The Guy

The guy who loves you,
can't tell you the reason why he loves you.
He only knows that, in his eyes,
you are the only one.

The guy who loves you,
although he always makes you mad,
but whatever he has done is for your own good.

The guy who loves you, seldom praises you.
But in his heart, you are the best.
Only he knows it.

The guy who loves you,
will scold or complain if you didn't reply his messages or answer his calls
because he cares for you.

The guy who loves you , only drops his tears in front of you.
When you try to wipe his tears,
you are touching his heart ,
the heart which beats for you.T

he guy who loves you ,
will remember every word you said ,
even if accidentally.
And he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who loves you,
will not give any promises that easily
because he don't want to break the promise.
He wants you to believe him
and give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

guy who loves you, always tells you not to think too much,
because he has already planned it for you.
He wants to give you the best life in the future.
He wants to give you a surprise,
believing that he can do it.

The guy who loves you,
maybe can't remember those special occasions like anniversaries,
but he does know that, every second he lives,
he's loving you, no matter what day is it.

The guy who loves you,
won't say "I love you" that easily,
because everything he has done for you
already shows that he love you.
He will only say it at the special situations
because he don't want you to misunderstand.
He wants you to know that he really loves you.

The guy who really loves you,
will feel that sometimes certain things only have to say once
because he thought that you might already understand him.
If talk so much,
he will feel that there's nothing you will cherish.

The guy who loves you,
will go to the airport to fetch you
but he won't carry a bunch a rose
and call you darling like what you expect.
He will carry your luggage and ask you
" Why are you becoming that thin within two days?"
with his sincere heart.

The guy who loves you,
will listen quietly to you when you are mad.
When you have finished,
he will say " You still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier."
with a smile.

The guy who loves you,
don't know whether he should call you when you are angry
but he will send a message to you after few hours.
If you ask him why he called that late,
he will say "When you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish.
But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works."

The guy who loves you,
always treat you like a little girl.
But everytime he want to make a big decision,
he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who loves you,
don't like little toys like teddy bears,
but he will always put the bear you gave him at his bed.

The guy who loves you,
while quarrelling,
he will apologize although you are the one who's wrong.
But later, he will say
" Baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself."

The guy who loves you, seldom say sweet words.
But you know, his kisses have already transfer all his passion to you.

The guy who loves you,
if he can't always see you,
he will try to make himself busy so that he will not have any time to think of you.
Because he knew, if he didnt, he will keep on missing you.




now i know....
happy 20.
i love you

11 Sep

hall office sent me an email saying....

You WILL be getting a room mate soon.


28 Sep

Hall office sent me an email again....

You MAYBE getting a room mate soon.



make up your mind~!!!
haha...surprises comes as big shocks at times.

i have a new name...
" teacher jie jie"

how sweet...

somehow...my mind is still playing around with the idea of choosing the primary track or secondary track.
i love kids... so primary IS very tempting.
and secondary school syllabus is no doubt getting HARDER and HARDER
day by day.

i refuse to surrender to this challenge though.



anyway...that aside

went to kusu island yesterday.
on a gorgeous yacht.
andy's uncle almost 700k yacht.

i love the boat.
i love the sea.

going at that speed.
the sea breeze.
the beautiful coastline from west coast to sentosa to kusu.
even though all i saw was ports after ports.
it's a different perspective.
and i love it to bits.

did i mention...
i fell off the boat while trying NOT to be pulled into the water.
so i got more than just getting wet.
yeah. bruises.


thanks dear for coming to pick me up from home in the wee hours of the morning.
i know we were BOTH tired and sleepy.
but you still made the extra effort to come over.
i enjoyed the drive to your place!!
you're the best driver around. heh.
*heart* you

ha. driving along the expressway and roads at 6+ on Sunday morning is wonderful.
No cars. No jam.


i sense that i'm becoming spoilt.
either drive me around please?
or my second option would be the cab.
heh....... where did my love for bus rides go???

i just wanna do well and finish this crap up.


it doesnt seem to be going the way i want to.
sigh.
to those who said that uni life is nothing as compared to JC.
CRAP!~!!!

give me back my JC days.
anytime.
i miss you.


friday at sera's performance was nice.
felt that it was a little chim for me to understand.
but perhaps it was cause i was under strong medication.
my mind wasn't functioning much.

grace darling drove.
supper followed. yummy.
i see little "babies" developing.
company was great.
but i miss my girls.....
if only i had saturday instead.

went home for a short 6 hours today.

went for dinner with daddy and mommy.
sigh.
i miss them...

i actually DO miss them.

cant wait to be home during the weekends.

Critical Perspectives module's presentation was FANTASTIC.
the class loved it...and so did i~!!

the weeks of preparation.
the early morning today.

thanks adeline, naz, simin and jeslyn.
couldnt have done it without you guys!!


hope we all aced it.


ON 3 NTM now.... go figure.

it just rained...
and i'm feeling really emo tonight.

i guess its the whole idea of when i'm FINALLY feeling more settled in hall.
this whole having the entire room to myself idea.
enjoying every moment of silence.

it might be lonely at times.
but i'm loving it.


the news of me having a new roomie soon....
is not a least bit making me happy.
in any way.

i dun want a roomie.
i wanna be alone.
i like being alone.

please roomie....
i actually really dun want you to come.
i'm sorry.


what if she stinks?
what if she is damn messy?
what if she snores?
what if i dun like her?
what if she's damn irritating?
sigh...

i dunno want a roomie.
i miss home.
i miss you.
i miss my mommy, my daddy, my sista...and my brother.
i miss you you you.



it's a sad night okay.

i'm getting.........


A ROOMIE soon....


eeks...i dunno to be sad or happy.

mummy's gonna cook something nice for dinner tmr.
supposedly for me.

sigh. that's till i told her i'm going back to school in the morning
and wouldnt be coming home.


sigh. sometimes.
i do hate hall life.

school IS getting more and more tiring.

i need a breather.

my boy had been really sweet.
trying to make things easier for me.
offering to pick me up from school whenever he could.

i cant wait for the time you enter NTU.


i'm gonna fail the maths test i took on friday.
and why am i not surprised.
maths is draining..... very very draining.
i wouldnt be surprised if one day i suffer a mental breakdown.
now i know wad the dean meant by "ENJOY MATHS"


i'm doubly sad as my laptop cant seem to be able to access YAHOO GAMES.
i dunno why.
can someone please enlighten and save this COM IDIOT here?
i wanna play my Text Twist and Word Mojo.
I WANT I WANT.

but everytime i click on the game.
the entire window closes???

sigh oh sigh. help help.

life has its ways of playing jokes on us.

we should just live life the way it's planned out for us.
simple.
dun think too deeply.


i'm apprehensive.
*laughs*

i sometimes dunno wad the hell is up with me.
i'm just venting my anger on people who dun deserve it.
i'm sorry.
i'm really sorry.

give me time to find myself back.
school IS tiring me out.
maybe its just the long months of not schooling since after exams.
too big a transition.

project after projects.
group work after group work.
gave me a strong realization that....
i actually dun really like working with others.


it's quite amazing how many different ages there are in my classes.
people from 27 with kids. to people barely turned 19.
how different people thinks.
how different people act and react.
how different people carry themselves.

i sat down and looked around.
realized that there are people i do admire.
and people i just hate to the core.

did i mention people i dun like....are usually people i have to cross my path with?
sigh oh sigh.



my baby boy drove me back to hall last night.
after hours of MJ.
i love to be driven....
i'm a pampered child man.

every girl wants to feel like a princess...
i'm no different.


