Monday, January 31, 2005

ahh....
the guy who is singing some i dunno what performance
should just QUIT singing.
out of tune.
out of pitchless.
hey mister...you're tone deaf~!!
and i wanna sleep.
stop it stop it stop it~!!
*bangs my head*
my stomach's hurt.
i feel like vomitting.
in fact i already did.
i'm tired.
dehydrated.
charred.
but it has been a rather nice weekend.
racing.
good and bad races.
fun and not fun times.
oh wellz.


seeing all the "black" faces in school today was really cute.
all the drained and tired bodies.
all the poor lil team mates of mine.
hope u guys recover soon~!!
oh wellz...
met viv and andy for dinner at chomp chomp.
miss them sooooooooo much.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

just came back from school
yawns...i just wanna sleep now.
i've gotten darker and redder again.
training was tiring yesterday.
i think i'm tired from training because of the boat pulling and not the sailing.
gosh. all the freaking tyres are flat.
not a single one is in good condition.
seriously...flat tyres and steep soft sand is not a good combi.
where's the new seitechs?!!?


haha....found out something today.
*grinz*

Sunday, January 23, 2005

woke up three hours ago.
and i'm feeling tired already.


but i need to start studying? man.


met edwin yesterday.
with the cap on...
so typical of every ns boy out from camp.


training was pretty fun yesterday.
thanks for draggin me into the sea.
ouch.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

today seems like the only day so far this year dat i spent with a smile constantly.
i'm just feeling a little tired.
and cold.


first thing i heard this morning.
was the odds of us winning the championships.
as usual the power house VJ already have the champion place reserved for them.
but izzit really that hard to get 2nd?
MJ, TJ, RJ, TP.
we need a good coach. someone like tracey.
a miracle.
i wanna win.
i want it so badly.
do we really have to have weelee as a coach?
where's tracey.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Happy BirTHday bAby~!!


sailing. studying. sleeping.
its only 3 major things to do in my present life.
but i already find it mentally draining.
i wonder how am i gonna pull through the year.


i hate my geog teacher. squarepants.
cant teach for nuts. i'm not being evil or mean here.
but it's just a fact. ask any geog student
*roll eyes*


feel a sense of detachment from all my frens.
it just feels as though...
we are on a diff wavelength already.
i need to move out of my comfort zone.
but i dun wan to. i miss my darlings.


seems like most of my frens been pretty down lately.
not a good start for the year.


hey dear...
dun cry anymore ok?
hurts me to see you upset.
hurts all of us to see you so down.
i know its hard to let go...no one ever said it was easy.
but think it through hard....is it worth holding on to and waiting for?
you know it for yourself. and only you yourself is in control dear.
be strong girl....i'll always be here for you k.
*hugs*


lijie darling...
you too...
dun be so upset. dun be so angsty.
sorry for getting you such a screwed up job.
sorry for not being there for you.
smile more girl...
it'll make your day...i'll make other's day.
its not nice to go round with a sulky face.
no one likes seeing an unhappy you.
i know how it feels when it seems like the whole world is against you.
like every single thing just goes wrong.
but sweetie....dat's life...so dun let it bring you down.
try to face everything with a smile on ya face.
i would love to see a big big smile on ya face.
wadeva it is on ya mind....i hope you sort it out soon.
dun think so much. dun always think so much.
it makes one upset.
when u wanna do something...just get it over and done with.
thinking more and sorting things out more doesnt really help.
in fact it makes u feel worst.
i'll always be a phone call away or sms away.
love you dear....*big big hug*


viv....
sorry for not calling you...but you can always call me ok?
i noe you hate it at work too....
but bear with it larz... there's no such thing as a perfect job.
i'm so sorry i havent been there for you too...
anything. and i mean anything...you can call me.
anytime. beebee loves you.
*smuacks*


jiehui...
slacker~!!!
happy counting your kaching kaching.
hahaha....
i miss seeing you around in school~!!...
that cheeky grin on ya face everytime you see me.
oh yeah.....you've grew a teeny weeny bit chubbier.
but you're still so adorable.~!!!
lurve you~!


buddy~!!
help me take care of those two ok?
hard on you to always having to be the mediator.
dui bu qi.
miss you darling.
it really feels weird to not being able to see you every other day.
i guess i have really taken you for granted for the last 2 years.
sigh. i lurve you too silly boy.


alvyn.
i actually miss your crap and bullshit.
your angsty shit. your mat nonsense.
thanks for being there for me.
JC life would have been quite different without you.
thanks for being part of it.
no doubt you've made a huge impact in my life the last 2 years.
all the best in NS dear... =)


Sunday, January 09, 2005

many have been telling me i've changed quite a bit over this few years.
from the compromising sweet girl..
to a short and hot tempered girl.
it seemed to be getting worst as the days goes by.
i just cant seem to be able to control my temper anymore.
is it influence?
or is it just me?
whatever it is.
sorry to all who have to bear with me.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

i finally got down to cutting my hair.
after like.....3 years.
wow.
i feel so much at ease now.
but i miss my nice hair colour.
with the brown streaks that graudually ends with a nice tone of golden.
tataz hair.
but hey...i got to keep like the nice part.
hahahaha......
my bundle of hair.
itz looks ridiculous and scary though.
like i'm into voodoo or something. =)


it was a mistake to meet.
i'll just stick to seeing you in my dreams

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

thought i would be happy,
but it all turned out otherwise.
it was a terrible time.
but i'm still glad it happened.

Monday, January 03, 2005

school's just not right without all of you.
and this is just the beginning.
my time table actually looks kinda disgusting.
with 30 breaks out of 67 periods.
i end school pretty early too.
other then tues. i end before 3 everyday.
esp on a wed.
i end at 945?! and i got sailing at 2.
how nice.
but i actually hope it stays this way.
i kinda like it.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

my uniform's ironed.
my shoes are out.
my bag's packed.
homework's not done.
school's tmr.
heading to bed after shower.
fuck i need to wake up at 530 tmr.
my average waking up time for the last two months is 9am.
damnit.


just came back from grace's house.
i had a whole load of great fun.
tons and tons of it.
thanks mr ng. thanks buddy. thanks sailors.
itz gonna be so awkward going to school tmr.
the familar faces wouldnt be around.
i will miss my buddy alot alot.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

its raining heavily on new year day morning.
wonderful.
i'm heading back to my bed.
2005 is here. nothing much to feel about it.
its not like its a year to look forward to.
or is it?
2004 has been a rather great year.
there have been highs and low.
its just exhilarating.
i wouldnt change the past year though.
things happen for a reason.
made new friends. new relationships.
although somewhere along the 2004 track, i lost some too.
in fact. i kinda love 2004.
my sailing team mates. lijie. sera. viv. wei. wenz. prisc. jiehui. alv. ys. bing. and everybody else. thanks for being part of my life in 2004.
i've changed quite a bit over this year.
for good...and for bad.
sorry to those who have to tolerate my unreasonable mood swings.
sorry to those who always have to cheer me up.
i will miss those days i spent with my buddy at the sailing table.
i will miss the times i always get to see lijie and sera.
i will miss those familar faces around school.
2005 is gonna be real different for me.
gotta adapt myself to the new enviroment without my friends.
a whole new change, in my life.
to all my dears, greatest thanks for always been there for me, esp lijie, sera, viv and andy.
love ya all.


my only resolution for this year.
study freaking hard.
farewell 2004. hello 2005.