a job to be happy about?

i've gotten my holiday job
promoting absolute vodka at the airport.
pays well. 10/hr.
8 hours a day.

i'm supposed to be happy.
but after looking at my uniform.
i'm really just full of apprehensive-ness.
i'm quite upset at this moment.

on a much much MUCH happier note.
shopping with my boy today.
you wouldnt wanna know how much we spent..
ha..

a good time we had?
yes indeed.
i love you dear.
thanks for my erm...
presentsSSSSSS~!!

=)

my birthday wishlist

i really really want an instant camera.
2 to choose from for the time being...










Instax200. 79 bucks with film costing 15 bucks for 10.
its super big and bulky. but i like that the film is big.















instax mini7.
so small. and portable i guess.
99 bucks with film that cost 12.50 for 10.
cheaper option i think considering that film is 2.50 lesser than the above?
hmm...instant camera's film are ex.
but the film is only credit card size... =(


help me choose someone.
dun bother telling me its pointless to get an instant camera.
i know digital is better.
i'll get BOTH. =)

the aftermath

its terrible.
i just feel that i've failed myself miserably in my maths exam

i couldnt say i din do well.
i mean. i did attempt all the questions i tot was impossible.
and to know that i actually got a couple right to a certain extent..
i think i should be happy.

but the plain carelessness and how i managed to solve a question
yet.
cancelled it last minute was totally wth.

i'm sad.
i'm very upset. with myself.

2 down in 2 days.
one last paper to go.
my most confident maths module by far.

its a stress i'm gonna n have to put on myself.
i need to pull up my gpa damn it.

if only life wasnt just about grades.
i wish. not when my pay is dependable on my grades. sigh.


i actually wished my roomie was here so i could rant out. =(

life is that unfair. ha

my darling roomie and i took our first paper which is geography today.
however....

i have 2 more to go.

but it was her last as well....

now i'm in hall alone.
i'm quite sad.
i shall munch on the loads of food she left behind for me..
famous amos...yum

think i'll go do the laundry later.

i sneezed till my some vein in my nose burst i think
cause my right nostril hurts like....CRAP now.
seriously. wad a time to feel awful.
mommy asked me how to study for exam like that
i look so tired.

i also dunno how.
hang on lor

i got my 21st bday present from my boy already
its gorgeous...
=)

ah-chhooooooooooooooo

i think i've been bitten by the FLU bug again.
exam starts next week.
jialat.
i have 8 days to balance my studying between my tougher maths module out of the 2 maths i take
and also the equally tough geography.

and with the flu bug now.
i really dunno if i can.
i shall sleep early tonight.
crap.

home has never felt better

after my close to breakdown yesterday
it really feels good to be home today
last ALS lesson went on smooth and fun.
i guess it really gave me new insight to things.

i'm still in a cranky mood.
i cant explain.
maybe it really just is the time of the month.

i was blog surfing and took this off kathleidoscope's blog.
pretty much sums up what is in my head and heart all these while.

"i sometimes read too much into things. i try really hard not to, but most of the time i do.
i'm sorry i need you to constantly remind me of how much you love me,
how much you care
i suffer from what is commonly known as obsessive compulsive relationship disorder,
something i contracted the moment i thought you meant the world to me.
each time i suffer a relapse,
i wish there was something i can do that will take it all away.
i hope i'm not mad or something. i wish someone knows how i feel,
because when u meet someone who is very dear to you,
you would want to hold on to him no matter what."


i'm sorry i've been a bitch.
sometimes...
i really wish i wasnt like that.

sorry

i'm sorry i ranted and ranted and ranted today.
i knew i was probably getting on your nerves big time.

but because you knew i wasnt feeling good
and because you love me... rite?

you never once flared up at me.
in fact... you took everything to stride.

for that... you know i love you very much.

i need to find myself

i know its getting late.
but somehow i cant bring myself to sleep
a maths test in 8 hours time.
i'm done revising.
more or less.
but i just cant get to bed.

i dunno if it is cause i'm feeling empty or wad?
depressed isnt the word i wanna use to describe myself.
i'm actually feeling lost.
and i dunno why.


my ipod has been playing the same 34 songs.
repeat mode for the last 7 hours
just imagine.
i think i've reach a point where i'm not even listening.

at 4 am..

i've been on my ALS term paper for the last 12 hours.
ok larz. you could minus about 3hours cause i was slacking and having dinner etc.

oh well. i've managed to complete a term paper due 2 days before its due ok.
i usually complete it the night before only.
hahah...
wad to do..
i have 2 maths test on thursday which i'm not prepared for.
tmr is number theory day.
yawnz.

my roomie has been asleep for the last 7 hours. coolios man.
just imagine.
i'm amazed how i'm still not sleepy at this time.

Man U is thrashing AS Roma right now.
wanna know how i know?
cause the guys in the next hall are screaming
GOOOooooOOOoooooooooo......OAL~!!!
every 10 minutes or so.
they really drag the oooooooo OK?
hahahah guys.

it's quite interesting actually.
just imagine the scene at the hall lounge.

AS Roma just scored.
yes. i know it just by hearing.
they boo-ed.
hahahahhaha this is actually quite fun ya know.
i can actually update my boy without the tv or livescore.


i'm feeling hungry. its almost time for breakfast.
hahha i had dinner 8 hours ago.
WOW.
its weird when you count time like that.
i dun usually go hungry 8 hours.

yes i sound pretty high. high on teh-o peng.