5 days till its down....

today is union day...
i dunno wad the hell is union day all about.
but no lessons from 10am-2pm sounds good.

ha....but i only have 2 hours of lessons on thurs which starts at 930.

so 1030 and i was on my way back home.
i miss my home. so glad to be back.
even if it's only for a couple of hours.

shall make a 2 hour trip back to hall later.


got done with printing my entire notes for my calculus module.
i hate maths.
sigh. i do i do.



viv...thanks for yesterday.
i love you.

i think i'm going blind.

my left eye hurts bad when i rub it.
it feels like there's a big huge pimple in the INSIDE.
or like there's a bad bad bruise.

wadeva it is....
it's just PAINFUL~!!!!



last evening...
we had NTUYC main com meeting.
yours truly is doing publicity...
which i think is gonna be sooooo FUN.

tee-shirt designing.
poster designing.
flyers.
publicity.

gonna help michele dear who's the biz management
with liasing for sponsers.... - which i DUN THINK we can find-
but sounds interesting anyway.

so anyway....
the sailing main comm....
is made up of...... 20 people...
out of which.....
10 are formally....



SAJC SAILORS~!!!!!

hahah..... talk about dominating..

went for supper with ben and mich after at hall 2.
and there we started meeting frens and realized...
eh..... i know your fren.
eh i know him too...
eh eh EH~!!!!!

yesterday,
my boy cooked me carrot and potato soup.
all i can say is THANK YOU THANK YOU dear.

it probably wasnt the BEST soup i've ever drank.
but hey....
he prepared it from scratch ok.
how often do people get treatment like that....

i feel so pampered and blissful.
i love my boy.



the day before...
the girls came over to my hall......
and it was hilarious.

"taken from lijie's blog"

1. wei wei knows how to play bridge,
just don't get her to be your partneryou will die
because she will trumph your card
and happily go "yayy!" with the cutesy handsign
then ask why everybody is laughing at her
and she did it more than once to me
if you were her opponent,
then it would really quite funny to watch

2. vivien can't play tai tee
she thinks she can put down 5.6.7 as a set
then proceed to ask me why
we were laughing and frothing at the mouth..


my girls are funny.

i realized i havent been updating my blog.

but do spare me as my laptop has yet to arrive and
staying in hall gives me no access to internet.


hall life's been ok.
i guess.
i'm just really tired at this moment cause i studied till 3 last night.
talk about crazy.

but being alone in that quiet room gets quite lonely
and hence all i wanna do is bury myself in books.
which is good.
cause f***ing maths is killing me.

oh sigh.

tired and stoned are the only 2 words in my mind now.
the daily wakes at 530am.
the 2 hours ++ bus rides to boonlay.
and the 2 hours rides back home is starting to drain the crap out of me.

i cant wait to move into hall now.
i'm sooooo jaded.
the long 3-5 hours of breaks in btw lessons are killing me too.

my gosh.
it's only week one ok.


my room is more or less done up.
alittle more shifting and deco would be nice.
interested parties just call me ok?
i would very much love your piece of artwork.


i dun think i've a roomie.
so i'm only taking the right side of the room.
how sad.
-sings- lonely~ i'm so lonely~ i've nobody~ all on my Oooown....

i'm feeling pretty broke too.
cause i've been paying every single shit i can think of paying since school started.
name it.
laptop.
hostel deposit.
thumb drive.
fees.
hall deco and stuff.
every pieces of shit...
my gosh...
my MOOOOooooLAHs????


i love my boy.
for bringing down ALL my things for hall.
for cleaning up my ENTIRE room when i was having my 2 hour lesson.
for the photoframe he made effort for.
for driving me home.
i cant thank you any more.



p.s: i miss you my girls. i'm sorry i missed our nights out.

I'VE BEEN TAGGED!

tagged by my cousin AGAIN~!!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

INSTRUCTIONS:

1. Do the following without complaining.

2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.

3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.

4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

FAVOURITES

-color: blue.

-food: chocolates

-song: " i think i love you"

-drink: green tea

-sport: sailing

-show: CSI

CURRENT

-mood: depress.

-figure: better than last time. =)

-clothes: sleeping tee and school shorts.

-desktop image: a beautiful picture of venice.

-time: midnight.

-tv program: i'm in front of the com. NO tv.

-best friend: i dun have a BEST fren. just many GOOD ones

-crush: nobody.

-lie: i'm not tired.

-kiss: guess who?

-breakup: i dun intend to.

-cry: just the other day.

JUST

-ate: porridge from chinatown.

-drink: water

-challenge myself: to make things right.

-catch: er... i dunno?

-watch: some funny video on youtube.

-finished: showering, eating, talking to my frens

HAVE YOU EVER

-dated one of your best friends: i dun have BEST frens.

-been yelled at: DUH

-been on tv: YA. dun remind me. *puke*

-embarrassed yourself in public: all the time.

-sing infront of others: yesh. and i dun like it.

-been slapped: yes.

THINGS

-4 things you did today: mop the floor. sweep the floor. msn. sms.

-4 sounds you can hear right now: my boy's voice, the fan, msn beep beep and the wind blowing.

