went out with sera lijie and vivi.
watched bourne supremacy.
wasnt too bad a show.

was supposed to head back to st nicks.
but nope. vivi was kinda late..
so we decided not to go back.
Miss the school
Miss the life
the comfort of entering those doors in the morning.
the ease of walking along the corridors.
the joy of catching up with your classmates. your friends.
the breathtaking view from the spectators stand.
even during the exams..u never really feel the pressure..
of doing well. of not doing well.
laughter fills the air..constantly.
from the little giggles of the primary kids
to the conversations of the secondary school girls.
life has never felt better.
the innocence of adolescence.
a place that never really felt like a school.
it felt more like a home.
somewhere like heaven.
sweet and unforgettable.
Miss the teachers.
no screwed up teachers or principal.
no male species.
just kinda leading the carefree life in some sense.
never really having to worry about living up to the expectations
the high expectations pple set for u.
teachers understand dat...sometimes...
u just might fall...
and they are always there to pick u up
to support u thruout.
they understood dat u've done ur best
and that u just havent release ur full potential.
they would always be there to guide u
to offer a helping hand.
results is important. but dat wasnt all that matters
unlike now.
i miss st nicks.
gotta go back someday.
soon.

taking my basic theory later..
hope i can pass.
ha...otherwise...

"Love Is Only A Feeling"

The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all

Love is only a feeling (Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing( It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Love is only a feeling (Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing (It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling (Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing(It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.

it feels good to have someone to drive u around
really good.
u feel so pampered.
*grinz*
thanks for the ride.

anyway....had a great time at the airport yesterday..
meeting my whole clique again was great.
the joy of enjoying each other's company
the joy of catching up on each other's life.
i had fun.
lotsa fun.
just taking pictures like crazy.
doing silly poses and silly stuffs
things u shouldnt be doing when u're eighteen
we were acting like little kids.
but who cares....
itz not everyday u get to be childish

miss tan left for new york.
to study some international education or something along dat line.
she would then work to improve e educational systems and policies.
that's really cool.
cause the present one sucks.
at least wad happened to the bball team did.
and not like school is perfect now.
changing the policies...
interesting.

miss justina tan.
the most bimbotic teacher i've known.
but she's cool.
really nice and funky.
a wonderful teacher.
one who get to really know her students
understand them and guide them.
she's great
and hot. HA
study hard..
we'll work hard together
thanks for the advice.
thanks for understanding.
see ya in may.

i still hate school

itz been pretty quiet around the table lately.
the crazy laughters
the outrageous conversations.
the chilling out.
the mugging together.
the table is so silent now.
miss u guys.
the team. my team
will this kind of scene be back again?
i find it hard so.
the new team isn't dat bad though.
but its a brand new team.
a whole new different breed in some sense.
i've gotta adapt again.
slowly.

met the b**** two days ago.
i'm sorry but she really is one.
she seriously proved my point about hating school.
hey b****. have anyone told u..
u really suck.
seriously...u're one of the worst person i've ever met.
u never really spared a thought for others.
u never tried understanding your students
results.
is dat all dat really matters.
wad u said really hurt dat day.
were u waiting for me to rebuke?
were u waiting for me to give an answer?
sorry to disappointing u
but i find it really pointless to answer ur accusations.
ur piercing words.
the kind of words dat a student least wanna hear.
ur sarcasm backfired.
it made me detest u even more.
i dunno how u got to where u are today.
u're not playing ur role as a motivator.
education was never supposed to be the way you potray it.
but wadeva it is...
i regretted choosing diz school
and being under you.
wish i could just stayed in st nicks.
the school i felt home at.
the school u claimed taught me to be quiet.
so i supposed the school u're in is the best.
let me tell u... u're not wad make diz school fun and nice.
its the students.
-once a saint always a saint-

i still dun like school.
in fact more and more.
albeit the nice stuffs like frens dat comes with it.
school really aint dat great.
studying isnt dat bad.
it's just e school.
bad points surpasses good points by alot.
i detest my school.
or maybe its just e system...
the way this school's system works is just really wrong.
i cant understand the teachers..the system
just as much as they dun understand me.

burnt

ooo...today's sun was blasting. hot~!
din sail much.
but coaching wasnt dat bad.
flushed and tired.
the sun was a killer.
but sailing rox.
love it.

to all my pals mugging hard.
all e best with ya prelims.
dun so stress so ok?
study hard
*smiles*

hoo hah?!

met yewsong today.
and things were great.
it was nice talking to u again.
it was nice hanging out with u again.
u have this thing for making me feel really.....small...
like a little girl..
the little sister u always treat me as.
"hoo hah"
dat's really funny.
cant believe u guys do dat.
thanks for spending ur precious time with me.
hope to see u soon.

damn

my ct sms me during dinner.
meet the principal thingy.
man.
it totally ruined dinner for me.
25 aug.
my death sentence.
i can just picture myself in the room.
looking at the bitch.
hearing her throwing wadeva shit she wants to say.
be like renfred.
u're not studying.
u sure u studied hard enough.
argh.
wadeva.
dun like pple judging me when they dunno me.
wonder wad comments my tutors gave me.
i wonder..
i hate school.
literally. school.

thanks for today dear.
glad to see u.
prob not gonna meet u anytime soon.
study hard.
stop procrastinating ok.
gonna miss u....
loads.

