on a happier note today...after yesterday.
i finally passed geog.
like BOTH physical and human.
obviously the latter is better done.
but only like 4 of us in class passed the physical part
so yesh...
i'm damn proud of myself now.

but a D aint too great a grade.
managed an E for econs
and O for maths.

i did improve...
but i definately need to work extra extra hard this 5 weeks.
5 WEEKS?!???!@#@@!

ok...dat's fast...
and me in my own world JUST realized it today.

since it's the last tutorial of our JC life...
Mr Peh started telling us about getting back our results NEXT YEAR.
and what he would do to "haunt" us before it.
like sms-ing us 2 days before and say "2 days more"
and gradually counting down till the night before...
"sweet dreams..sleep well......ending off with FFF"

hahhahaha....he's such a joker.
not taking into the account that we HAVEN'T even take our A's
and he's talking about getting back our results.
geezz....but he did scare me a little.
think i'll totally freak out before getting back results.

wadeva...i should just quit thinking so far and just be a mugger toad now.
i wanna get my A for econs. -i dun believe i cant-
just so as to thank him.....


heh...that probably means that i'm aiming for straight As....
i'm crazy.



8 months. love.
and yup. i'm damn proud of it.
ah ha..~!

i just feel so jaded.


i really you were right beside me now

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one downY
ou sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day

The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you knowT
hat you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most

my mom just made me feel so guilty for not taking the initiative to start a conversation with my cousin.
said that being the older cousin...
i've the responsibility to talk to her.
damn it.
i'm only 2 years older.
ok...wadeva...


i'm just an anti-social bitch.




it's gonna be MONDAY tmr.
that means i gotta go BACK to school.
QUIT slacking and "worming" around
and get down to STUDYING.

ok....that's gonna take lotsa determination to do so..
cause i'm such a procrastinator.





my daddy told me today that he's not gonna pay for my driving lessons and i gotta pay for it myself.
OK~!!!! den thou shall not go take my driving license.
*winks*

i'm totally alright with taking public transport around.
plus my baby can drive....-i like to be driven, coz i'm LAZY-

and even if i were to get my license..
i wouldnt have a car to drive...
so....cons more than pros.
so unless my daddy forks out my fees....
i'm not gonna learn.
HA.~!

i miss my boy....

Happy birthday bro~!!

went back to school today.
and it sucks.
argh.
i ended school at 1015 cause ms wong was absent.
and yet...i was stuck in school till 1245.
i hate this freaking rule that we cant leave school till 1~!!
den again...
i tink i'll just skip school altogether liao.
heck.

on a happier note..
met lijie and sera yesterday..
after like times and times of postponing...
finally.
i love my girls man.

went to this place at the new marina square..
changing appetite...
and had a wonderful and fun time.

marina is like a food heaven now.
yummy food all over.
*slurp*

sera dear gave me a ride home after that.
ha..no comments though.





miss my boy who's like gone for only a week~!

went to send grace off at the airport.
and had a small gathering with a few of the sailors.
sigh...
it was just a sad sad scene?
cant imagine if i was the one who have to go overseas.
alone.
study alone.


anyway...3 months will pass soon enough.
den we can have the popiah party..


thanks ros!!....
for giving me a lift home.

it is so annoying when your plans are thwart.
esp by my mom.
it's getting so frustrating~!
2 days already.

f***
i should just heck her and go out all i want.
i'm pissed.


3 days...and i hardly did anything fun.
wad the hell..



i miss you like crazy.

my silly daddy keeps pestering me over his new V3....
do this for me...
do that for me...
why like that?? why like this??
change the function for me....

i'm like....
come on man...give me time~!!
let me figure it out.
it's a NEW phone..... for a reason.

and he's like....
but ANDY has it too..
dun you know how to use it already?
*bangs my head*


fathers.........
welcome to my life.

saw this g-force one plane on apprentice just now.
it works on zero gravity.
which means...you get to float around like an astronaut in outer space.
even though you're only still flying within the atmosphere.
weightless.
cool.

i wanna go on that too.
geez...if only....
that's like the closest thing i can get to to my dream.

the week sure passed faster den i tot it would be.
but i'm so glad its over.

would A's be worst?
i think so.



andy called me this morning.
once at freaking 7+ am
and i missed the call.
like by a ring. DAMN.
i missed his call~!!!!

but seriously dear....it's 7am...on a SATURDAY.
AFTER my prelims....
I NEED MY SLEEP.....
haha....

i got another call at 10~!!!
yeah....*smiles*
sorry about the fact that i just woke up and sound so so drowsy.
but thanks for totally waking me up.

i managed to clear my room in record time today.
yipee....its like nice and neat now.

it wont last long though.
once i start revising for A's in a week.
it's gonna be a freaking pile of mess again
but for now....i think i did a great job

its so weird that when you're shopping and this good looking salesman comes up to you
flash that smiles and that cheeky grin
hoping you would stop and listen to wad they have to say.

