i realized last night...

i really miss my class.
never really thought that i would miss them as much as i would be now.


but i do.
study hard my dears.....

went to novena this morning..
and shopped around novena square after mass.
bought a nice white tee from espirit....
nice...i like it....

rushed down to tanglin cc for my badminton game.
damn....its been long since i last used so much energy....

but 2 hours plus of badminton rocks man.
the feeling of pespiring and all that body heat in you sure makes one feel alive.

played with CS...his gf adele...and his twin bros....whom they call "babies"
i think its such a cute way of calling them....
since they are already like in sec school...
the youngest in the family i supposed.

more badminton games for me.
anytime.

it's less than 10 days to THE EXAM.
and yet...

i still dun feel the stress i ought to be feeling

it's weird how this time round i really dun feel the pre-exams blues
and to think that the A's is prob one of the most impt exam in my life..

i cant figure out what is wrong with me this time round.
but it's really really not right.

i've never felt so at ease about any exams
not even my O's
even though i felt confident i would do fine for it.

to make things worst....
i'm not even that confident for my A's
at all.

i just feel so un-motivated now.
so un-stress.

my frens thinks its good that this time round i dun feel stress
cause i everytime i'm stress... i screwed up.
but i really need a good push to start this 100 m race.

now.



going for badminton tmr.

managed to dragged myself out of bed this morning at 8 and be a good girl and clean up the house a little before making my way down to gardens to study with edgar

i'm so glad that boy asked me out to study in the morning...
cause if i din go...i'll be wasting my morning at home...
doing i dun even noe wad....

so i managed to do a paper 1 and paper2 for maths...
which supposed usually takes a total of 6 hours.
since i finished it btw 930-130 including breakfast.
i guess i had a fruitful morning~!!!


biggie breakfast was yummy.
till i saw the freaking nutrition info on the paper they put on the tray.

damn it...
i realized i was like consuming how much cholestrol...sodium...saturated fat...
and it totally made me just wanna stop eating.


speak about enjoying my meal.
#@!~!@$%@@@###@!!!......

went for consultation with mr peh yesterday.
a trip back to school only made me realize that time is running out fast.




finally feeling the little worries and stress that i should be feeling a long time ago.
barely 2 weeks left.



and i suddenly feel that i'm not confident at all.
i'm only praying hard now the papers are not tough.



i'm scared. i finally am.




to you who made an effort to give me a call last night.
thanks for you concern.
dun fall sick too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY~!!


woke up slightly earlier today cause i was all ready to go to school to book my consultation slot before going over.
but my laziness got over me and i just called fidelis to help me booked it.
feel extremely lazy to travel all the way down to school just to book a slot.

opp cost doesnt justify my actions.


still so full from yesterday.
burp.
doubt i'm taking any meals today.


went for high tea with his family.
no joke....i could really feel the fats multiplying inside me.
met up with the gang in the evening...
it was supposed to be a surprise...
but as i said right from the beginning...
it wouldnt work... cause he's just too alert for that.
anyway...there were far too many loopholes larz.


it wasnt well-planned nad well-carried out.
haha.
dinner at swensen's with earthquake as the cake.
yummy.........
den decided to visit alley bar for a drink.
it was a nice night.



no doubt.



i certainly dun feel a sense of urgency.
and it's getting worrisome.
why am i not getting fussed up over my A's
i need the stress to push me harder.


i'm too slow.
and time is running out.

when i saw the number of days left.
my heart sank.



but i really cant study much.

i think i'm finally able to finish my econs tys mcq by tonight~!!
oh yesh~!!!!!!!!!!
i hope i can get full marks for my A's mcq...
den that could save my life from my terribly disgusting awful horrendous ESSAYS.
seriously...
econs essays are the downfall of my A's.


i need consultations.
lots of them.


mcq tonight.
and hopefully 2 drq 1 case study and 2 essays tmr.
nothing is impossible.



but it's painfully tiring.

about 2 more weeks to the A's
THE freAKING A's
i spent the whole entire week studying econs.
but i still know nothing.
no kidding there.
everything is still in a mess.
the problems and policies.
sigh.


honestly...
they are supposedly quite common sensical.
and i know that i roughly know my stuffs here and there.
i can crap out verbally..
but asking me to write it out in essay?
i think i'll prob flunk it bad.


sigh...
i really dun wanna study anymore.

