the music some soothing dancy song...

it was a sunny afternoon.
people were just walking pass each other without stopping.
a busy stretch of road outside wisma.

and there they were.
holding each other and dancing to the song.
enjoying each other's company.
kissing.

like what we always see on the dance floor of a romantic movie....


it was really sweet.
i guess.
i just couldnt understand how they did it
in the middle of orchard road...
where everyone was looking...

it was out of place.
but it was really lovely.
it just seemed that the world belonged to them.
and only them.

the way they danced
the way they only had eyes for each other.
everything else din matter for they had each other.


it was an odd sight.
but it was still the most lovely scene ever.

whoever said uni was a breeze has gotta be telling the biggest lie.

i remembered when i was taking my Os..
a teacher said we should work hard get into a good JC and all is well.

i believed.
JC sucked.
and there it is again...
teacher after teacher saying that As is the worst it can get.
uni exams are a breeze.

once again...
i feel darn cheated?
or maybe its just the course i'm in.

geez....
a teacher taking exam. such an irony i feel.
i really tot it would have been the end of it all after the dreadful exams one year ago.



the weather is really cooooooling now.
how nice would it be to cuddle under my nice blankie.

but oh no...
me gonna go take a SHOWER soon...
and with my coffee.....
shall try to mug hard on alg.


a part of me still love maths.
someone just slap me and ask me to wake up.
please......

i'm very upset with my calculus paper.
knowing that i could have done it
but at that instance...

i just couldnt.

how many times had this happen??
darn it


worst still...
i have a geog paper in less than 20 hours.
yet to prepare for it.
and i'm in NO mood to.

i hate myself.

even though it was a mere an hour and a half
of coming all the way down from home
soley to accompany me and make sure i was ok.


...it meant alot
the rest of the mugging day seems a whole lot better.
thanks baby~!

barely a week to my very FIRST uni exam.

but here i'm battling with...

1) a really itchy and runny nose.
2) keeping the cruched up tissues ON the table
3) a pretty painful stomachache.
4) my chapters and CHAPTERS of maths.
5) memorizing the "WTF" PROVINGS of maths forumulaes.

it doesnt help that...

1) i cannot understand anything.
2) my brain is not functioning well.
3) i have been doing this for 3 straight days
4) i hate whatever the crap they want me to prove~!!!
5) i have a cup of awful vitamin C water next to me.

i'm going crazy cause...

1) i set my EXAM timetable as my desktop backdrop.
2) i have a exam countdown sheet in my pencilbox.
3) i only see f(x)s and dy/dx and limits= limits=......
4) i blasting music that i usually dun listen to
5) i fear very badly that i'll fail my maths modules.



can you understand my pain?

exams are in a week.
havent started studying at all.
been busy with my essay.

went to search for the past years papers yesterday.
i'm stunned.
read thru the maths paper and i can barely do even ONE question.
geography din seem easy too.

i've never been this scared.
maybe its cause of the among of responsiblity i have now.
there's no room for failure.
geez....

dun tell me that i can practice maths..
cause its not about practicing anymore.
if only it was that simple.
i wish.


pray for me.
things are so uncertain now.

i swear time flies SUPER fast...
like WHEE~! SHORT and fast......

it wasnt too long ago that i found myself struggling to adapt to uni life.
den again.

i still havent really gotten used to it yet.
i'm always still running away from hall back to home sweet home.
i've no idea why i've suddenly grown so attached to home...
when 2 years back...i remembered saying i cant wait to go uni and start hall life.

still struggling badly with academic issues too.
MATHS.
come someone kindly tell me..
WHY THE HELL did i take maths.

2 quizzes in 2 days.
tmr is the next.
planned to stay in hall to study tonight.
but i was on the verge of tears when i sat there for barely 30mins.
that's why i'm running back home again.
nothing feels better then home.

the only thing working against me at home is the TV.
nevermind. i know i can fight it.

barely 2 weeks to my first paper.
god bless me.
i'm still stuck in the maze of algebra and calculus.

it's really upsetting to know that
when ONE ignored the fact that she had tons of work to do...
and was really really tired and drained.
and gave up sleeping
just to complete something to save her group's presentation.