BUILD-A-BEAR

yesterday i brought my little darling niece to vivo
so she could build her own bear
it was pretty fun.

on how they get to pick a toy.
pick a sound to put it in.
stuff it.
fluff it
dress it and name it.

although it was obviously a cheat my money and the kids thingy.
i must say that it is a very smart marketing idea.
i paid 40 plus bucks for the bear.
and that was probably one of the cheapest.

how they actually made kids feel like they really OWN the bear.
kiss a little heart and make a wish with the heart before putting it into the bear?
followed by sewing it up?
it was really sweet larz.
at least... the girl would really feel that the bear is hers.
and not just another toy.

you should have seemed how uptight and sensitive she got everytime andy walked near a dustbin.
she was so worried we would throw it away cause she was being naughty.

she dressed her princess bear in cinderalla outfit.
wah. that little outfit cost almost $30 bucks larz.
think...barbie doll dressing up.


OH YA.
did i mention the girl who tended to my niece tot that WE were her parents?
tmd.
my niece is turning 5 larz.
so if we were her parents...
that would make us 16 only lar.

either amelia looked young
or we looked old.
it's andy fault i tell you.


the girl just said we looked like a happy family.
OF COURSE LARZ.
i mean one is my niece and one is my bf mah.
how unhappy can we be?
@(Y)@$Y&(##&($T(&@~!(*@&^


oh yesh.
withdrawal symptoms...
i havent's shop for sooooo long!
i walked past forever 21 yesterday and i din get to SHOP
ah i'm sad.

MJ and KK? great combo man

Had MJ with the usual peeps on thursday evening.
hahah it was the MOST fun one ever.
Mr Alvin Chong was on this freaking lucky streak that by DONG FENG...
he won 70 bucks.

ya. he zi-mo 4 tai ONCE.
man tai once and 4 tai once or twice i think.
even though we played 40 80c which is quite alot
but man. 70 bucks by DONG FENG is too fierce.
considering we all started all with only 40 bucks.

ha but its ok.
i bao-ed him one. HHAHAH
so i barely won back my money.

hahah jp and andy was so darn happy when chong kana bao-ed
but you should have seen poor chong's face.
he was utterly devastated.
"i was winning 60 bucks. now it HALVED!!"

ha i really really love mj-ing with them
jp just gotta quit playing in his flight suit.
poor boy.

and so one pilot fren drove me to meet my OTHER pilot fren
for THIS!!
















































oh yum yum yum!!!

i collect it close to 11pm that night.
but by the next morning.....
this was all that's left...

its sinful.

but i cant help it..

bugs are not my frens

daddy mommy and my bro just left for cambodia this early morning
no idea why cambodia.
gosh. think army boys. think malaria.
eeekss...not my kind of place
i hate bugs.


speaking of which
my ants incident ...







































Due to it raining the night i found ants on my clothes.
i had to mass wash my clothes
and hang it in the room.
thanks to the improvisation of my roomie.
we hung a twine across the room.
from her cupboard to the windows.
cool huh.

its quite unsightful actually. oh well.

have to go back to hall tonight.
how sad. its's sunday night larz.

my other pilot fren.....

edgar got me krispy kremes from down under!!
woootttttweeettttt.... yumyum yummmmmmmmm
i lurve edgar dear!!!







justin... take that! nanny nanny poo poo.
hahah kidding.
i promise i'll get you those from sunny singapore.
*heeeeeee*

IT dont simplify things. it makes life worst actually.

finally handed my ICT project.
so glad its over.
i have one more major term paper due.
NEXT WEEK.
sigh.

ICT was terrible.
the flash error was seriously getting on my nerves and anna's.
my lappie simply refuses to acknowledge the flash images.
even after i downloaded shockwave and flash player more than 5 times.
it was nerve wrecking.
at 3 am last night.
i still refused to sleep.
i had to make sure everything was ok or at least until my partner sleep too.

luckily everything worked out fine in the computer lab this morning.
all ready to submit it and there were ERRORS AGAIN on the burnt cd.
i'm telling you.
i can die. sucks sucks sucks.




On monday:
i had to clear my entire wardrobe and wash all my clothes
cause they were infested with ants!
ok i'm exaggerating.
there were a couple of ants.
but its enough to scare me larz.

i'm perfectly ok if they are on the floor.
but ON MY CLOTHES?
NO WAY MAN.
last week my roomie had hers infested.
but mine WERE fine.
were is the key word.
i guess they erm.....
migrated???
wad the hell rite.

i hate ants.
at least not on my clothes.
bring on the ant chalk
ant powder.
insecticide and wadeva that is poison to them.
die ants die.


i actually had an ANTS nightmare.
wtf.


off to nap.zzz

during my convo.....

during my conversation with justin...
he told me this....

"other than fav andy. heckcare les, bz jess and emo xf,
there's always free justin. "


how apt.

i love these guys.

TGIF

The food...




















the company




wala-ed with these guys on friday night.
it was good chilling out...talking...
shouting to each other admist the um...band.
and playing 7-UP just so we can finish the drinks.

justin..you're right.
friday nights aint so bad after all.
after a long week of work and late nights.
i really needed that.
love you guys

i'm not a fan of people asking wad i would like for my birthday.
perhaps...
i'm just not used to asking for things.
i would love anything people for me.
something practical would be better definately.
its the thought that counts anyway.

i'll try and think up a list of things i want soon ok?
=(

its club 21 in about 5 weeks.
i'm still thinking if i should get a chalet to celebrate THE day.
but cost is a huge factor.
and since daddy mommy aint forking out anything for me.
i really cant imagine paying every single cent.
i just aint that rich.

i have an ideal party in mind.
but like i said.
its IDEAL.
not realistic.


birthday's were never supposed to be such headache.
just give me a surprise.
abby love surprises.




edgar passed his air grading.
he read my blog and saw me craving badly for donuts.
he said he would get me KK if he could.
i love you edgar. - if you can get me donuts that is-

no larz. kidding. =)