicitis anyway -ouch-


lijie and wei....i miss you guys.~!!!!!
we'll meet up soon rite? *hint hint*
hahaha....
girl ar...dun be jealous larz...u still got him mah.... rite?


vivi....dun always be so sad ok....need anybody to talk to....i'll still be here... =)


sian....he's going back in again.
packing his bag now.
2 weeks....argh.
hahahha.... marathon time~!

Girls,
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."



GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you baby instead of hot or sexy
who can't stand it when you hang up on her and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like, but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public, even if you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants with the bleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smiles just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public and she still is in view of her friends, While she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always"

i've found mine.

happy birthday noob~!! enjoy ya shaven head.


7 april. argh!
today is a bad day. right from the start.


firstly...andy enlisted at 830. 16 days to go.


secondly... i was late for school.. cause the buses din come as usual.
i bet there are almost 100 of us who were late. but no. they din bother asking why.
it really aint our fault. sigh.
one more and i'm in for detention class- to think i'm still on mc-


thirdly...i got back econs. fuck.
i screwed up essay one terribly. i dunno wad went wrong still.
wadeva it is...i got an O.
which means its finalised.
OOF
great. its time for tea with the bitch again.
i really need to study SMART and not HARD.
where's the old me....i need to find it. i wasnt like that in St nicks.


lastly... gp.
once again i'm stuck at C5. the same range. Always.
quote this" i have no worries about you failing at all, you're very CONSISTENT. but i know you can do better."
ms wong said i screwed it up.
i think so too.
she's expecting a B3 for bt2.
i'll try hard.
i want it badly too.


it had a been an awful day.
wish you were here.

ha...i'm on 3 days mc.
whee...that's nice.
din expect it though.
only wanted 1 day.
haha.... i'll take what i've got and enjoy it.


andy's going in tmr.
3 weeks.
sucks. *sob*
so i've got till the end of april to kill.
guess i'll just go mug and mug and mug
with bugs bunny *grinz*


oh. just heard that bing got enlisted into air force
congrats.
hmm...


got back my physical geog too.
i got like half more mark den human geog
*surprised*
oh well...that' s good...cause it means...i got AO pass for geog *jumps for joy*
sigh. if only i din screw up the major essays...big time.
*argh*

got back maths. fail. expected
got back human geog. fuck. hope i get 10 for physical too. at least get AO pass huh.
got back econs mcq. its alright. *cross my fingers* and hope to pass essays.
sigh.
something tells me i'm gonna sit in the principal's office again.
double f***


been seeing you for the last entire week.
nice.
thanks for being there.
esp today.


5 days more.
argh.
it really aint gonna be that bad rite?
it wont it wont.


i'm gonna sail tmr. YIPPEY.
FINALLY....

weekend had been spent outside
in the sea
got pretty burnt
race com isnt really that nice a job
esp finishing boat. really stressful.
but i guess i learnt alot.
never take things for granted for one.
sorry TJ. feel really bad for causing you so much shit.
its all the crappy wind's fault man.
if it has not shifted 180 degrees
we could have done a great job recording it.
still...sorry.


opti kids are so adorable at times.
bailing their "titanic"
scolding each other.
getting scolded by TJ.
ha...poor kids.

"its something unpredictable but in the end its right"


hehe....been 10 days since i last blog.
exams larz. block test.
been muggin like crazeeeee
thanks to my naggy dear.
haha...
make me study everyday.
*dead*


oh...dim sum buffet was fantastic.
viv was late. very late. and the 2 guys were STARVING.
andy and xf were like stuffing dimsum into their stomach.
hahaha... matchmaking session went pretty well.
haha... we caught hitch too...
nice show. very nice show.