The Chosen Five to do this!

if you're bored. just do it.

i'm not gonna target anyone.

it's always the case whereby you want something so much but you'll never get it.
i call it karma.

and so....
no Hall 3 for me.
Hall 14 is given instead.

oh well....
i really would like to appeal for a change to the prettier hall 3
but i guess it's a little too tedious and cumbersome,
given the limited amout of time i have left due to my pretty late application.


oh well.
i guess i'll just have to settle for Hall 14 first and
hope to move out to Hall 3 come the next sem.
hope is the word now.



moving time. coming soon.

it hurts so much that so that pain doesnt feel the same anymore.


i've changed.
or maybe its just the both of us that have.

i wish to correct the mistakes i've done.
i used to be the girl that always made you smile.
i'm no longer the one to now.

i'm sorry you're angry with me 24/7.
maybe it's just that you cant stand me anymore.
i'm sorry that you have to think of me this way.
and i really dunno why.


maybe you're right. maybe.
love hurts. i hate it when love hurts.

i wanna bury my face in my hands
and stop the tears from rolling down.


all i wanna do is have you smiling.

uni's just starting to look a little better.
seeing a few familar faces do make me feel more homely?
my og mates are pretty great too.


did i mention that the maths lecturer told us that...
there are a handful of maths students a year who had to go for counselling cause they couldnt take the maths syllabus?
very stressful apparently.
f***.
now i'm scared.
maths is my core sub.
which means....i'm in for it for 4 years.
4 freaking long years.
4 freaking i dunno wad crazy modules i read.




someone PLEASE tell me i'm doing it right.




please give me hall 3.
please.

i realized i hadnt been updating for a pretty long time.
oh well...
things been really packed.

i first went on a short and boring trip to genting last week.
came back. barely rest.
and had to head off to my nie orientation camp.
camp was pretty ok. met a couple of fellow SA peeps....
some i liked. and of course some i DUN.
and once again i learn the world was small.
if time allows i'll post pictures up of the camp soon.

not now. i'm really sick
just a 2 night camp was enough to let the bugs invade me and kill me.
fever. cough. flu. dehydration. zzzzz

and the next few days would once again be packed with talks and more bonding activities.
schools starting in about a week plus...
and i've yet to settle hall stuffs...
wish me luck.




to you:
i'm sorry things had to turn out this way yesterday.
for all the times i've disappointed you
i'm really sorry.
i dunno wad else to say.

i hope you do know i love you very much.

i suddenly feel that i'm going into it alone.
and that i would be stuck in the ulu west of singapore all by myself.


just wished that there were more frens going into the same school as i am.
or even staying in hall too.
i also wish i din had to stay back in jc for another year.


den... at least i would have my fellow st nicks fren in NTU too.
i seriously feel very alone this time round.
and i hate being alone.


doesnt help that i'm a rather anti-social person
who takes a very long time to warm up to people.


i'm so gonna move into the emo mood.


friends, PLEASE come and accompany.
i wouldnt mind sleeping on the floor
just to let you have the bed.

i love simple meals like this.
it means so much and taste so darn good. =)

After a looooooonng bus ride to Changi Village.....
had to queue for a loooong time for........


















THIS~!
changi village famous -super long queue- nasi lemak.















After which we had to wait for Ben and Robin to pick us up since Grace and Michelle got a little lost.


And then we spotted....
















STORM CLOUDS.!!! *horrors*
















waiting and calling. waiting and calling....












FINALLY....CSC!! Sailing here we come.



And so....
we started trying our best to remember how to rig up a boat.
a NON power pac boat at that...
omg.

and it was followed by sailing...
under the sorching sun.
to the brewing storm.
riding the waves. - i saw WHITE caps- *scared*
and lastly, the big painful drops of rain.

all kinds of weather,
bringing back all kinds of memory.


had a pathetic mini race with grace.

helms of the day:
grace and andy.

crews of the day:
michelle and me
respectively.

and half way thru the "race"....

i got "dumped" into the sea.
and the helm wanted to abandon the crew.
oh darn it.



oh yesh.... and we got HORNED by a big big cargo ship.
ha.... COOL..



SaiLINg still ROCKS!!

one can never truly understand the joy of sailing till you experience it.
i'm gonna be like grace...
get ALL my frens hooked.


i'll consider joining NTU sailing.
JUST so that i can ____ *winks*




We met up at Chong's place that night.
for a supposely sailing gathering which failed miserably.....












and thus...
mahjong night.



Thank you all for the splendid day...
i wouldnt mind having it many times more.

NOTHING in the world beats sailing....

it would be great if i was able to take photos of us sailing.
but no..... sea water and camera is a no go.
that's unless if i have the olympus one.
oh well.....

details of my sailing saturday will be up later with the aid of pictures.
otherwise it will be too wordy for comfort reading.


to sum it all up.


I LOVE SAILING!!!

more sailing outing please please please.




oh yesh..NTU biz rejected by appeal.
saw it coming.
alright.
a teacher i shall be.
call me Ms Goh...


it doesn't really sound right.
i actually dun like it. =(

ONLY was it this morning that i suddenly realized....





"Where did my burgee go?!!?"






OK.
i seriously cant remember...
i remembered seeing it at home.
but den dat might have been before interschool last year?
ya. ONE YEAR AGO?

did i lend it to someone?
did someone borrow it from me?
i remembered asking someone to take it back from NSC for me.
hmmm....
it's too eye-catching to miss it in my room wad.


ok please let me know if it's with any of you ok?
because that's my darling burgee who have served me well....
yes.

the one with one side orange and one side coloured black.
i ruined it myself. yes i know.



on a much much much happier note.
I'm going SAILING tomorrow!!!


wHhoOoooOOooooooooPie!!!!

grocery shopping was shelved off yesterday.
i was just too tired to prepare dinner from scratch.

so it was just walking to and fro bukit batok central
searching for nice food.
settled for kfc though.

not the best dinner dishes....
but definately the best dinner company.





right now...
i'm waiting for you to call and tell me you pass.
just so that i could immediately take half day
and go find you.

i'm so tired at this moment...
i feel like hiding under the table and sleep.
and it doesnt help that i'm listening to my sister's ipod.
soapy saddy tear inducing korean songs.


my gosh...
zZzzZzzzzz.....



off to the supermarket after work.
my turn to prepare dinner for us.
yawnz........
i figured i might just fall asleep by the stove.



on a more violent note.
i feel like stabbing my boss.

he came up with funny ideas again...
so now i have to re-edit and label about 60 over files.

at this rate it's going...
i'll probably have to work till school starts???
sigh...



anybody needs a job?

fly away.....

i went to swissotel today.
for the SIA air stewardess interview.
after filling up the form
it took me about 15 mins of waiting...
before i stood up and walk out of the waiting room.


2 reasons.

1. i felt out of place.... *i'm seriously still a little girl*
2. i din have time to wait for the 100++ people in front of me.


a fun and relaxing mahjong game was waiting for me at chong's place.







i felt like the luckiest girl in the world on friday.
guess why.

i love my boy.

It's.....



finally..........














HERE~!!!!

when clothes are never enough.....

i so love their dresses....
but they dun carry all in that one and only outlet in singapore.