ONLY to find out later
that someone removed all her hard work.
zlich is left of that night's work in the slides ok?.
fuck.
wad did i stay up for?
ass.

i dunno to be angry or upset.
took the initiative to be nice to f***ing do something about it
and this is wad i get???
group presentation??
wtf.
i really wished i was given the option to choose my own members.
i hate this.



the village @ heeren.
blasting mambo night songs in nic's car.
starbucks @ holland.v
the talks.
ride round a quarter of singapore.

yet another friday night.
i love the freedom i'm getting.
i can learn to live this life.

to you: please stop drinking.
wake up and look around...
people that care for you are hurting.

to xf: you were the best. thanks for saving my lappie top.

retail therapy rocks.
one skirt. one sweater. one berms.
150 bucks.

yum.

loved the time with my girls and my boy.
vivo is nice.

i love fridays very much.

went to pick viv darling from work on friday.
before heading for supper at adam's road.
followed by mahjong till late

fridays are fun.

Wake me up when NOVEMBER ends

deadlines. presentations. exams.
wad's good about Nov??

my room smells funny.
and i dun really like it.

my roommate?
dunno her well.
and it's not that i dun like her.
but i just dun like her either.
its just a hi and bye thing.

spent the night at mich's hall last night.
four of us sleeping on 2 single bed joined together.
funny.

tmr is friday.
finally!

i need retail therapy.
sorry viv....
PS-ed you the last min.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY my dear baby boy.

if things really din matter
if things really were ok.
if it was all just nevermind.

you would have never felt that way.
i would never be feeling this way.
its been a long day.

sorry aint enough to salvage the damage done.
i know it.
things are not going well at your side.
i know it too.

it's time like this that i feel that i would very muchlove to turn back time
love you still.
*smuacks*

as i mentioned...
havent played bball in eons.

thankfully din malu-ate myself.
in fact.
considering the fact that i havent played competitively for the last 3 years.
i did fine.

had all the normal trainings. like 2 men pass. figure 8. block outs
ha. i actually remembered everything.

played 5-5 too.
2 girls 3 guys a side.
stamina was sucky to the core.
but ha...managed to "burn" ONE guy and steal the ball from TWO other.

yesh. and right now.
my body is aching like CRAP.

maths test this morning was sigh.
ok but not ok.
i hope i pass. *cross my fingers*

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.



dunno about yours. but mine seems pretty accurate.

once again....

i blew 35 bucks on a pair of nike shorts
another 35 bucks on a nike sports bra for the sister

and i'm still thinking of spending another 35 bucks on myself.

all these...... at my school's bazzar.
my gosh.

did i mention i was eyeing a 60 bucks dress from forever 21.

geez......
to think i told myself to stop spending.



basketball training in 3 hours.
zzzz....
did i mention i havent really played bball in eons?

good luck to me.
i just hope i dun malu-ate myself.

went to VIVO city with my dear boy today.
it's definately my new heaven.
we have forever21, zara, mango, topshop, esprit and tangs.
all in that huge ONE building.
how nice....
no more shuttling btw wisma and taka.
bye bye orchard.
hi vivo.

had a great time with my boy.
he's finally back in camp.
i dunno to be happy or sad.

the haze is starting to irritate the shit out of me.
so was the long jam home.
cab fare cost 20 bucks today.
when it usually cost only 12 at most.

been spending alot.
budget girl. budget.

things are starting to get more and more tiring.
i promise to do well.
i must juggle my studies and everything else.



anybody knows of any good place to have a nice dinner with a group of friends?
i ran out of places.
need a place by friday....
hmmm

essays are piling and piling.
i'm so sick of it.


my boy has been really adorable.
4 teeth out and pain is all he feels.
duh.


i realized i had been spending so much money
i actually really lost count.
gosh.
getting my allowance is really not that enough.
taking into account that i have to put about half aside for savings.
there's hall fees.
school books.
meals.
bills.
transportation.
and daddy just asked if he could cut his 300 for me to 200???

where got enough??
i'm going to start my driving soon.
and i'm gonna pay every bit myself.
dead shit.

i forgot that as an older sis who has started "staying outside home"
i actually started having that "i feel obligated to be nice to my siblings" mode
that is i unknowingly start buying more things for them almost every other fortnight.

being in hall means paying my own meals.
being at home means paying for their meals.
AHhh....
now where did all my moo-lahs go?????

sometimes i wonder if it is really enough?
i need to start a where did all my money go? accounting book.
soon.