block test was terrible.
econs was alright. but MCQ was a killer.
maths is GONE. simply cause lil miss noob here dunno a single shat about it and gave up studying for it. started panicking the night before. struggling to really CRAMP every formula in.
but it din really work out.
as for geog. FREAKING HELL.
mug like crazy..
spent the whole of wednesday studying like crazy.
forgo sleeping on thursday morning to make e extra effort to go to school at 8 to mug for a paper that starts at 1.
felt pretty confident about doing well.
but when the questions appeared.
*blank blank*
perfectly great.
i'm screwed once again.
i'm gonna fail BT one
*clap*


caught the eye 10 yesterday.
gosh.
its a horror show turned comedy.
catch it only if u're really bored.
waste money again.
sian. but it's better than BOOGEYMAN.
at least there's a little essence of cheap thrills.


played bball this morning.
one word.
fun.
next two words.
damn hot.
three words.
the air sucks.


helping out for a race tmr.
yesh.
i'm finally going for a race and not racing for it.
*jumps for joy*
i hope its gonna be fun.

been a long long time since i last blog.
got sick of the com.
first it crashed.
den i got tired of waiting for it be ok.
den i got pissed with it.. cause everything time i use it...
its for some project purpose...and seriously it turns me OFF.


anyway....congrats to those who did well for their A's
a big hug to those who aint happy with theirs.
to viv dear *hugs hugs*


its the school holidays.
but i just spent my entire day today doing econs mcq.
its terrible.
i just feel its so pointless.
have e same feeling as grace..-felt like we did alot...but learnt nothing-
grace questions alot. and we spent time arguing over answers.
ceteris paribus dear. econs is all about ASSUMPTIONS.


caught a portion of cheerobics on sunday.
it wasn't too bad.
but SN cheer team still rocks.
oh well....
took a trip to NTU open house too.
my future school. i hope.
let's see...
if i were to be really smart and get like...AAB or ABB....mass com here i come.
but if i were to get BBB and below....den i'll prob settle for NIE....and be a pe teacher.
sounds like great fun.
yeah. -i'm sure-
and if i really screw up...which isnt too low a possibility.
oh well.....prob art design and media.....
damn which means i gotta start working on a nice portfolio.
oh well.....we shall see.....right now...i just need to study the crap out of myself.
but man...that school is sure hell of an isolated larz.
i was literally lost in the other side of the world.
haah...it wasnt dat bad...i still know my way around...
but ha...if that's my school....hostel is for me man.
but i like my pretty big room better.
SOB.


ooo...had a fun time playing mahjong with andy leslie and jessica.
i have only one thing to say.
it was DAMN FUN.
and i like leslie's house.
I LIKE IT~!!!!!
wishlist.....earn big bucks...and buy a unit of that freaking nice condo.
haha....i'm a big time daydreamer.~!!


yeah...going for dim sum buffet tmr.
not as if i'm very for dim sum.
i rather have sushi buffet. -yum-
or chocolate buffet -yumyum-
oh well...it beats studying.


i'm finally not dat sick anymore..
and i can wear my contacts.!!
had enough of my nerd specs.
argh.


lastly...
happy birthday....
prisc. wei. viv. ven. chong and ben~!!!

A level's out tmr.
good luck dears.

funfair was a blast... i think
i guess i had a great time meeting up with all my frens.
hardly spent a shit coupon.
hahahaha...


to bingz...for hitting my balloon away and bullying me. thanks! *i had fun* enjoy ya backpacking trip. take care~!


alvyn for drumming so well and crapping with me. miss you.


buddy.. for getting me my slippers *a big huge thanks* and elmo balloon(which got hit away)


ben.. for making walk under the hot sun with you and your melted chocs from france~! =)


caleb for crapping with me. heh...enjoy ya trip at KL


and edgar dear for getting the huge ernie balloon and pretty orchids~!!


hahah....ven..mich...wanting..jos...yeanling...sera..lijie..angelo.
thanks everybody~!!!!


heh...i had like 100 bucks worth of coupons...
apparently no one bothered to spent in and chuck it all to me when e left.
haha....went last min "shopping" with them...
and just buy whatever shit that's left.
got poor grace a shirt~!!
hahaha....


to ven and bingz...
study harder for ya test ok.

funfair's tmr.
and i cant help but think that it's gonna be a flop~!
oops.
the bands are great though.

