80 000 and still counting
this is one hell of a depressing way to end the year.
a moment of silence to those who have perished and lost their loved ones in this tragedy.
hope the coming new year would be kinder to them.


3 days to school.
fuck.

i feel like joining some volunteer group.
fly to thailand. help them.
and not come back.

jiehui wrote this on her blog "abby made us nice cookies.. as usual. although she was the only one among us who didnt take home econs, her sewing and cooking/ baking seems to be the best... "


geez. thanks dear. hahah...

Grace cut her hair~!!!! REAL SHORT~!
but she looks nice. heh.
it kinda resembles bing.
in fact quite a bit.
oh great. this is just Perfect with a big P. =p


you said you aint ready to talk to me.
why the sudden change of mind?
i'm just surprised.

i din get to meet ya today.
it was rather disappointing.
oh wellz.


i took a bus that went along joo seng road
i realized the community centre was there no more.
our trainings. our matches. our joy. our sorrow.
games after games.
i miss basketball. i miss my team.
i miss those days.

i just remembered~!
i meeting you later tonight
*big big smile*

just woke up with a bad headache.
argh. angst.
feel like going over to play with my niece again.
that cute little shat.
but i need to go meet andy and viv for lunch.
if i dun turn up today, i'm gonna get it so bad from them.
i've been warned.


its tues. that makes it wed thurs fri sat sun left?
5 days to school.
oh no.

scenes of the aftermath of the tsunamis flooded the papers and news.
its just so tragic.
a nice christmas gift. a nice holiday season.
one moment they are enjoying the blistering sun and cooling waters.
the next. searching for their loved ones and saving their own lives.
mother nature sure has her weird way of showing us her strength and dominance.


met up with jiehui and serena for dinner.
laughed till my stomach hurt. she's still the crazy girl i've always known.
hope you find a nice job girl. duck and hippo tour guide? ha
i miss my st nicks days.


met my buddy and viv too.
and they ganged up against me.
that's so sweet of them huh.
supposed to go for a movie but everything was sold out.
to think that i tot town would be less crowded on a monday night.
crowds sucks.
shopping actually seemed pretty fun afterall.
i got a nice pair of jeans. *yesh*


i had a great day, a great night.
but it was all short lived.
when someone ruined it all at the last moment.
why did you have to take the smile away from me?

christmas party at my aunt's place was great..
food was nice...but there was far too much food.
too much leftovers. sigh.
what a waste of food.
i dun like wasting food. argh.
my little niece is as adorable as ever.
she's just a bundle of joy.
love the way she smiles. the way she clings onto me.
the way she speaks. the way she sings.
just love her loads.
brought home bags of presents *big big smile*
heh...this is one great christmas.


all but my one last wish.

woke up with a great big smile this morning.
my last christmas wish was partially fulfilled.
in my dreams last nite. *santa did a half-job huh*
so dun wanna wake up.
wanna remain in dream land.
i hope it comes true.
i will sleep early tonight.
so i can meet u in my dreams again.


do dreams come true?
i wish it would.

boy am i glad to be at home.
chilling with my nice warm cup of hot chocolate.
town was packed. with people with cars.


2 hours to christmas.
one last thing on my wishing list.
i hope i would wake up tmr morning with what i really want.
wishing hard it would be fulfilled.
my last wish.
love you.
merry christmas to all~!

it christmas eve~!!
and i'm baking cookies...
whee....smells good.
yum~!

just came back from shopping with viv and lijie.
geez...wanted to check out the mango sale.
but boy... it was just bombarded with aunties digging and throwing the clothes around.
i cant believe they could actually queue up to try the clothes.
i dun think i have that patience.
its freaking long.
ended up at zara trying skirts and tops (without queuing)
found something nice. something dat doesnt seem very me.
hmm....still considering if i should get it.
ha.....finally got my bro and sis presents.
they love their presents.
thanks to me.


shopping with viv dear can be so torturous at times.
she makes you walk ALOT.
dat indecisive girl.
ha...me and lijie just couldnt help but laugh at her.
should have recorded her choosing her shoes for prom.
ha.....classic comedy.
thanks for bringing so much JOY and LAUGHTHER girl.
love ya.~!

i hate it when pple make assumptions.
congrats that u're seeing somebody.
wheee....*clap*
i'm NOT WAITING for you.
understood?
*smiles*
stop making me angsty.
thanks.


heh....my foot still look a little purplish.
hmmm...a little numb too.
haha...my poisoned foot.
i almost burst out laughing when i saw the doctor drew a pic of my left foot on my records.
and highlighting my toe where it was bitten.
his drawing sucks...
hahahha....and he drew the wrong foot at first.
noob.

breakfast was nice.
thanks grace, mich, ven and edgar.
the serangooners.
hahah.....


and as usual.
certain pple would ruin my day again.
wadeva it is.
gonna go shopping with viv soon.
gotta join the last min shopping crowds.
ARGH~!


tmr's christmas eve...
hohoho.~!

i hate this world.

i dun like it when my mom is upset.
i dun like it when i see my dad fussing over monetary matters.
i dun like it when pple abuses the kindness of another.
i detest pple like dat.
i hate reality
hard work never pays off.
its just that unfair.
always.


fuck the world.
i hate this world.
i just wish armaggedon would be tmr.
and the world would start from scratch.
back to the beginning of the big bang.

