my special day

for the surprise i got when i left the office building.
for the wonderful dinner we didn't finish.
for the walk around shenton.
for the long bus wait that never came.
for the every minute i spent with you......


i could only wish for more.


thanks for making this day so special.


love you so very much.
nobody else but you

came across ros's blog and i chanced upon this entry she made...

it happened some day in march 2004
we were celebrating the march babies birthday - chong ben and ven-
and we ended up playing taboo in ros's room.

it was a guy vs girl thing...
and we came to a huge realisation the heavily polluted mind of our boys.


Question: What do you guys look at when you see a girl?
Ben: Tits
Andy: Breasts
Jinpeng: I can't remember what he said but of course it's something dirty.
Chong: Figure!! (correct answer)
Apparently Chong gets the most correct answer when it comes to disgusting stuff.

Another one,
What happens after you had sex?
Chong: hyperventilate! (what?!)

Welcome to my life in [SA]ling....
our boys....our always hilarious and funny boys...
but they were too....the most helpful boys in like the history of [SA]ilors...


and i truly miss them.

felt so sad going down to nsc today.
1st...i miss the place.
2nd.. i miss sailing.
3rd...i couldnt get my tan.
4th... i saw my darling 151485 sail and my darling Nooblet in someone elses's hands.

sigh...i'm sad.
my wonderful sail which has accompanied me thru all weathers...
my darling nooblet...of which andy and i shared...
of which i took so much effort washing and protecting it.
and of course...my beautiful rigs...my gorgeous rudder and daggerboard.
my thin traveller...my smooth power pac system....
my colourful nooblet...
you'll be greatly miss.

i've like the prettiest boat...its so colourful...
i've a white hull.
red outhaul.
yellow/black tiller and tiller ex.
green tapes on my rudder.
blue downhaul.
blue life jacket.
purple mainsheet and traveller.

my rainbow....

the worst thing is it's sold to Pong pao ling.
gosh....she's like our -out of age group- enemy
argh.... i've a long history with her man...
maybe i'll start rambling another day.

for now... i just miss my nooblet.
the boat that both he and i loved so very much.
sobz......

i was so tempted to "kope" one sail back.
the one with 115 printed on it.
used to be my sail....Long time ago.
wanted to use it as a curtain.
hahah...and i was told i was crazy.

i miss my sailors too.
i shall blog more about it another day.
for now..let me mourn....

thanks for coming to help.
you are such a sweetie

i'm just so mad with my mom.
i'm just so fed-up with her.
i'm just so PISSED off.

just leave me alone.
Fucking leave me alone.


sometimes.. i really wonder why i even exist.
i've been such a klutz today.
bumping into everybody in town.
tripping...almost falling off the escalator.

now..
i really wish my klutz-ness would kill me.
like maybe i'll trip when i'm crossing e road?
and a car comes along?

then i wouldnt have to feel the way i am now.


would i be miss if i'm gone?

Sam (the other girl working with me) and i have decided to do our work really slowly today.
so as to keep ourselves occupied...
so we are both like surfing the net...checking ebay...
haha....this is slack.
lurve it.
taking our own sweet time to type.
sipping our nice cup of coffee and tea...

speaking bout the tea...
bought it from this stall...this indian uncle...
who like earns 30 k a month just by selling coffee, tea, milo..etc.
it's just those push cart stall....
but he sets it up like a mini cafe...with like those starbucks umbrella.
and its call Teh Tarik PTE LTD.
gosh.....i bet it can be a HOLDINGS soon.

so see.....it doesnt neccessary mean you gotta like get a degree and all before you can earn big bucks.
just make good coffee man.
and sell them at shenton way...
working people loves coffee and tea man...
just look at the queue that uncle gets everyday...

man....but his drinks are tasty..yummy and thick.
and its not ex...like 1.20 for like a venti size you get at starbucks...
totally worth it.

i wanna sell coffee too.$$



its the weekend tmr....
yeah....badminton time.

so glad "my" laptop's back.
i was stoning too much before lunch cause someone needed it at like took it for like the whole morning.
so i was left with no com to do data entry.
sob....stoning kills at times.

gonna type at a slower pace today.
cause 1. there's is no more cases for us to enter.
2. i dun wan more to come. so gotta look busy.
3. gotta give the boss sometime to review more files.

hahah....when he opened the door to check on us.
he was happy and sad.....guess why?


i've been cooped up indoors since after interschools...
which was in july??
gosh...i'm sooo fair now.
cant wait for sat to come.
NSC here i come.

i need the sun.

my pretty sandals is spoilt
all thanks to the past 2 days rain.
sigh.
i'm sad.

half an hour to end of work.
hurry hurry....
i wanna go home and zZzzZzzzz...

at work now...
typing and typing.
sigh.
the only good thing about working is that i get paid for my work.
paid more.

and i just realized i'm not earning $72 a day...
but $64.....
sob............
its 8 bucks diff...
haha...i'm such a cheapo.
but i'm broke.
so blame me.

i'll not wanna work at shenton way when i start working...
as in after U...
it's jus crazily bombarded with humans.
*winks*


i'm in love with shoe shopping..

gotta change my blogskin again.
cause the previous one died on me...
=(

shopping yesterday was great.

and i ended buying heels of about 3 inches -i'm crazy-
a nice brown tube.
a black skirt from toss
and an esprit pink tee.

i'm turning freaking girly i know.
and i'm also freaking broke.

baby ended up buying the skirt for me.
cause he likes it... so ya.
and he fairly well knows if he doesnt buy it for me...
i probably wouldnt get it myself.


just when i was feeling at my most broke point.
my mom told me i should start paying for my own hp bills.
dotzzzzzzzzzzzz........

i'm sad.

i did something stupid today

that is to cab when i'm already so damn broke.


man...
i'm sad...
i'm just so sad...

i can hardly buy things i want to buy
cause i'm just so damn broke.

and to top that up...
i havent shopped for a damn long time already can?
ARGH.


anyway...
i'm just so glad exams are over.
life can never feel better than this.
carefree. pure bliss.

things i wanna do

cont....