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Dresses&product%5Fid=2026501641&Page=2


http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Dresses&product%5Fid=2028678129&Page=3

this is where my good fren jiefang comes into the picture.
right darling?
meet up before you leave ok?



it feels weird that there was no world cup match to watch last night.
withdrawal symptoms.
ha!



abby is very happy this morning
because she has finally reached the
next thousand in her savings account.

however, she foresees herself spending it away soon.
and bring it back down to square one.


wad to do...school is starting soon wad.
and i need more clothes.
if only we still have uniforms for uni....

i wish to wake up every morning.
knowing that wad i'm doing is right.

a part of me just refuse to accept the path i'm going to take.
a part of me just aint feeling right.

i miss my frens.
i dun wanna be there alone.

but it seems that circumstances tells me otherwise.

i ought to be happy that i'm starting a new journey of my life.
ought to is the key word here.

i think i'm just not willing to step out of my comfort zone yet.





a short shopping trip yesterday with vivi and sera.
sigh.... more clothes that i like.
much more clothes that i want.
grrr......oooo......
this is once again where money issues steps in.
* i still dun understand how ben can say that it's ONLY MONEY*

btw, i think i shrank.


to vivi: buy the skirt. buy the skirt~!!! =)


i miss you. hurry finish your course please. =(

Happy Birthday Sera DaRLinG~!!!


on the way up to the office,
a couple of standard chartered bankers were in the same lift,
talking about yesterday's match.


" All they had to do was keep the ball away and i dunno wad the stupid referee was doing."

" Italians are cheats... they cant cook, cant play, argh...i need to box someone, something this morning... They shouldnt have won this way."


He's an Austrialian. Confirm.














To Aust:
I still think you played very well.
I still think you shouldnt have lost.
I still think the BLOODY referee should not have given italy a penalty kick. FAKERS!!
I still think it's unjustified you lost this way.
I wished you could have won.


To Italy:
Bloody Hell......



World Cup aside.
A wonderful and yummy dinner from you last night.
Ahhh..... Bliss.

i found myself cursing and swearing at Ecuador last night.
and rooting for England to just score a freaking goal.
And when Beckham scored...i couldnt help but scream GOAL~!!!!!

World Cup...
i'm finally gradually being drawn into it.



School's starting in a month exact.
But i dun find myself feeling at all happy about it.
I foresee myself hating Uni.



Oh sigh.



Did i mention i have yet to start my BLOODY driving. Oh double sigh.

i'll state that i'm only doing this cause i'm VERY bored in the office, and because my cousin listed me as one of 5 to do this. grrrr...... lucky rite...

ok here goes.

firstly, name 20 people you think of now before answering the questions below
tag 5 person to do this, if he/she done it, there's no need to redo it again..

1. Andy

2. Vivien

3. Sera

4. Lijie

5. Weiwei

6. Wenwen

7. Prisc

8. Jess

9. Xiaofeng

10. Leslie

11. Yeanling

12. Wanting

13. Jiefang

14. Menghui

15. Small Grace

16. Mini Grace

17. Alvyn

18. Michele

19. Patricia

20. Cheryl the sister.

When did you meet 14?
In school. JC classmate
What will you do if you never meet 1 before ?
I would be single now. I would have a soulmate less.
What will you do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG~!!!!! I WILL BE SUPER DUPER DUPER SHOCKED!!! *andy!...read this part..hahahah*
Did you ever like 19?
Haha...she's my cousin.
Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
No. No. NO~!!!!
Describe 3.
She's a guy magnet. and sometimes girls too. My pretty friend.
Do you think 8 is attractive?
Yup... in her own very unique and lovable way.
Tell me something about 7.
She's gonna be the first to get married in our clique. *nods vigourously*
Do you know any of the 12's family member?
Eh.... no.
What's 8 favourite thing?
Shopping. Tanning. Shopping.
What would you do if 11 confess that he/she likes you?
I will laugh my head off. She's perfectly straight ok.
What language does 15 always speak?
English?!!!?
Who is 9 going out with?
No one. Single and available.
How old is 16 now?
18 turning 19.
When is the last time you talk to 13?
10 June 2006.
Who's 2 favourite singer/band?
Wah...i cant remember.... i think WAS Linkin Park.
Would you date 4?
Erm...NO? i dun date girls.
Would you date 7?
I repeat.... i dun date GIRLS.
Is 15 single?
Nope. She's happily attached.
What's 10 last name?
Let me think........OW.... if this is how you spell it.
Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
I REPEAT~!!!!!! I DUN DATE GIRLS....argh.
What school does 3 goes to?
NTU.
Where does 6 live?
Somewhere between sin ming and bishan. a penthouse at marymount dunno wad.
What's your favourite thing about 5?
Her nice hair. and oh so pretty face.... *dreams*
Have you seen 1 naked?
Half naked...Yes.
5 people to do this lame thing:
here comes the tough part.... sorry to all. Yeanling, Wen, Jiefang. Alvyn and.....Small grace.

i believe i can fly...

just a dream.
a pilot i wanna be.
a fighter pilot.




can i replace it to stop myself from feeling even sadder?

it hurts to know it's missing.

but i too know, it aint your fault.

a bright and sunny morning. just nice for the beach.















the dudes and jess's floppy hat....















and the photographer goes snapping away...




























les and xf playing finger guessing game.















me and jess working on our tan.


















and the guys playing their waterpolo.




















my all time fav shot. out to kill man.














yup...all dead and shagged at the end of the day.

Jess's birthday

the birthday girl and her boyfriend.















the group of us who executed her birthday surprise.














at Mos.... les and andy playing some freaking psycho-motor game.
















the guys starting to get a little high.
















me and baby.














me jess and justin.














photo-whoring.....














yupz...notice why xiaofeng hasnt been in most of the group photos?



cause he was gone..... and sleeping. poor boy.

Happy BirthDAy my gOOd old Friend soNG jiEHui!!


i'm quite apprehensive over what i'm getting myself into.
i should be happy that i've some uni to go to. and get a fully paid education with pay.


but i really cant help wondering.
is this what i really i want?

i'll be signing almost 10 years of my life away.
but i'm left with no choice.



and congrats to xf.

my dearest daddy is so funny.

he bet 0 goals for the france v swizterland match.
seriously, given me.. i would have bet france win.


so yesh......i din think he stayed up to watch to match
so the next day, i guess he asked my cousin wad the score was.
and my cousin said 1-0 (referring to the brazil vs who?)

so my daddy was CLOSE to throwing his ticket away
cause he was so sad.
he bet 4 total goals for the korea game TWICE (by accident) and they scored 3.
and ya...0 goals...which he assumingly lost.

and then when he read the newspaper when he came home...
he got SOooooOOOoo happy.

"Bloody hell, it was 0-0..... lucky lucky.... lucky never throw. almost."


i think my daddy's mad.
his logic is to bet on those with higher odds. as in high high odds.
how can?

he says...like that den shiok wad.
win den win big....


ok daddy. you win.



went for the moe briefing this morning.
i'm scared of being a teacher suddenly.
it's the commitment.
gosh.


oh come on NTU. biz please.

surprise surprise surprise

Oh yesh...it's finally here!!!

"Your application was not successful. Unfortunately, we received many more applications than there are places.We will be notifying you in writing shortly. Thank you for your interest in SMU."


