results are out.

NTU- science (education).

but since i failed my PE test 2 weeks ago.
i'll probably have to settle to being a maths teacher.

i'll just accep it first and work things from there.


still on the waiting list on SMU.
and i'm gonna appeal for business in NTU.


the future looks bleak.
or maybe its just me.



i should look on the brighter side of things.
to be glad i have somewhere to go.


but at the same time.
i feel awful.





it boils down to one simple point.
is this really wad i want?



song playing: must get out (maroon 5)

my daddy told me this.....


" i'm damn pissed with you cause you din study hard for your A's. See...now you have nowhere to go"




oh thanks.
wth. seriously.
i studied can. wtf.

i couldnt even be bothered to defend myself anymore.
it's tiring.
i know i did study. and study hard at that.
maybe i'm just dumb.
i'm not exactly feeling very proud of my grades.
but wad done is done.

i tried my best. dun expect much.
can you just be a little more understanding?
i wish. i hope.



i went out with the sailors just now.
was tired after work.
but i decided i din go home and get myself all scared.

i had fun.
i love the arcade when i'm feeling down.
and i love you all for making forget how scared i am.




p.s: i'll pray hard tonight for my dear fren who always listen to my nonsense in class.




it's times like this where i feel alone.
it's times like this where i feel so lost.
it's times like this where i wish things wouldnt be like that.
it's times like this where i would do things i usually wouldn't.
it's times like this where i wouldnt mind blasting music and getting myself drunk.


someone tell me: does drinking really takes away your problems?



i sense bad news ahead.
i wish i am wrong.

it's already 30th May.

and still no news.


i'm getting really frustrated and scared.

i failed the pe test thingy.



darn.



it just ruined my entire happy day of
tanning.
ben & jerry's...
all gone.


i expected it though.
but still.......
sigh.
ok
ntu please hurry just get back to me.

we both got bored waiting for sushi to come the other day.









still waiting.









all smiles cause it was yummy.















my retarded smile.














our many many plates....















tada~!!!! burp~!

Jobless NO MORE

i've got RE-employed.!!!!


yipee
my law firm job is back.

just when i need money
to upkeep my fast depleting bank account.

and to be able to get back my $8/hr job
which allows me to take leave anytime i want.

i shouldnt be complaining much rite?

to think i was just all ready to settle for a $6/hr job with irregular hours.


but....
i hate routines.
and having to wake up every morning at 7 again and den heading down to human packed shenton way isn't exactly the way i wanna spend my days.

yawnz....

i wanna sleep more
and wake up anytime i want.


anyway, da vinci code the movie is not that nice.
watchable.
but dun bother wasting your money on the movie tix


thanks for yesterday.
you were the best.


has all the postmen died?
where are my letters??????
NTU, SMU.......
i dun mind paying for my own stamps.
just SEND me the letters.


ooo.....by the way.
BJ and TYLER won amazing race 9.
i think its so fun to watch them race.

swimming wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.

badminton could have been better.

netball game was screwed up since some big girl decided to freaking "chop" my hand.
you know wad is call PAIN~!!!!
din help that the instructor praised her.

and stupid macho guys.....
macho guys playing a netball game with girls is even worse.
i dun like macho guys. period.
bulky muscles scares me.

gym was funny~!!!!
this ching chong girl seriously made me laugh like mad.
but i cant explain to you. i must SHOW you ok?
so you can ask me about it next time you see me.
anyway i think i did well for gym =)

and hahah.....remember the confusing agility run?
i got confused~!!!! i really did~!!!!
so embarassing. such an abby thing to do.
blur-ness.
so had to re-run lor.


oh yesh.
the bugger girl who chopped my hand with great strength
had a bugger show-off act pro boyfriend
who followed her around every station and
giving her comments.
ALOUD for all to hear.
yesh. bugger couple. ARGH.




oh well....
i hope i can pass.
not that i failed any station.
but more like i dun think i have enough points. hmmmm...

went down to SA this afternoon to get my pe document signed by Mr Ng.

saw people doing their rally in the cafe and den it took me a long long while to realize that it was the student council nomintation thingy.

den i realized......
how stoooopid it looked to be standing on the chair facing the cafe and your classmates crowding around you.
for wad???????????????????????
seriously, it din really matter to me wad you say during your speech....
i'll vote for you if....

1. you're pleasant looking.
2. you're my fren or my fren's fren. =)

that's it. that's how i would vote for you. =)

and after that i realized....
its MAY.... i dunno whether to say wow its may~!!! or its ONLY may.

since like when you leave school and start working.
the calender doesnt work the same way anymore.

in 2 weeks time.. i'll probably be thinking why the hell is my sister not waking at 6 to go to school
before i would go "ting ting" realizing its the school holiday.