just woke up after taking medication.
after effects of the jab sure made me one drowsy shat.
i actually managed to be totally knocked out for one hour at NSC yesterday.
the freaking painkillers are not working much lor.
my feet still hurt.
STUPID dunno wad. prob catfish
sting me~!!
cost me my training. and having to make me go thru this pain.
hurts like F***
so far i've only seen the sailors getting stung by jellyfish.
think i'm like one of the few LUCKY ones to get it by the catfish.
ARGH....try hammering a thumbtack into your toe.
that's how freaking painful it is~!!!


thanks for the christmas present fishy.


managed to keep myself awake and drag myself to changi for my class chalet after
the training jab and sleep.
played truth or dare...but everybody had to choose dare.
wad was the forfeit?
walk around this freaking scary isolated, creepy house.
it was terrible.
it was just like a scene taken of a horror movie.
and we had to take photos with the windows as a background.
damn.

went for a shopping spree with my parents today.
my mom got me a top for AX.
another from zara.
and almost got me this skirt i like.
she wanted to get me shoes too
i told her i'll wait till after christmas den i'll think about it.
its crazy.
i hardly get anything for myself when i go out with my frens.
but when i'm out with my parents, the number of bags i had to carry is shit larz.
moral of the story: go out with ya parents.
they pay for everything. HA~!


enough of shopping.
christmas is coming.
presents time~! =)

a week left to christmas.
a couple of days left to shopping for presents.
i got my muvo slim MP3~!!
ha...another strike off of my wishing list.
ha....one more thing left.
my samsung E700
*cross my fingers*
hope my parents get that for me.
*grinz*

think i'm gonna think twice about studying photojournalism.
shutter is scary.


my mood swings are getting from bad to worse.
but seriously,
i dun give a damn.


so stop pissing me off.
fine. i won't talk to you~! satisfied??

my teddy bear's back~!!!
this is one rather good morning.

i got my nice white sweater.
lurve it.
ha..the sales guy was really adorable.
think he just started out working.
he seemed so panicky and worried.
constantly apologising to me and asking me to give him a little more time just so he could find the size i wanted.
take your time man. its ok.
when he finally got it.
this group of working ladies were staring at me.
apparently their fren wanted the size i was trying on.
but the sales guy told them i had priority~!
caused i asked him first. *thumbs up*
oh wellz...in the end decided to be nice and let the lady have the piece i was holding on to and went back to the other outlet at taka to try to get the size i want.
couldnt stand the stares anymore...and din really wanna fight for it.
phew..last piece there...and i got it.
*big big smile*


there's still so many things i wanna get though.
more shopping for me.

i'm unsure of how i feel towards you.
but i will sort it out soon.
give me a little more time.
and we'll be frens again.


yeah...sera just msg me to tell me she got my sneakers,
with a mixture of dark blue, light blue and white.
hope its e right one.
one more down from my wishing list.
cant wait for her to return from hong kong. ha~!
the weather's been soooo cold...
itz nice to sleep.
also tells me its the christmas season.
hohoho.....
i wanna get everything on my wish list.
can someone rich get me my wants.
pretty please.

151485..whee..dat's me and my nooblet boat. hah...i cant see myself. but its good enough. my sail..nice and big..~!

finally my major regattas have come to an end.
resting time. *yeah*
not bad...finished 28th in open category and 10 in ladies division.
quite satisfied. gotta work harder though.
screwed up here and there...
but 2nd and 3rd day races were rather good.
managed to finish in top 20.
*big smile*
won school team 2nd and club 2nd...
yippeeeeee.....great.....


met someone over the weekend.
it had been awkward
and seemed rather unpleasant.
but it was still nice to see you~!
miss ya loads man.
but its just seem weird.
sigh.
wad's wrong with me?
occasional thoughts of hoping to have you back seem unrealistic.


i will just wish and not hope.

it's been a disappointing day.
*sticks tongue out*
first day of laser open sucks.
screwed up big time.
thanks to a wun-der-ful full rig who decided to cover me for my start.
no wind....got covered.
=p dead.
its ok. tomorrow's a brand new day.
must sail really well tmr....
and pray hard they have 8 races by sunday.
den i can say bye bye and discard the two noob races today.
*cross my fingers*


i miss you. miss you. miss you. miss you~!!!!!!!!

feeling fucked up.
enough said.
*big smile*

it seems that i'm always the cause of everything.
its always my fault.
so if i i cease to exist, the world would definately be a better place.
maybe not the world, but just the life of pple i made a havoc on.
i'm sorry i existed.
blame me.

i just wished you could stop mentioning his name.
its really weird to keep hearing it.
i so dun wanna be reminded of him.
it gives me diz weird feeling inside.
a weird awful feeling dat i dun like.



the wind's still blowing strong.
one more day to last.
i'm tired.
and next week's gonna be worst.
hahah.....edgar's food regime of stuffing myself with loads of proteins and carbo is killer.
meat. rice. bread. burp.




i really need a brainwash.
like start my life from scratch.
there are so many things i wished i could like delete off from my brain memory.
trying so hard to fight thinking about it.
but it just doesnt wanna go away.
persistent memories.
good and bad.
memories kill you unknowingly.
the silent killer from the inside.



i'm missing my teddy bear.
wonder when it would be back.

the mat vs the ah beng.
the hip hop vs the rocker.
the better performer vs the popular one.
may the more talented one wins.


taufik won~!
i guess singaporeans are not blinded by that smile afterall.