After making me wait for the reply for like donkey years...
finally ya.
ok. i'm pretty upset cause they dun want me,
but at the same time....so be it.
i would have still chosen NIE over it.


heh. ok.....i'm just hoping that NTU would offer me Biz.







met my A51 girls on sat....
for a brief 2 hour sakae dinner with fun filled jokes and laughters.
its such a typical girly day.
ah.....i just wanna go back to the JC days.


met up with phang and baby after that,
and worked hard in planning jess's surprise birthday.
how we said phang was still in tekong...
how he lied to her that i cant come because i fell down and sprained my ankle so badly
that i had to go to.......



A & E????


right.... it's so overdone.
but that silly girl believed it all.



so jess's surprise party REALLY REALLY caught her off guard.
how she was screaming in shock at the fountain outside taka.
how she was so happy that everyone who "couldnt come" came.

priceless...


next stop was Mos......
i'm still feeling sore over the fact that there were 7 of us.... and the lady scanned past EVERYBODY
den scanned me...... twice....
and said....


" IC please.."


like aHhhhHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
i'm 20~!! 20 20 20.....
i still look underage meh???

i swear i could hear everyone laugh at me...
especially YOU. grrr......


clubbing wasnt all that bad.
company was great i supposed.
how we played all those games...

phang totally died out after 3 cups?
right..... pictures up someday.
poor 1st time clubber.

jess lost badly to justin and baby.
and so leslie took revenge on me.
oh yeah.
since it was some psycho-motor game.
explains why I lost damn badly to a pilot?????

so at the end of the day....


jess was gone and i was high.
speaking of which, jess darling is amazingly funny when she's super high.


you were such a sweetie for accompanying me ALL the way home.
love you.




Aust won Japan?
i was awake for the 1st 70 mins of the game.
getting so pissed that both sides were playing badly.
even Japan's goal was bad.
and when i fell asleep....
Aust scored....
3 times?!??!!!


maybe i'm the unlucky charm.

i'm still a little high from last night.
but spare me, it was my first.


i love my friends.
i'll blog about it tmr... ...




i flipped to obituaries this morning.
i saw her picture and din know wad to feel.
she's too young to be gone.

the sky is grey but you keep me GAY *as in happy*

yesterday was dinner with the girls i missed very much.

first was meeting viv in town and visiting wei at her cooking stall
before heading down to gardens.

yesh... wei is COOKING~!!!!!
ok.....beware ok...
esp if you wandering around taka...
dun say i dint warn you.



chicken rice for dinner, followed by chilling at coffee bean.
catching up on each other's life.
boyfriends, future, exs, and more boyfriends.

girly stuffs.
at 20, and conversations topic sure changed.
reminiscing about the past...
young and stooopid times of our lives.

*and i really dun remember ALWAYS quarrelling with HER okay*


wadeva it is...
i love wen.i love viv.i love prisc.i love sera.i love lijie.i love wei.


thanks for my forgotten gift.
and hope you like your small gift big bag wen.




p.s: be careful of what you say, because the world is really really small. at least singapore is.

i'm excited about tomorrow. and i cant understand why.



oh yeah. i miss you

to the senior who taught me gym back in st nicks ,
i always admired the flips and stunts you did.
you were primary 6, i was primary 3.

to the girl who always smiled at me and acknowledged my presence
although i did not know you that well.

to the girl who always had a smile that brightens up everybody's day.
the cheerleader, the gymnast, the athelete.

to lena cheo,
it's a pity that god has taken you to join him so soon.
wherever you are in heaven,
you will be missed by many.


my condolences to all those close to her.


life is just that unexpected,
so treasure it.

this was meant for yesterday:

Happy Birthday Wen Wen!!!



i've called MOE today , but they have yet to call me back.
nvm


3 days ago, i e-mailed the nice lady who conducted my interview...
and she replied!!!

.........

"Dear Abby,
As you have failed the PPT, you will need to choose another teaching subjects
and not PE in order for you to enter the BSc (Edun) course."


followed by...


"You may write a short note and attach it with your acknowledgement slip that you wish to change your AS1 to academic instead of PE."


oh yummy yummy.
i'm finally much more happier.

and i hope it stays this way.
i can finally set my mind at ease and say:




"I have somewhere to go!"





to yeanling: i've cleared my path. i'll pray that you clear yours too. love





i met wanting just now.
and she only further proved mystand that this year's acceptance is screwed up.
especially for UNiverSity.

see you girl. at NTU.

isaiah 40:26, 28-31:

Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.

Do you not know?Have you not heard?The LORD is the everlasting God,the Creator of the ends of the earth.He will not grow tired or weary,and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the wearyand increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles;they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.



my fate lies in a call tomorrow.
i'm jaded.



i thank all my frens who has been there for me.

i finally got the letter from MOE.


and it says alot.
but the most important part is in bold like this:

"If I am not exempted from the EPT and/or PPT, i need to pass the EPT/PPT by MAY 2006. Otherwise, the Ministry will withday the offer made to me."




so if you guys remember.
i DID NOT pass my PPT.


so yesh. i'm screwed.
darn screwed.


and i cant clear my doubts till monday since MOE works on a five day week.
and monday = 5 June.


screwed. screwed. SCREWED~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i probably will end up in a shit hole.
that is nowhere to go.



yesh. shit hole for abby's uni.
cheers.

to trust in you.

matthew 6:32 : your father in heaven knows that you need all these things. instead be concerned above everything else with the kingdom of god and with what he requires of you, and he will provide you woth all these other things.


matthew 7:7-8 : ask and you will receive; seek, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks will receive, and anyone who seeks will find, and the door will be opened tho those who knock.







thank you for giving me a fantabulous short 10 min drive yesterday.
thank you for trying all means to cheer me up and working things out for me.
thank you for being there when i need someone.


as much as i would like to smile and believe that everything is ok.
i cant.

results are out.

NTU- science (education).

but since i failed my PE test 2 weeks ago.
i'll probably have to settle to being a maths teacher.

i'll just accep it first and work things from there.


still on the waiting list on SMU.
and i'm gonna appeal for business in NTU.


the future looks bleak.
or maybe its just me.



i should look on the brighter side of things.
to be glad i have somewhere to go.


but at the same time.
i feel awful.





it boils down to one simple point.
is this really wad i want?



song playing: must get out (maroon 5)

my daddy told me this.....