pictures from the last day of school

went for dimsum buffet with andy, viv lijie..and her fren.. yesterday.
it din turn out so bad afterall...
although i was pretty sure there were a few awkward moments.
maybe i'm just being over sensitive.


i was freaking full after that..
to think i already feel that i'm a pau myself....-white and fat-
and i had to eat dimsum~!@!??
grrrrrrrrrrr......


went shopping after that...and xf came along.
heh.....*winks*
anyway....it soon became a pretty big group...
as jess joined us too.
anyway the girls decided to go the "B-heaven"
which really wasnt the best place to go for the guys..
but they were all such sweeties to tag along.
if i'm a guy...i know i wouldnt.


baby got me the pair of levis that i wanted all along.
i'm freaking happy...although i still wished he din have to spent his money on me.
i could have got it myself....could i?


i doubt i would. even if i could.
i just wouldnt pay so much for stuffs for myself.
i just wouldnt.
but anyway...thanks dear...i lurve it


oh yesh..
we finally got down to buying THE ADIDAS jacket for him.
which cost me quite a bit.
i guess i'm broke for the rest of the month.
the freaking jacket took like more than half my allowance?
goodness.
hahha......but i'm still glad we bought it.
cause he looks great in it.


i searched high and low for it can.
and i was so sad that they only came in the girls sizes when i finally found it and the pacific plaze outlet....yesh..the outlet with the damn ex adidas stuffs.
heh...but haha....he's rather small so he could fit into the largest girl's size.
jess and xf totally talked him into buying it. and it was funny.
those two make lousy sales people man.


went to play mahjong at leslie's house after dat.
i won i won i won~!!!


i made it home in 15 mins after leaving his place.
which is really fast.
i know i stay fairly near him.
like about a 10 mins drive.
but considering the fact that i had to change buses..its pretty fast.
but i had to like RUN... for like more than half my journey to catch the buses.
i seriously almost died of asthma last nite.

it was the last day of school yesterday.
officially.
that's cause my class has declared last day of school since a long time ago.


anyway..
had farewell assembly...which i din feel really sad about.
instead i was having fun with shuying and jiefang...and partially dozing off to sleep during the speeches...
i probably aint as attached to the school as i tot i would be.


had civics which was like the SHORTEST civics ever.
i guess she doesnt have much to say us...
which too was... a very sad thing.
too much explosives btw the two parties i guess.


oh wellz...
my darling class decided to rush down to the cafe to have the reception.
ha..and for the FIRST time..
my class was first.
hahah.....it so funny...when it comes down to food and slack..
i guess nothing beats my class.


so glad to meet my class for like the last time..
cause the next time is gonna be a long time.
i'm just so so upset that yeanling wasnt feeling well and din turn up in school
miss that girl like crazy...
she's just so bubbly and high at times... she's cute.
miss you girl
if only you came...den we could go crazy snapping pictures again.


met mr ng after dat...
and he gave us his 100m dash pep talk.
geez....
he's the teacher that seriously made an impact in my life in jc.
in fact...my time spent in sailing is the time that i really enjoyed most thruout my jc days.
i'm gonna miss my team. no doubt about that.
although the feeling was a lot stronger one year ago.



i'll miss school.
but not for the school itself.
but for the friends i met.

met my girls yesterday.
stead..lijie and viv dear~!!
life has never been greater...
really miss those days with them.
the st.nicks days


we went shopping for shoes. clothes. everything.
and had dinner at fish and co where we shared like one seafood platter and one fish and chips.
and we had a long session discussing our girly future...
and trying dear vivi to join OUR side.
haha....i realized my stead and i are pretty much on the same wavelength.
maybe that's why we're steads..~! haha.


i made a fool out of myself over dinner.
but that's all i'll say.


ended up at esplanade to sit and enjoy the scenery..
take photos...and talk.
but we were like engulfed and mortified by the horrible smoke...
puff puff puff....
smoke chokes man.
so glad we can take a shelter from the smoke free bus-stops.
smoking should be ban~!!


miss my girls already.
cant wait for our scuba diving trip
-that's if it even happens-





tomorrow
tomorrow...
i love ya tomorrow.....

in a span of about 6 hours.
i drank like about 10 bowls of soup.
broke my previous record of 7.
hahah...
but now...
i keep having to go to the toilet...
oops. too much liquid.