The Guy

The guy who loves you,
can't tell you the reason why he loves you.
He only knows that, in his eyes,
you are the only one.

The guy who loves you,
although he always makes you mad,
but whatever he has done is for your own good.

The guy who loves you, seldom praises you.
But in his heart, you are the best.
Only he knows it.

The guy who loves you,
will scold or complain if you didn't reply his messages or answer his calls
because he cares for you.

The guy who loves you , only drops his tears in front of you.
When you try to wipe his tears,
you are touching his heart ,
the heart which beats for you.T

he guy who loves you ,
will remember every word you said ,
even if accidentally.
And he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who loves you,
will not give any promises that easily
because he don't want to break the promise.
He wants you to believe him
and give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

guy who loves you, always tells you not to think too much,
because he has already planned it for you.
He wants to give you the best life in the future.
He wants to give you a surprise,
believing that he can do it.

The guy who loves you,
maybe can't remember those special occasions like anniversaries,
but he does know that, every second he lives,
he's loving you, no matter what day is it.

The guy who loves you,
won't say "I love you" that easily,
because everything he has done for you
already shows that he love you.
He will only say it at the special situations
because he don't want you to misunderstand.
He wants you to know that he really loves you.

The guy who really loves you,
will feel that sometimes certain things only have to say once
because he thought that you might already understand him.
If talk so much,
he will feel that there's nothing you will cherish.

The guy who loves you,
will go to the airport to fetch you
but he won't carry a bunch a rose
and call you darling like what you expect.
He will carry your luggage and ask you
" Why are you becoming that thin within two days?"
with his sincere heart.

The guy who loves you,
will listen quietly to you when you are mad.
When you have finished,
he will say " You still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier."
with a smile.

The guy who loves you,
don't know whether he should call you when you are angry
but he will send a message to you after few hours.
If you ask him why he called that late,
he will say "When you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish.
But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works."

The guy who loves you,
always treat you like a little girl.
But everytime he want to make a big decision,
he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who loves you,
don't like little toys like teddy bears,
but he will always put the bear you gave him at his bed.

The guy who loves you,
while quarrelling,
he will apologize although you are the one who's wrong.
But later, he will say
" Baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself."

The guy who loves you, seldom say sweet words.
But you know, his kisses have already transfer all his passion to you.

The guy who loves you,
if he can't always see you,
he will try to make himself busy so that he will not have any time to think of you.
Because he knew, if he didnt, he will keep on missing you.




now i know....
happy 20.
i love you

11 Sep

hall office sent me an email saying....

You WILL be getting a room mate soon.


28 Sep

Hall office sent me an email again....

You MAYBE getting a room mate soon.



make up your mind~!!!
haha...surprises comes as big shocks at times.

i have a new name...
" teacher jie jie"

how sweet...

somehow...my mind is still playing around with the idea of choosing the primary track or secondary track.
i love kids... so primary IS very tempting.
and secondary school syllabus is no doubt getting HARDER and HARDER
day by day.

i refuse to surrender to this challenge though.



anyway...that aside

went to kusu island yesterday.
on a gorgeous yacht.
andy's uncle almost 700k yacht.

i love the boat.
i love the sea.

going at that speed.
the sea breeze.
the beautiful coastline from west coast to sentosa to kusu.
even though all i saw was ports after ports.
it's a different perspective.
and i love it to bits.

did i mention...
i fell off the boat while trying NOT to be pulled into the water.
so i got more than just getting wet.
yeah. bruises.


thanks dear for coming to pick me up from home in the wee hours of the morning.
i know we were BOTH tired and sleepy.
but you still made the extra effort to come over.
i enjoyed the drive to your place!!
you're the best driver around. heh.
*heart* you

ha. driving along the expressway and roads at 6+ on Sunday morning is wonderful.
No cars. No jam.


i sense that i'm becoming spoilt.
either drive me around please?
or my second option would be the cab.
heh....... where did my love for bus rides go???