" i'm damn pissed with you cause you din study hard for your A's. See...now you have nowhere to go"




oh thanks.
wth. seriously.
i studied can. wtf.

i couldnt even be bothered to defend myself anymore.
it's tiring.
i know i did study. and study hard at that.
maybe i'm just dumb.
i'm not exactly feeling very proud of my grades.
but wad done is done.

i tried my best. dun expect much.
can you just be a little more understanding?
i wish. i hope.



i went out with the sailors just now.
was tired after work.
but i decided i din go home and get myself all scared.

i had fun.
i love the arcade when i'm feeling down.
and i love you all for making forget how scared i am.




p.s: i'll pray hard tonight for my dear fren who always listen to my nonsense in class.




it's times like this where i feel alone.
it's times like this where i feel so lost.
it's times like this where i wish things wouldnt be like that.
it's times like this where i would do things i usually wouldn't.
it's times like this where i wouldnt mind blasting music and getting myself drunk.


someone tell me: does drinking really takes away your problems?



i sense bad news ahead.
i wish i am wrong.

it's already 30th May.

and still no news.


i'm getting really frustrated and scared.

i failed the pe test thingy.



darn.



it just ruined my entire happy day of
tanning.
ben & jerry's...
all gone.


i expected it though.
but still.......
sigh.
ok
ntu please hurry just get back to me.

we both got bored waiting for sushi to come the other day.









still waiting.









all smiles cause it was yummy.















my retarded smile.














our many many plates....















tada~!!!! burp~!

Jobless NO MORE

i've got RE-employed.!!!!


yipee
my law firm job is back.

just when i need money
to upkeep my fast depleting bank account.

and to be able to get back my $8/hr job
which allows me to take leave anytime i want.

i shouldnt be complaining much rite?

to think i was just all ready to settle for a $6/hr job with irregular hours.


but....
i hate routines.
and having to wake up every morning at 7 again and den heading down to human packed shenton way isn't exactly the way i wanna spend my days.

yawnz....

i wanna sleep more
and wake up anytime i want.


anyway, da vinci code the movie is not that nice.
watchable.
but dun bother wasting your money on the movie tix


thanks for yesterday.
you were the best.


has all the postmen died?
where are my letters??????
NTU, SMU.......
i dun mind paying for my own stamps.
just SEND me the letters.


ooo.....by the way.
BJ and TYLER won amazing race 9.
i think its so fun to watch them race.

swimming wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.

badminton could have been better.

netball game was screwed up since some big girl decided to freaking "chop" my hand.
you know wad is call PAIN~!!!!
din help that the instructor praised her.

and stupid macho guys.....
macho guys playing a netball game with girls is even worse.
i dun like macho guys. period.
bulky muscles scares me.

gym was funny~!!!!
this ching chong girl seriously made me laugh like mad.
but i cant explain to you. i must SHOW you ok?
so you can ask me about it next time you see me.
anyway i think i did well for gym =)

and hahah.....remember the confusing agility run?
i got confused~!!!! i really did~!!!!
so embarassing. such an abby thing to do.
blur-ness.
so had to re-run lor.


oh yesh.
the bugger girl who chopped my hand with great strength
had a bugger show-off act pro boyfriend
who followed her around every station and
giving her comments.
ALOUD for all to hear.
yesh. bugger couple. ARGH.




oh well....
i hope i can pass.
not that i failed any station.
but more like i dun think i have enough points. hmmmm...

went down to SA this afternoon to get my pe document signed by Mr Ng.

saw people doing their rally in the cafe and den it took me a long long while to realize that it was the student council nomintation thingy.

den i realized......
how stoooopid it looked to be standing on the chair facing the cafe and your classmates crowding around you.
for wad???????????????????????
seriously, it din really matter to me wad you say during your speech....
i'll vote for you if....

1. you're pleasant looking.
2. you're my fren or my fren's fren. =)

that's it. that's how i would vote for you. =)

and after that i realized....
its MAY.... i dunno whether to say wow its may~!!! or its ONLY may.

since like when you leave school and start working.
the calender doesnt work the same way anymore.

in 2 weeks time.. i'll probably be thinking why the hell is my sister not waking at 6 to go to school
before i would go "ting ting" realizing its the school holiday.


We shall see....it WILL happen.



and apparently all the rugby boys are the heros of the schools today.
cause they beat RJC 15-10 and claimed first.
good job boys.
SAJC 1st for rugby ok.
so today the heros took green slips and act like heros.

greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen slips. deja vu. right A51???


met mr ng.... and he told me that the PPT is a piece of cake larz.
i told him i'm ok with everything except swimming.

and he said...
" at most swim doggy style lor"


???????????? so paiseh can. doggy style.


den i met mr ho. and he said.
" if mr chay can pass and be a pe teacher, you confirm can pass with flying colours!"

hahahah...right~!!!


he walked to THE acheivement board and place the 1st under 2006 under rugby.
den my last realization of the day.
where's sailing??

and this is wad yarh meh told me when i asked him where's sailing?
" no more already still put for wad?"


ARGH........ONG YARH MEH.~!!!
remember this...........
you you..... you traitor~!!!!!!!

before i left the room.
the lady who interviewed told me all the best for my PPT.
and she said "hope you can pass"

if it was about 1 year back.
i would definately say. " of course i would pass"

but now...
only " hope so too" was replied.




5 components forthe PPT this friday.
9 points to pass.
fail ONE station and i fail.

ok. i'm feeling very unfit at the moment.
and the swimming component really scares me.
since the last time i really swam properly in a SWIMMING pool was almost 5 years ago.


yes....and i cant help but also feel that i'll probably get confused while running this....

MY BIG 2-0

the box i received weeks before my birthday.














the pretty darling he got for me.














my birthday piece-of-CAKE for breakfast.














a yummy plate of baked rice for birthday dinner.














his yummy plate of three amigos pizza














eating our yummilicious dinners.














and of course~! the boy who made it all perfect.
thanks.

so if this is your way of solving the problem,

by escaping.

deluding.



think about it.

cause all i want to say is,

it's backfiring.

and it f****** hurts like hell.

Happy BIrthDay my dARling SIster~!!!

she's back from OBS looking like a burnt lobster.
seems like both sisters arent meant to enjoy their birthdays respectively this year.




so my 20th birthday hadnt been as eventful as i would liked it to be
but oh well.....i still enjoyed it nonetheless. - as a sick girl without much voice-

so i've hit the big 2-0
and i can officially say i'm no longer a teen...
but ha...i know i still dun act 20, dress 20 or even look 20. ha.

so yep....thanks to all who remembered my birthday.
to everyone who dropped me an sms, a call or even face to face.
thanks peeps...i love you all.

received birthday wishes from people i never really expected and i thank that you still remembered.

to grace for her long distance wishes.
see~!! -taken from her blog-
a post JUST for ME~!!!
i love you grace~!

"happy birthday abby!

to abby!!
even though i'm not in singapore this year... here's wishing you a very very happy birthday from across the world!

and although we don't see each other very much anymore you're in my thoughts!
i'm really glad we've kept in touch after jc!l

looking forward to seeing you in august babe!
email me if you need anything yah?

lotsa love, grace"


to my girls for all your love.
to jiehui, menghui, sameema and all those who send your wishes. THANK YOU too.
to you for making feel like a princess.... i love you the most.