spent the whole day doing vectors.
but wth...
i still dun feel confident eh.
man...wad's the point in doing.




i only realized just now that it had been almost a month since i last saw him.
but...he's coming back~!!
dum dee dee dum.......
*hops around*

i miss you.~!!!
cant wait. come back come back~!!

being a good girl today.
i finally appeared in school
worrying that my 2 days "disappearance" isn't a very nice thing to do.

but guess what.
my ct wasnt there to take attendance...
cause she prob tot my whole class was gonna go MIA again.
ha.....

so my pretty babe and i had to join A42. which wasnt a very long line anyway.
haha.....
den ms wong came up to me...cause we had GP tut for the first period- i din even noe-
she looked at me....and asked..

"so do you have any questions to ask?"

me:"eh no?"

msw: "i tot so too....how to have tut like that? one on one? if the rest comes and want to see me.. den u give me a call.." -shakes head and walk away-


ha...welcome to my life in my class.
hahahahha......told cha my class rocks.


couldnt find mr ho to amend my cca record and so i resorted to sms-ing him.
damn...i should have just done that in the 1st place and not go to school.

wouldnt let my travelling time to school be a waste of time...
so decided to hurry book a consultation slot with ms tay...
and wanting joined in again.
but today was good.....cause we had so much time to work with. hee.




he called to say he din make it.
it was bittersweet.
really hoped he could pass.
but at the same time....
i'm just so glad and happy he's coming back soon.

decided not to go to school again.
i din make full use of my time at home though.
only managed to do like 3 chapters of maths yesterday.
isnt too productive.
but it beats going to school.....cause i have no idea was i did in school on monday.
prob staring at psa building.


but i need to go to school by tmr
to get my cca records amended.
shucks....

din go to school today.
it's just pointless.
its better off to stay home and study.
den again....
that's IF i can be disciplined enough.



yesterday...
they started making noise about our language and the things we said in our blogs.
we werent maligning people anymore... in fact some of us din even start it in the first place.
so quit finding fault with blogging.



wish u would hurry come back

went out for dinner with my class yesterday...
and attendance was almost full...
surprised~!!!
it's hardly that everybody would turn up...
and ya...yesterday was FRIDAY....
but my class attendance was ZERO in school.
heh...my class rocks when it comes to "being absent from school"

mr peh joined us for dinner...
he's really a funny guy.
he's so sacarstic at times that it's just hilarious.
used to think that he's the scary and unreasonable teacher.
due to past encounters.
but after this year....i had a 180 degree change in my impression of him.
and to simply put it....think he's a great teacher...
in comparison to all the other teachers that teach me.

heh..had this crazy photo taking session...
and my pretty darling wanting totally cracked me up...
she's just this pretty and naive babe... similar to that of a blond bimbo...
but she's more cheena.... a bimbo with brains. -lots of brains-


she was like eating lots and lots of cockels....

me: "stop eating so much of that....its high cholestrol."

wt: "its ok...i took jab liao"

me: "huh? jab? erm....jab is for hepatitis B dear."

wt: "oh it is??"

ahahhaahha.....she's just amusingly silly. seriously.
but...she's damn smart....book smart.
so i cant say she's dumb.

but wth??
you took a jab and dunno wad it is for....
and its for cholestrol control??
cool....den no one would die of heart attack due to their blood clogging up in their fat filled veins.

we had this other conversation arguing over diabetes.
i shan't say much here.
but goodness.....the innocence of my classmates sometimes really surprise me.
but i still love my class.




had a small sailing gathering today.
and we watched this STUPID M-18 show at cine.
seriously.....just when i tot boogeyman was bad.
devil's rejects is even worse.
grace was right....it has no plot, no horror. nothing.
just a little gory.... alot of f****** sex...literally.
every sentence had at least 2 F-word.

think the only redeeming factor of the show is the pretty girl.
or maybe when you're bored....count the number of F-word they say..
which i can easily say a 100 min.

WAD KIND OF SHOW IS THAT????????~!!!!
i cant believe we spent $57 bucks on that show.
goodness....
MDA probably allowed it to pass and be shown to cheat poor movie-goers like us.
lost and blur teenagers.
i feel robbed.....off my 10 bucks.

how could 8days rate it 3/5 stars?????


i managed to buy my sandals.....
la dee dee dum.....
i'm happy.