*smilez* i really enjoy spending time with the both of u.
my buddy and my dear...
wheeee......
thanks~!

to her

stop screaming.
stop giving me the cold shoulder.
stop doing wad u're doing.
u're not proving your point
u're not getting the attention u want.
u're just making me really irritated.
making me pissed with you.
you.
the person i never want to hurt.
the person i never want to get angry with.

friday the 13th

"never love a love that hurts, never hurt a love that loves"

sitting by the shore with my buddy.
made me thought things thru
rather throughly.
just staring at skyline of shenton way was beautiful.
everything fell in place.
the agony in my mind was surpressed
for dat moment
got things sorted out a little.
the mess in my head
got a little packed.

i hate u noobshat
hate is a strong word
but seriously.
dat's kinda how i feel towards u now.
felt like all those times were just lies.
just a facade u've been creating for me.
have i even really know wad u've been thinking.
or had i just lived in the world of my own.
i hate seeing u.
i hate it.

the pain in my head is killing.
feels as though someone is constantly compressing it.
the capacity in my mind has reached its limit.
the pressure is excruciating.

stress...
how do one overcome it.
pressure...
how do one fight it?
understanding...
how do one gain it?
lost...
how do one find her way out it?
darkness...
how do one find the light?

the pain of studying.
the pain of performing well.
the pain of being misunderstood.
the pain of living up to expectations.
the pain of being a student.
a student i wish i never was.

to my dearest.. i miss u

lijie. sera. abby. viv... my darlings

met my darlings again today.
wheeeee.....love them loads.
we had lotsa fun...
wish time would just stop there and then.
just being with the ones i love.
thanks sweeties....
life is great with u guys around.

get out of my mind

i felt weird when i saw ur photo
i felt wrong when i noe about u.
my stomach's turning..
i feel really wrong.
am i supposed to feel diz way?
am i?
i dunno.
i'm having mixed feelings
diz weird sickening mixtures of feelings
running thru my mind right down to my stomach.
turling like a rollar coaster ride.
wad's wrong baby....wad's wrong...
i'm not supposed to feel diz way.
i'm not supposed to care.
i'm not supposed to.
but i still do. i still do... unconsciously.
diz is wrong. it's just NOT right.
get out of my mind.~!!

been sailing for e whole weekend.
pesta sukan.
i've got 8th individual...and 3rd in laser radial sch team.
my first medal since i started sailing.
finally...
i'm happy... was actally quite surprised with my performance.
Top 6 sailors were national sailors..
and i tied with 7th. but she got e 7th cause she beat me for e first race...
argh...i beat her like in almost every other race.
AHhhhh.....
and because of dat...we tied with rjc with 31 points...
and rj got 2nd and sa 3rd...cause their first sailor, charmaine is 4th and i'm 8th
wind wasnt too bad. had a few races with moderate to strong wind.
but wind was kinda shifty. killed me a few times....
din see it coming.....and banged e wrong side of e course...
oh well....pesta was a good regatta for me diz time round. i'm satisfied...
mini grace sailed really well too...for a first timer she was pretty good.
she will make a good sailor. she has great potential...
dat girl is really funny.... she's so diff from my first impression of her.
she's so whiny...ahhahahah..and lame too.
oh wellz...keep up the good work grace.. haha
my buddy sailed pretty well too... great job~!
boy....so gonna miss u dear...
wont be having ya sail with me anymore.
kbing me out at sea....playing pirates... suaning me....everything.
itz just fun having u around.
haha.....and i KINDA need someone to pull my boat and help me with stuffs...
heh....my poor buddy....over utilised by me... hahaha..
feel so bad at times...
he's like my maid..
oh noz...
i'm gonna miss my team. miss my buddy. miss the fun with have.
miss the trainings together. miss the dinners. miss the crapping. miss everything.
things dat i noe i might not get to do with the incoming team.

AHhhhhhhh

haha...my darling sister just destroyed my hand..~!!!
she kinda designed my hand with henna...
and seri0usly it loos like crap...
hahahah.....i've no idea how i'm gonna go out tmr..
and dat silly girl happily threw a book on it when i was waiting for it to dry.
so she kinda smashed and smudged it...
so i have so no idea how i'm gonna go to school tmr... or even out..
my hand's screwed.
itz ugly...
hahahah i'm mean... my sister did quite a good job for someone who hasnt done it before
but....
itz still ugly

my bro met him...
and thinks he's handsome..
hahah...my bro actually praised somebody..
itz kinda surprising..
ahahahah lucky u dear....
now my sister wanna see how he looks like too
ok...diz is weird....
something is WRONG with the two siblings of mine
ahahhahahahh

angst.

cant stop thinking of you.

and i miss my whole lot of darlings.
but it seems like i dun really have time for them..
itz so hard to get everybody to together..
and when they're finally all free...
i'm not....
talk about the right time.

my former civics tutor gave my class a huge thrashing today..
about attitude towards things...being disrespectful...
being irresponsible to ourself...trying to take things into our own hands.
he kinda made sense...
budden again....it really was a little too harsh.
you dun just go scolding somebody outright in front of the whole class..
itz just...not nice..
but well....guess my class deserved a wake up call...
prob not everybody....but just a couple of blacksheeps
just a couple.