P.S i got shortlisted for interview by MOE....
menghui...i need advice~!!!

i scare myself badly last night after i visited the website regarding the status of my ntu application.
and so i called up NTU this morning and the nice lady nicely told me i've already submitted everything that i had to and that my application is still pending.


Ahhhh....ok...at least its pending and not rejected.


but still... pending pending pending......
its driving me nuts.

nvm take your time ntu...as long as you are thinking of whether to offer me business....take your time. business ok? only business....pretty pls..


to yeanling: dun be so sad...trust me....i dunno about NTU but NUS will take you.
to edgar: congrats on getting aeronautics!!

to those who have been to the ocbc bank at headquarters....
you do know that they have a long "lobby" to the counters.

so my story is.....
i went to the bank this morning....
as i was walking in....
at that "lobby" there were a 2 rows of about 7 each standing by the side....

so then....i looked like a president walking in with all the bodyguards and servants welcoming me in by the side of the "path"
and they really looked like it ok.
so i decided to just smile at them while walking towards the "red carpet zone"

then as i walked in between the 2 lines.

they said in unison.
"GOOD MORNING, WELCOME TO OCBC BANK"

ok. maybe i'm not used to it but i seriously just jumped and got really uncomfortable.
like WTH????
seriously.

good service is taking to a whole new level that is freaking me out.

everytime i see a photo with the sailors....
or anything that has a laser on it...

i cant help it but really really miss them.

to those days back in school...
to those days back at NSC.

i can only wish to re-live it.
i can only wish that i could turn back time.

this is for the boy who called me this morning....
and told me that if he was gonna die soon..
he would have lots and lots of flings.
one a day at least.

upon hearing that,
i kicked my toe against the steps and tripped..
looking like a total klutz at UOB plaza.

my gosh.
image ruined.
toe pain.
i was wearing OPEN TOED HEELS!!!

to the boy: THANKS~!!!!

there's this constant nag at the back of my head.

repeatedly telling me that NTU doesnt want me....


no no nooooooo....




i had a bad dream.
i fear it would be true.

to be able to spent time with people you love is just the nicest thing.


i love the weekend.
i love today.

especially today.



i'm thinking of a food party.
sounds yummy.

so my smu interview din go as smoothly as i wished it would be.
if they do offer a place...its probably cause i just scrap thru the interview.

i have to say that the people who interviewed me were nice.
two ladies... one jap, the other not local either.
it was pretty interactive in the sense that they asked me about sailing....
basketball.....wad i wanted to do in the future...
and can you believe it?

i said teacher.

so the questions went on with den why choose to do social science?
omg...i feel so stupid saying that...
the least i could do is said i would wanna work in the tourism industry.
at least its SLIGHTLY more related to social science rite? it's SMU not NTU or NUS doodoo head.
argh.


the interviewers were nice enough to make me feel like talking.
but not enough to make me feel comfortable enough to converse.
but i was so tempted to go on and on about sailing.....
sailing sailing sailing...haha



oh well....

i really just need ntu do send me something or give me a call soon.

p.s: i got my new bikini at a steal man. woohoo.

the weekend is once again gonna be OVER soon.
argh.
but its ok...cause i'm not going to work tmr sincei've my SMU interview at 12 ...
exciting. but wish me luck.

i went to town the other day.
hoping to get my new shorts or new bikini...or at least something.
but i went home empty handed.

should have seen the desperate looks on both our faces and the feeling of going bonkers
that we actually wanted to stop by king albert park to get a pint of ben & jerry's just so to NOT go home empty handed.
but the flavour we wanted was out
and macs sundae was all it could to make our shopping trip just a little more fulfilling.

how sad was that. very.

bbq at my cousin's house yesterday was fun.
playing with the little girl to playing mj with him and my cousins.
its times like this you just wanna re-live.


side note: i still havent gotten my tan cause the weather seems to always wanna go against me!!!


and


NTU ar......where are yooooooooooooooooooooou??

i was watching the channel 8 show featuring joanne peh, pierre png and this other guy.
the one whereby viewers would determine the show's ending by purchasing the stamps of who she would be together with.

wad i wanted to say was...
i find myself relating very much to her character and him to pierre png's.

i'm a very stubborn girl..
and numerous times, i've unknowingly hurt him.
i suddenly feel like i'm a very insensitive and selfish girl
who's so caught in my own feelings that i failed to realized how others feel.

i'm sorry to any if i've ever hurt you.
and to you...
i'm very sorry. and i love you.

came to the office this morning and got shocked cause there was this new girl in
which i intially thought was a boy...cause i only saw her SHOES and PANTS.

so anyway...turns out to be a temp who's my junior's good friend.
oh yeah....small small world again.

oh yesh...did i mention my boss told me to take leave from tmr to mon...
cause he's taking leave so i should take leave too....
ah sob...........
i need money ok?

i'm thinking of asking mr ng to see if there's a need for pe teachers in school.
but its already mid-april...and june got no school? ah oh...how how.

call me NTU...call me~!!!!

got short-listed for SMU interview.
but they only gave me my forth choice which is social science.
i was kinda hoping more of business or maybe economics...

social science?
sigh.....i'll just have to make do with it till NTU calls.

ntu...where are you......

just came back from a mahjong game at chong's place..
arh oh boy...
i miss chong..
i miss grace...
i miss the sailors~!!!

it's just a different kind of fun when time is spent with the sailors.
i cant explain...
but its just different...
and i know this feeling will be missed.
forever.


anyway...i cut my beautiful hair.... so initially..... i looked like this.... rite? beautiful locks...

but now???? i look like this...






dun blame me for being angsty...cause i really hate my present hair now.
i specifically told my hairdresser to cut my fringe and TRIM my hair...
but my fringe is like still pretty long... and my hair has been SNIPPED off..
gosh..... i'm sad ok.

its so so layered that i cant tie my hair.
i cant even put on a hairband nicely without my hair going... POOF...
=(
it probably looks OK from the photo...sinceits flat and shapes my face nicely.
but oh....
that's cause i took it straight after my haircut!! which means the hair dresser styled in nicely for me.

but i cant get this look now ok?
my hair is like a freaking mess every morning when i wake up.
or even after i shower....
it refuses to be good and stay flat.

i never had bad hair days last time...
but now.....
*shakes head* my nightmare has begun.

come on....
grow hair grow....
GROW......

andy says i'm currently suffering from the post cut hair syndrome.

right...

i'm sitting in front of the com just so i can keep a watch on the Man U vs Arsenal match for the boy.

yawnz....

havent been bloggin much lately because there's simply nothing much interesting except work.

the other two temps are stopping work tmr since poly starts in 2 weeks time.
so that leaves me with the 200+ files..
ha...i would let you know the exact no. when i finish labelling them.
wth.

that's beside the point.
met up with the gang without leslie on tues..
cause xf is going into army tmr~!!!
the boys wanted to have sushi buffet for dinner....
so we decided to head to the one outside the box office of cine? and well...
they din have buffet.

fine...so they asked ask to go to sakura at orchard plaza...
but.... it was ex... and it din look nice..
so we all decided to just go to sakae at heeren and have ala carte... since the girls werent very hungry.

when we went all the way up...
we found out suntec sakae had dinner buffet...
so of we went to suntec...

note: the guys were FREAKING hungry already. and it was almost 8.

while walking to the restaurant from carrefour... the guys saw the sakae sign straight ahead and ran towards it.
turn left....and both just shook their head and almost plucked out their hair...