couldnt sail today cause my back hurts..
and wind was fabulously nice.
its always the case.
the nicest wind comes and i cant enjoy it.
fidelis got whacked by the freaking boom.
need stitches...but that silly girl begged the doc for glue instead.
her poor eye is bruised badly...ouch.


hasnt been a pleasant day.
grace's uncle passed away.
the big shot executive or something from sembcorp.
the only once out of twice i've seen this strong girl cry.
*hugs*

i enjoyed myself today.
chilling out was fun.

valentine's day this year was exceptionally wonderful.
*big big smile*
the day started being GOOD when my ever dear buddy
gave me the shock of my life when i walked out of the lift.
seeing him sitting at the lobby with a nice bouquet of blue roses in blue wrapping.
blue blue blue. just the way i like it.
ya. at 630 in the morning.
when i was heading for school.
talk about lack of sleep dear.
u dun exactly stay near me.
hmm....


felt really happy in school.
den met my eye-candy over lunch.
ooo....another point added to my day.
spent a couple of hours talking to him.
it turned out alot better than i expected it to be.


met my buddy for dinner.
had loads of fun.
thanks dear.


returned home to find someone sending me a bouquet of flowers.
sunflower in fact. nice.
but its just....weird and wrong.
mom flipped.
quarrels exchanged.
it's not like i wanted him to send me flowers.
dont understand why she gotta make it sound like its MY fault.


had a great V-day though.
thanks to all who made it so special.

met edgar grace and mich for a movie yesterday.
the machinist.
a pretty smart movie i must say.
its not easy to produce a movie which has it goes one round.
bumped into bing... he seemed a lil upset. cheer up ok!
and he dyed his hair....which looked a little...off.
Met edwin for a little while before he booked into camp. poor thing.
lounging that huge bag of his which prob weighs more than him.


i loved this week.
chinese new year.
spending time with my buddy.
with my cousins.
everybody.
nice.
din get to meet up with MY own frens though.
my darling bunch of crazy frens.
sigh. that's sad.
i wanna meet my darlings~!!!
aRGh.... i miss those days when i get to see sera and lijie every other day.
i miss those days where we would go to sera's place and go crazy.
sigh sigh sigh.


ben's back~! more company for me.
haha..


tomorrow's valentine's day.
i've got school.
i've got econs test.
hafta go mug.
sucks.
den again...not like it concerns me. haha.

chinese new year's been fantastic this year.
eating all e yummy goodies. gambling and winning big bucks.
playing with my lil niece.
ha...i love my niece... she's just so cute.
i'm so gonna bring her to the funfair.
let's just hope my cousin agrees to it.


i survived school today.
without falling asleep at all.
new year blues.
seriously...couldnt they just let us have one more day or no school.
argh.
one more day of no work. no school.
selfish.

just came back from my final theory.
whee....anybody wanna bet with me that i'll fail it?
i made so many careless mistakes...i could just go kill myself now.
yeah. *bangs head*
come to think of it...why do i even bother taking my license.
i dun wanna drive... i wanna be driven~!
someone to drive me around.
then i could sleep and slack in the car. yeah.
that's life.
that's the way it should be.


its chinese new year eve tmr~!!
i still need to go shopping.
hahah.....rooster year soon.
cock-a-doodle-doo.
rooster year just sounds.....weird.


someone made my day early this morning.
so today had been a pretty -all smile- day.
thank you~!

just remembered i'm taking my advanced theory tmr.
great.
i'm gonna flunk it.
i see it coming already.
hahah..... oh well..i'll just retake it after my A's

itz been one long and tiring week
everybody's falling sick.
edgar had dehydration.
mich had heatstroke.
yulin and jiayi fell sick too.
even my buddy is sick.
i'm not exactly strong either.
vomitted a few times.
suffered from dehydration too.
its a pretty awful feeling man.
get well soon~!


i need a huge dose of water.
buckets and buckets of it.