We shall see....it WILL happen.



and apparently all the rugby boys are the heros of the schools today.
cause they beat RJC 15-10 and claimed first.
good job boys.
SAJC 1st for rugby ok.
so today the heros took green slips and act like heros.

greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen slips. deja vu. right A51???


met mr ng.... and he told me that the PPT is a piece of cake larz.
i told him i'm ok with everything except swimming.

and he said...
" at most swim doggy style lor"


???????????? so paiseh can. doggy style.


den i met mr ho. and he said.
" if mr chay can pass and be a pe teacher, you confirm can pass with flying colours!"

hahahah...right~!!!


he walked to THE acheivement board and place the 1st under 2006 under rugby.
den my last realization of the day.
where's sailing??

and this is wad yarh meh told me when i asked him where's sailing?
" no more already still put for wad?"


ARGH........ONG YARH MEH.~!!!
remember this...........
you you..... you traitor~!!!!!!!

before i left the room.
the lady who interviewed told me all the best for my PPT.
and she said "hope you can pass"

if it was about 1 year back.
i would definately say. " of course i would pass"

but now...
only " hope so too" was replied.




5 components forthe PPT this friday.
9 points to pass.
fail ONE station and i fail.

ok. i'm feeling very unfit at the moment.
and the swimming component really scares me.
since the last time i really swam properly in a SWIMMING pool was almost 5 years ago.


yes....and i cant help but also feel that i'll probably get confused while running this....

MY BIG 2-0

the box i received weeks before my birthday.














the pretty darling he got for me.














my birthday piece-of-CAKE for breakfast.














a yummy plate of baked rice for birthday dinner.














his yummy plate of three amigos pizza














eating our yummilicious dinners.














and of course~! the boy who made it all perfect.
thanks.

so if this is your way of solving the problem,

by escaping.

deluding.



think about it.

cause all i want to say is,

it's backfiring.

and it f****** hurts like hell.

Happy BIrthDay my dARling SIster~!!!

she's back from OBS looking like a burnt lobster.
seems like both sisters arent meant to enjoy their birthdays respectively this year.




so my 20th birthday hadnt been as eventful as i would liked it to be
but oh well.....i still enjoyed it nonetheless. - as a sick girl without much voice-

so i've hit the big 2-0
and i can officially say i'm no longer a teen...
but ha...i know i still dun act 20, dress 20 or even look 20. ha.

so yep....thanks to all who remembered my birthday.
to everyone who dropped me an sms, a call or even face to face.
thanks peeps...i love you all.

received birthday wishes from people i never really expected and i thank that you still remembered.

to grace for her long distance wishes.
see~!! -taken from her blog-
a post JUST for ME~!!!
i love you grace~!

"happy birthday abby!

to abby!!
even though i'm not in singapore this year... here's wishing you a very very happy birthday from across the world!

and although we don't see each other very much anymore you're in my thoughts!
i'm really glad we've kept in touch after jc!l

looking forward to seeing you in august babe!
email me if you need anything yah?

lotsa love, grace"


to my girls for all your love.
to jiehui, menghui, sameema and all those who send your wishes. THANK YOU too.
to you for making feel like a princess.... i love you the most.




P.S i got shortlisted for interview by MOE....
menghui...i need advice~!!!

i scare myself badly last night after i visited the website regarding the status of my ntu application.
and so i called up NTU this morning and the nice lady nicely told me i've already submitted everything that i had to and that my application is still pending.


Ahhhh....ok...at least its pending and not rejected.


but still... pending pending pending......
its driving me nuts.

nvm take your time ntu...as long as you are thinking of whether to offer me business....take your time. business ok? only business....pretty pls..


to yeanling: dun be so sad...trust me....i dunno about NTU but NUS will take you.
to edgar: congrats on getting aeronautics!!

to those who have been to the ocbc bank at headquarters....
you do know that they have a long "lobby" to the counters.

so my story is.....
i went to the bank this morning....
as i was walking in....
at that "lobby" there were a 2 rows of about 7 each standing by the side....

so then....i looked like a president walking in with all the bodyguards and servants welcoming me in by the side of the "path"
and they really looked like it ok.
so i decided to just smile at them while walking towards the "red carpet zone"

then as i walked in between the 2 lines.

they said in unison.
"GOOD MORNING, WELCOME TO OCBC BANK"

ok. maybe i'm not used to it but i seriously just jumped and got really uncomfortable.
like WTH????
seriously.

good service is taking to a whole new level that is freaking me out.

everytime i see a photo with the sailors....
or anything that has a laser on it...

i cant help it but really really miss them.

to those days back in school...
to those days back at NSC.

i can only wish to re-live it.
i can only wish that i could turn back time.

this is for the boy who called me this morning....
and told me that if he was gonna die soon..
he would have lots and lots of flings.
one a day at least.

upon hearing that,
i kicked my toe against the steps and tripped..
looking like a total klutz at UOB plaza.

my gosh.
image ruined.
toe pain.
i was wearing OPEN TOED HEELS!!!

to the boy: THANKS~!!!!

there's this constant nag at the back of my head.

repeatedly telling me that NTU doesnt want me....


no no nooooooo....




i had a bad dream.
i fear it would be true.

to be able to spent time with people you love is just the nicest thing.


i love the weekend.
i love today.

especially today.



i'm thinking of a food party.
sounds yummy.