" UNDER RENOVATION TILL 05 APRIL"




everybody should go watch ice age2 ok?
it's so hilarious. i like.

anyway....i'm thinking of cutting my hair...
to those with like the fringe to the side...
yesh...so i'm like gonna snip off my long fringe....
daddy says it doesnt suit me....
but i'm kinda getting sick of my long hair...though i think its nice.
opinions peeps???
to snip or not to snip

i want to sail
i want to sail
I WANT TO SAIL!!!!!!

grace darling popped in front of me today when i was expecting someone else.
just when i thought she was at barcelona..... or was it uk?

oh wadeva...but it was a SURPRISE SURPRISE~!!!!
so glad to have you back....and i'm sorry i din talk much ok?
i'm too stoned and tired to think...

so cheap thrill....but i still love you~!
mahjong soon ok?

it's strange how you wanna know more about each other's lives
but at the same time run out of questions to ask and topics to talk about.

but whatever it is...
i love you girls and thanks for the night.


i'm finally done with stage 2 of the work...
which actualy means....i should be unemployed by now...
but since my boss just brought in more reports to type and file...
i guess i'm still hanging around the 48th floor office.

if all is well.... me will be a happy girl tmr.... cheers

to the boy at jurong island now: happy 14 months.

look at the freaking time...and i'm still at the office *sobz*
this is so saddening... and annoying...
OT comes when your boss starts giving you funny things to do...

i've got a perfectionist boss...who perfects the wrong things...
grrr....he's a nice boss... but when it comes to be organized and being perfect...
oh well...
grr......nvm...at least i'll get to cab home later...
=)

to think i used to complain about school life?
working is worst... oh sigh....
i'm so unhappy that i dunno where to start.

not exactly looking forward towards uni life either...
i just want my sailing days back.


and yep.....
i received enlightenment today.
regarding my uni application of course.

so i'll put ntu business as my 1st choice followed by the teaching degree den economics...
so...if i get into business...i'll just bear the 3 years and study hard.... den later go get my post grad diploma in nie.
den if business dun want me.... den i'll go NIE lor~!!

shall leave my fate to NTU cause i'm so so tired to think anymore.

and of course i'll apply for SMU and NUS....JUST IN CASE. =)


i wanna go shopping....
i wanna buy my m)phosis three quarts...
i wanna buy lotsa of new shoes....

eeksss!

two weeks since results was released.
slightly more than two weeks left to the dateline of application.

congrats!!!
i still dunno wad the hell i should do.
peace be with me.....


*mediation position*
ummmm.....




p.s i love you.

Happy 19th birthday Ven!!
Happy 20th birthday Vivi!!


poor ven got really drunk at her birthday party...
luckily it was at her place...
it was the first time i saw someone so high and....gone.....

so the weekend had been for the open houses....
NTU open house was at far far away boonlay.
took me 2 hours to get from my place to the entrance of the school. *gosh*

went to SMU today.... and it took me about 45 mins to get there. *hmmm*
so yep... open houses which din really make me feel less lost.
in fact.....i think i'm back to square one...
NIE is back in the picture...


oh gosh.... kill me.


went back to dear old st nicks for st nicks fiesta on sat.
i've so much to talk about it...
but since its almost 3am and i've to wake up in 4 hours....

i should force myself to go to bed and blog about it another day....
for now....
i need to coax myself to bed

the bugger IT guy at my office disabled my internet connection after giving me 2 reasons.
oh no. wait...
he disabled my laptop's internet THEN gave my 2 reasons.
BrrrrUhhhhLL SsssssHhhhhhhIT.

so yesh...i wont be blogging as often anymore cause i'll be too tired to use the com at home.
and also...i rather watch TV.

works been a little more hectic recently...my boss decided to spring us the dateline of the case...
heh...end of this month... so yesh...for the first time in many months...i had to work OT.... *pouts*

no internet + lots of work = tired tired me.

i really wish to burn down the room i'm working in...
its a makeshift library of a law firm.... and plus the 100++ files that i've to cross reference....
oooo.....camp fire burning... camp fire burning.....


apparently i'm suffering from some fungal infection....-geez-
but that's according to my parents....
i think its just a bad bad case of allergy.... dust in the freaking "library" larz...
first time something like that happen to me can?
ARgh....

so anyway...i've a pretty big red patch of rough skin on the back of neck.... yesh...
altogether...EwwwwwWW...
so i'm really upset about it now ok?
but on the bright side...i shall just let down my hair and cover it UP~!! =)

Happy birthday PRisC~!!

been going thru a whirlwind of emotions since the 1st march.
and i would say its the worst case of "bad mood" since i dunno when.

i'm still not happy with my darn shit results.
it's no longer a matter of being able to get to uni..
but more of a..."is this wad i get after all the hard work?"

where's my As?

my body is aches with every movement i make.
see...this is the result of not jogging since last july..
owwwww....

P.S: to A51.
1. Mr Peh asked all to try to go to career fair thingy at suntec ok?
2. Ms Teo called to wish us good luck on day of results
3. Mr Peh feels very "du bu qi" to those who din get As and Bs for econs. -yesh. that's includes me-

we finally managed to pull off a surprise on him.
FINALLY~!

hope you liked the surprise....

to all my frens who did well...congrats!
to all who din.... big *hugs*

i din think i did well...
just average grades.
and i'm still sore over geog and GP...
maybe i could have done better....
lots of maybe(s)

but wadeva it is ...life moves on and if i dun believe in myself...who would?

i know i did my best...and if this is the outcome.... so be it.
for now...
i'm shall just worry about uni application....wad i should take and where i would go...
i'm a confused girl at this moment. no doubt.

to all who've been there for me on results day.... a big huge thanks...
for being there : andy and ven.
for the sms-- you know who you guys are.... sera, lijie, viv, wei, wen, samee, jiehui, and so many more esp grace and cheryl....
it meant so much...
thanks darlings.



courses in mind: business, econ, geog.
NIE is out for the time. - bye PE-


results dont determine your future.... you do.

god bless my classmates.
god bless the sailors.
god bless all my friends.
god bless me.


the dreadful day is tomorrow.
everybody pray hard tonight.
i know i will be.

all i ask is for you to be free on wednesday.
please.....


stop taking him away you darn bloody army.


i'm a sad girl now. thanks army.