finally passed someone his gift yesterday.
awkward i must say.
you said you ran out looking for me.
what for dear...
sigh... i dunno what else to say.


stupid ben flew off to france..
for a week!
i'm jealous~!
some pple just get all the luck.
*sulks*
i'm stuck in singapore. under this freaking killer uv-rays

went shopping yesterday
i finally got myself a new skirt.. in baby green.
new shoes.. which looks really girly. very un-me.
hahah..
i love shopping with my buddy...*smiles*


ven's mom got her a $600 bucks diamond ring.
all because she was doing retail therapy.
ven u lucky ass...
$600...
i would buy lotsa clothes man.
not just a ring.
but still....ARGH~!

ahh....
the guy who is singing some i dunno what performance
should just QUIT singing.
out of tune.
out of pitchless.
hey mister...you're tone deaf~!!
and i wanna sleep.
stop it stop it stop it~!!
*bangs my head*

my stomach's hurt.
i feel like vomitting.
in fact i already did.
i'm tired.
dehydrated.
charred.
but it has been a rather nice weekend.
racing.
good and bad races.
fun and not fun times.
oh wellz.


seeing all the "black" faces in school today was really cute.
all the drained and tired bodies.
all the poor lil team mates of mine.
hope u guys recover soon~!!
oh wellz...
met viv and andy for dinner at chomp chomp.
miss them sooooooooo much.

just came back from school
yawns...i just wanna sleep now.
i've gotten darker and redder again.
training was tiring yesterday.
i think i'm tired from training because of the boat pulling and not the sailing.
gosh. all the freaking tyres are flat.
not a single one is in good condition.
seriously...flat tyres and steep soft sand is not a good combi.
where's the new seitechs?!!?


haha....found out something today.
*grinz*

woke up three hours ago.
and i'm feeling tired already.


but i need to start studying? man.


met edwin yesterday.
with the cap on...
so typical of every ns boy out from camp.


training was pretty fun yesterday.
thanks for draggin me into the sea.
ouch.

today seems like the only day so far this year dat i spent with a smile constantly.
i'm just feeling a little tired.
and cold.


first thing i heard this morning.
was the odds of us winning the championships.
as usual the power house VJ already have the champion place reserved for them.
but izzit really that hard to get 2nd?
MJ, TJ, RJ, TP.
we need a good coach. someone like tracey.
a miracle.
i wanna win.
i want it so badly.
do we really have to have weelee as a coach?
where's tracey.

Happy BirTHday bAby~!!


sailing. studying. sleeping.
its only 3 major things to do in my present life.
but i already find it mentally draining.
i wonder how am i gonna pull through the year.


i hate my geog teacher. squarepants.
cant teach for nuts. i'm not being evil or mean here.
but it's just a fact. ask any geog student
*roll eyes*


feel a sense of detachment from all my frens.
it just feels as though...
we are on a diff wavelength already.
i need to move out of my comfort zone.
but i dun wan to. i miss my darlings.


seems like most of my frens been pretty down lately.
not a good start for the year.


hey dear...
dun cry anymore ok?
hurts me to see you upset.
hurts all of us to see you so down.
i know its hard to let go...no one ever said it was easy.
but think it through hard....is it worth holding on to and waiting for?
you know it for yourself. and only you yourself is in control dear.
be strong girl....i'll always be here for you k.
*hugs*


lijie darling...
you too...
dun be so upset. dun be so angsty.
sorry for getting you such a screwed up job.
sorry for not being there for you.
smile more girl...
it'll make your day...i'll make other's day.
its not nice to go round with a sulky face.
no one likes seeing an unhappy you.
i know how it feels when it seems like the whole world is against you.
like every single thing just goes wrong.
but sweetie....dat's life...so dun let it bring you down.
try to face everything with a smile on ya face.
i would love to see a big big smile on ya face.
wadeva it is on ya mind....i hope you sort it out soon.
dun think so much. dun always think so much.
it makes one upset.
when u wanna do something...just get it over and done with.
thinking more and sorting things out more doesnt really help.
in fact it makes u feel worst.
i'll always be a phone call away or sms away.
love you dear....*big big hug*