10. learn keel boat.
11. watch lotsa movies.
12. i dunno..............................................................



mr peh said this the other day before econs mcq and drq..
"don't fail too badly ok? get an O can already, please don't get a F!"

man....

it's all finally over....
yeah...
but geog wasnt easy.
again.
cambridge is seriously out to hunt us down and kill us this year.

sigh.
but its over.
so i shouldnt think about it.

i was damn freaking happy when i saw the clock showing 11.
heh....i was like grinning.....
that's it....
no more studying till a long while.

anyway....found a job that pays well.
yeah...double happiness.
8 bucks an hour.
not fanstatic rate but good enough to keep me happy for now.
and the boss is really nice...
he said i could like take leaves anytime i want and all.
just make sure i let him know beforehand.
- cause he believes that people our age should be enjoying life and the hardwork should be subjected to people of his age-

cool.
but its gonna be fairly mundane i guess.
but the idea of it being a law firm just makes things sound a whole freaking lot better.
he was like filling me on the case they are handling....
cool. seriously. cool.

my room's in a mess.
but i dun think i'll be packing it till the weekend.
hmm....
lemme think....wad do i wanna do now?

life seems meaningless.


at this very moment.

5 down and 4 to go.
YESH......... i'm half way there.*yeah*


just gave up going to the movies with baby over studying at home.
cant believe i actually finally chose to stay home and study....
but i guess its the better choice...
i can play in a week's time....
so i should better put in the extra hard work now and make little sacrifices...
before i regret it later.


but i'm still feeling a little sad...

had a small disagreement with him last night...
and i really din like the how he made me felt....
it really aint my fault that my mom is so restrictive.
or maybe it is...........
too much bad stuffs in sec school i guess.

sigh.......i hate spoiling people's mood.
and i hate being angry with him.
almost blurted out stuffs that i know its just a fit of anger....
but words said can never be retreated...




just've been so foul tempered lately.
and its just accentuates the guilt i've in me.



sometimes just feel that i make people's life unpleasant.
and me walking into their life's are just their sheer bad luck.

yewteng told me this a while ago...

"my teacher said the human geog will probably be hard. so be prepared k? good luck!"

@#!!!@#$#%@!

goodness....how worst can this get?!!?

wad is freaking wrong with cambridge??!!!
why are they tormenting our poor little minds?

we are just TEENagers who just wanna enjoy our life?
but seriously..........wad have they done to help.
life's a nightmare.

hadn't been having a good 3 days.
finally able to catch my breath....
headaches are awful.


my whole world came crashing down when i faced the maths paper today.
wad the hell was that all about?

geog yesterday wasnt fantastic either.

i feel so defeated.

but i did my best.
and all i can do now is hope for the best.

things i wanna do after the 17 nov.

1. go get a tan
2. get my driving license
3. get my powerboat license.
4. sail
5. shopping.
6. clear my room. burn my books.
7. lose my FATS.
8. earn more $$$.....so maybe i can go to a freaking slimming center.
9. probably and hopefully plan a nice holiday.

exam blues..............

i was feeling a little confident for my geog....
that was until i decided to look thru the previous years A level questions...

den i realized how bloody screwed i am.



i doubt i can answer those questions under exams conditions...
and the drqs are seriously rather tough.

i'm feeling so so uncertain now.
that sickening feeling in my stomach is back again.

everything just piles up...
and now...i think i'll flunk maths too....


could things get any worst?

my mom just gave me a whole load of excuses on not letting go overseas myself after my exams
damn it.
something about its dangerous.
i'm just so annoyed when she gets paranoid over the slightest things

i cant be bothered to argue with her now.

we'll talk about it after my A's.


which would be over in 2 weeks.

running a flu now.
body temp's a little off...
and i cant stop sneezing.


did i mention that A's is in like 5 days.


how great can it get.

tired out...........

exactly one more week to my first paper for the A's


feel just a little more prepared today.
spent the whole afternoon at baby's clubhouse studying with xf and jess.
with certain extent of assistance for les
managed to complete last year's maths paper...
seriously hope i can get an A for maths...

anyway...
baby just "send" me home.
that is...he drove me home...
plus a little more...-note the ""-

i think he's a pretty good driver.
i'll prob rate him 8.5 out of 10.
yupz....
he just needs to be a teeny weeny more confident.

woke up early this morning to have prata breakfast with the gang at casurina...
but the nice stall was not open...
-we happily forgot it's THEIR holiday-
oops...
so we just had to make do with the stall next door...
which....dint really serve that nice prata...
but....BURP~!



i love yesterday.
and i really hope there's more to come.


which i really doubt so.