no doubt it is a good way to attract my attention.
no doubt they are cute.
but seriously...
uh uh. NO....Nnoooooooooooooooo~!


went bugis with viv
and wei joined us later.
jie couldnt make it in the end.
so did sera. sigh.
disappointment there.
but my two girls were fun enough.
viv and her usual quirky acts.
and wei....looking gorgeous day by day.


bugis was nice. bugis street was exceptionally nice.
but just wasnt in the shopping mood.
when you are short of cash.
you just cant enjoy shopping as much.
damn.

met grace and cheryl for dinner at coffee club.
mudpie was sinful yet yummilicious.
talks about studying overseas.
boyfriends.
maids.

i'm glad i'm bound in singapore for now.
i'm glad i've no intentions to studies overseas.
and i'm glad i have you.

happy birthday edwin~!!


its finally over~!
for now.
the worst has yet to come.


haha....it seems like e topics i predicted would come out did come out.
agribusiness. ecotourism. casino. migration.
smart ar...?


but the smarter thing is i chose not to study them.
*rounds of applause*
=)



ok...i'm starving now....
gotta go meet viv and jie for lunch soon.

happy birthday yewteng


the good thing right now is....
my last paper ends in about 18 hours.

the bad news...
i'm down with a slight fever.

and.....
I HAVENT FINISH STUDYING FOR IT.
in fact...
i'm not even HALF WAY done.

econs was pretty fine today.
only that my mind wasnt functioning well enough
and i misread a couple of mcqs.
heh......i know i'm smart.


i finally understood how it feels when "nothing goes into ur mind"
totally. well understood.
and did i mention? it's a terrible feeling.
you cant sleep. cant eat. cant study.
sweeeet..



miss you loads

econs paper 3 was a little screwed.
i'm just very weak in econs.

geog wasnt too bad....but i seriously hope i could ace it.
i did my best no doubt.
panicking and shivering before the paper wasnt the best way to deal with it
but i was so glad he came to pick me up to school.

maths is ok.



i din expect things to feel so bad.
at least not so soon.
the feeling of missing someone so much is really indescribable.
and i din think i would feel it so hard.



had a hard time falling asleep last night.
miss you.

tmr's gonna be the start of THE FREAKING PRELIM week.

damn it.
one paper everyday.
and i'm like not fully prepared for any freaking day.

i really dunno wad to freakning do now.


doesnt help that andy's leaving on tues.


how am i gonna survive the week.....................
sigh.

i think i gotta resort to sleeping on the floor tonight.


cause there's freaking no space on my comfy bed.
its totally strewn with all my notes.


prelims. ARGH.

i'm on the edge.
on the verge to just get myself crazy~!

it seems that no one ever believes abby when she says she CANT remember anything and she WONT DO WELL.
i guess everybody just has this huge assumption that she's a smart girl.
and all they will say is...
"dun worry...you can do well wan lor...just crap..you're a smart girl..you can do it."


den...when the results are out...
everybody will just say...
" why like that....better study harder...you can do it wan lor. work harder k"
den....they would all give me that....-i'm very very disappointed in you- face.



seems like i give pple this impression that i'm a really clever girl
who can like ace her exams without studying much.
one who is like.... good in piano...music.
blah blah blah....

but i'm not....

maybe i'm just street smart.
that's why i look smart.
but book smart is definately not me.

maybe that's why i should be in poly.

spare my language here...
but i'm damn bloody drained.
mentally drained.

finally finished READING thru entire 2 years of econs.
i emphasize reading....
which means....i havent touch..
1) tutorials revision
2) essay outlines
3) doing mcq -which i noe is very very impt-
4) doing case study.

whatever it is.
i'm freaking dead. i know.
gonna do maths anyway.
more confident for that....even though i think the grades wouldnt be much of a diff.

did i mention?
i havent completed human geog.
or even started on physical geog
*big smile*....knife pls...

ok...i barely started on geog....finished like a couple of chapters say 3-4 weeks ago??
i'm sure they are still in my head.

oh man.

dreams are the best thing the mind could do.


i want dreams to come true.
had this wonderful dream of someone special last night.
wanna sleep and dream again.


i'm barely done with studying though.
so sleeping gotta be the last thing on mind.
=P


rebecca was out last night.
a waste of such a pretty girl.
why keep brittany.~!!!
yucks.

love my boy for waking up early to accompany me to church.



today's a sad sad day.
i spoilt my birthday present.
sob.

i love you so very much.

things seemed to have turn a little sour lately.
it just doesnt seemed the same.
maybe its just the stress.
maybe its just me being over-sensitive.

whatever it is.
just wanna knock it all out of my mind.
and just study hard.
*knocks hards*

but it just keeps tossing up and down my heart and mind.
and boy does it hurt.

i just hope everything's alright.