viv....
sorry for not calling you...but you can always call me ok?
i noe you hate it at work too....
but bear with it larz... there's no such thing as a perfect job.
i'm so sorry i havent been there for you too...
anything. and i mean anything...you can call me.
anytime. beebee loves you.
*smuacks*


jiehui...
slacker~!!!
happy counting your kaching kaching.
hahaha....
i miss seeing you around in school~!!...
that cheeky grin on ya face everytime you see me.
oh yeah.....you've grew a teeny weeny bit chubbier.
but you're still so adorable.~!!!
lurve you~!


buddy~!!
help me take care of those two ok?
hard on you to always having to be the mediator.
dui bu qi.
miss you darling.
it really feels weird to not being able to see you every other day.
i guess i have really taken you for granted for the last 2 years.
sigh. i lurve you too silly boy.


alvyn.
i actually miss your crap and bullshit.
your angsty shit. your mat nonsense.
thanks for being there for me.
JC life would have been quite different without you.
thanks for being part of it.
no doubt you've made a huge impact in my life the last 2 years.
all the best in NS dear... =)

many have been telling me i've changed quite a bit over this few years.
from the compromising sweet girl..
to a short and hot tempered girl.
it seemed to be getting worst as the days goes by.
i just cant seem to be able to control my temper anymore.
is it influence?
or is it just me?
whatever it is.
sorry to all who have to bear with me.

i finally got down to cutting my hair.
after like.....3 years.
wow.
i feel so much at ease now.
but i miss my nice hair colour.
with the brown streaks that graudually ends with a nice tone of golden.
tataz hair.
but hey...i got to keep like the nice part.
hahahaha......
my bundle of hair.
itz looks ridiculous and scary though.
like i'm into voodoo or something. =)


it was a mistake to meet.
i'll just stick to seeing you in my dreams

thought i would be happy,
but it all turned out otherwise.
it was a terrible time.
but i'm still glad it happened.

school's just not right without all of you.
and this is just the beginning.

my time table actually looks kinda disgusting.
with 30 breaks out of 67 periods.
i end school pretty early too.
other then tues. i end before 3 everyday.
esp on a wed.
i end at 945?! and i got sailing at 2.
how nice.
but i actually hope it stays this way.
i kinda like it.

my uniform's ironed.
my shoes are out.
my bag's packed.
homework's not done.
school's tmr.
heading to bed after shower.
fuck i need to wake up at 530 tmr.
my average waking up time for the last two months is 9am.
damnit.


just came back from grace's house.
i had a whole load of great fun.
tons and tons of it.
thanks mr ng. thanks buddy. thanks sailors.
itz gonna be so awkward going to school tmr.
the familar faces wouldnt be around.
i will miss my buddy alot alot.

its raining heavily on new year day morning.
wonderful.
i'm heading back to my bed.

2005 is here. nothing much to feel about it.
its not like its a year to look forward to.
or is it?
2004 has been a rather great year.
there have been highs and low.
its just exhilarating.
i wouldnt change the past year though.
things happen for a reason.
made new friends. new relationships.
although somewhere along the 2004 track, i lost some too.
in fact. i kinda love 2004.
my sailing team mates. lijie. sera. viv. wei. wenz. prisc. jiehui. alv. ys. bing. and everybody else. thanks for being part of my life in 2004.
i've changed quite a bit over this year.
for good...and for bad.
sorry to those who have to tolerate my unreasonable mood swings.
sorry to those who always have to cheer me up.
i will miss those days i spent with my buddy at the sailing table.
i will miss the times i always get to see lijie and sera.
i will miss those familar faces around school.
2005 is gonna be real different for me.
gotta adapt myself to the new enviroment without my friends.
a whole new change, in my life.
to all my dears, greatest thanks for always been there for me, esp lijie, sera, viv and andy.
love ya all.


my only resolution for this year.
study freaking hard.
farewell 2004. hello 2005.