never really thought that i would miss SA as much as i do now.
i actually miss the school.

thinking back...

remembered arguing with my mom...
insisted on putting SA as my first choice...cause i wanted very much to join their bball team.
remembered being in an awful dilemma when i was asked if i wanted to join sailing.
which of course i did in the end...drama...


i miss my class... need not say much.....04A51 is just a very different class from all the others i've been in...cant say it's because of the large no. of girls since i was from an all girls school.... but wadeva it is i love them to bits...
i miss my sailing team.... the times we would just meet up at the sailing table... to have our breaks together...complain about everything.... crapping around...and even attempt to study at that noisy table.
i miss the times i had pe....
i miss the times we trained till late.
i miss sitting at the gallery talking to my frens...
i miss the long queues in the small cafe during our common breaks.

i miss chilling out with everybody...
i miss running to the side gate whenever i hear the bell ring when i'm still at the opposite bus stop...having to run like mad hoping the teacher wouldnt stick out his hand and stop us from entering.
i miss getting my green slips...
and i actually miss studying.

could still remember how i refused to run during cross country... only to freaking sprint my lat 200m because of the milo truck.
and how we happily agreed to Mr Ng's suggestion on whether we want to help out for cross country and sports day.... just so we could skip the runs

i miss the horrible power flush toilet.
i miss the table-less Audi.
i miss LT1 n 2 with that lingering smell.
i miss the huge cold LT3
and never forget the supposedly haunted toilet next to it which totally scared the shit out of the house council.

i miss the times when we would drag the tables from the cafe and support the soccer and rugby teams...although i know nuts about the game.
i miss the times we would talk our teachers into cancelling lessons...just so we could catch the bball finals.
i miss the saints spirit.


once a saint always a saint

in my attempt to find out more...


i've learnt that ignorance is bliss.


pls dun let it be....



anyway....I HATE WORK. =)

my head's in a freaking mess now.
i just hope it isn't
praying hard it isnt .

ITS FRIDAY ITS FRIDAY....ITS BRIGHT AND SUNNY FRIDAY~!!!!

i've officially appointed MR. ANDY NEO as my personal trainer.
since i'm obviously growing fat and bloop...
and since the even more obvious thing is that i'm one hell of a lazy girl.

so yup!
i need a motivator who would make sure i exercise every week.
who makes sure i keep up with my daily exercise routine -that's if i even have one-

so thank you baby....
i know you're gonna get mad at me gazillion times for being soooo lazy...
but i will too, get angry with you for being so annoying....
ha...yesh....sacrifices for looking good.
darn.....

i hate exercising.
although i would love to play a good game of bball....
as in the full game....5 on 5 full court.


here's a song to you:

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby

Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys

after seeing and hearing from my frens about their relief teaching jobs...
feel a sudden urge to apply for it and give it a try.
at least it seems alot more interesting than what i'm doing now.
think i'll go apply later.
and see how it goes.....


it feels quite annoying to know that someone is out to ignore you....
i guess that just totally spoilt my bright and sunshine morning.


it's only thursday?!
how i wish it was friday today... geez....
i wanna quit my job......
but till i find another...
it doesnt sound remotely possible to go jobless even for a little while...
since my parents arent just making me support not only myself fully...
but also happily assumed that i ought to be helping out with every little thing in the house.
my dad just told me straight in the face this morning to give him 50 bucks so that they could buy my sis the spikes and sports shoe she wants...

i'm like....wth?
dun happily assume that i HAVE to share just because i'm working.
the least you could do was to ask if i wanted to share rite?
doesnt help that i'm barely earning 1k and they make it sound like i earn 3k a month.

phone bills....
saving up for my driving lessons....
supporting my ugre to shop....
i suddenly wonder where have all my money gone.
seriously....is 1k a month alot? seems like the more you earn the more you spent.
still owe baby a treat.....but it really seems that i dun have much money left...
and i just cant understand why??????


really wish to play and relax for a while....
i've been shit working since after my A's....
and i mean STRAIGHT after....
geog paper ended on a thursday...my last paper....and i rushed down for an interview...got the job...
and started working on the following tues.....
that gave me wad???
4 pathetic days to enjoy my POST EXAMS....
this sucks...
now i know why i'm so bloody upset.

i need more money....
so that i can be happier......=(

the weekend is freaking over...
and i'm back at working.

it's getting so frustrating.
waking up at 7 every morning.
catching the 745 bus 70 all the way to shenton.
the same freaking landscape.
the same freaking rushing scenerio.
4 hours of work.
lunch at 1.
another 4 hours of work.
before i sleep my way home on the bus.

it's getting really boring and irritating.
sigh...i really hate working.

love the weekends...which always seems to pass so fast.
sat was spent making pineapple tarts at my aunts place.
and yesterday was just perfect...
woke up early to meet the girls for breakfast.
but only managed to meet lijie and sera dear.
caught up a little. complained about life.
just the usual stuffs.


the rest of the day was spent with baby.
nothing could beat that.
lurve you to bits.


i just love weekends like that.

it's friday the thirteen.
but all is well...
the sun is finally out....
and holding up high in the sky...
just so so glad its finally a dry and sunny day.

getting irritated with the cold weather...
and it helps that i'm feeling so much better today.
no more puking syndrome...but more of hunger pangs.
heh....hungry...


tmr is the weekend...
i'm happy happy.
guess why?

happy birthday lijie dear...


i hate the fact that it has been raining everyday.
i hate the fact that i cant sleep in when it rains in the morning.
i hate the fact that i have to drag myself out of bed to come to work.
i hate my puffy eyes now.
i hate it that i feel like puking every now and then.
i hate the fact that i dun feel well.

i hate my life now.

i cant believe it rained the whole of yesterday.
it just took away all the joy of the weekend...and as gloom as the day was.
my day wasnt perfect either.



i thank a boy who came down on sat...
despite coming out late.
despite being awake since 4..
despite feeling extremely tired...
you still made the effort...
i can only ask for more....



feeling very excluded from them. know that i love you.

have this sudden urge to go give tuition..
just so that i could earn more money so that i wouldnt feel so broke.
i'm just so thankful that i'm still paying the student rate for buses.
hope it really lasts till 2007 as my card reflected.

cant imagine if i have to pay the adult fare...
cant imagine how much more i would have to spend on transportation.
*gosh*
i think i would rather cab around then.


i'm just lucky.


anyway...daddy finally agreed to pay for a partial of my driving lessons.
hopefully he sponsors like 700-800.
den i should be able to pay the rest.. of about 800.
taking private cause its so much cheaper.
let's just hope i can pass my first time round.

so to give or not to give...
anybody has students for me?

would guys prefer a girl who's pretty but aint have such a nice figure?
or one who have a nice figure but aint pretty?


i MIGHT choose the latter.

and so it is the new year...
darn...
spent the three days doing nothing much.
new year's eve was spent at home...and so was new year's day.
yesterday was spent with baby at the wake.
sigh.

i just realized i cant see people cry...
cause i'll start crying too.
its so silly....but i'm just so emo.

so my weekend was gone just like that...
and baby's back in camp.
hope these 4 days would quickly pass....and sat would come again.

and so....my new year resolution for this year...the one and only one.
exercise and eat less...so as to lose all my fats.
i'm starting to look rounder...and that's bad news....
i dun usually make new year resolutions....so yeah...2006 shall be special.
LOSE MY DARN FATS~!!