just when i felt confident enough to do well enough for maths....

sigh.
killer paper.

den again i expected it din i?

oh man.
wad kind of paper is that.
ARGH.

anyway...gotta like spent two hours to fold the clothes later.
that big huge mountain of clothes.
although i swear it seemed bigger when i left the house.
maybe the bottoms got really compressed??

oh well.

weekend wasnt too bad.
went to my cousin's chalet...and my aunt decided to ask andy along.
geezz.....
anyway....someone decided to bribed my little princess....- with a swimming pool at his place-
and guess wad....that little niece of mine decided she wanted to follow him home.
goodness....
she's so easily cheated.
haha.....
she actually cried and insisted she wanted to go home with andy.
no daddy no mummy...just andy.....
goodness gracious~!
she din even want me.

anyway...had gp yesterday.
i actually finished my paper in exceptionally fast time.
cool
let's just hope i cant break the C5 barrier...

now...i'm waiting for my stupid maths paper to come.
gotta prepare to go to school for my 3 hour paper soon
i'm scared~!!
i'm petrified~!!
i'm so afraid dat when i see the paper later....
everything will just like.....blast out of my brains.
den that's it.

the end.

itz been one hell of a long week
i gotta say i actually managed to turn myself into a mugger toad.
and start doing lots and lots of maths.

but i hardly feel i learnt much.
it seems like everything just comes out there and then.
i wish myself good luck.

i doubt i can pass paper one for maths.
differentiaiton.
integration.
vectors.
3D.
functions.
complex.

stuffs i'm not confident in.
which is like almost 3/4 the paper?
sigh....

stopped studying since 12.
just cant go on no more.
i'll have to continue later.

grace and cheryl came back to school today
miss them.
cab home with ms tan after that.
it was on the way.
and i was damn scared.
somehow....i just dun like being around ms tan.
stupid pple with poor results. like me.....dun really wanna be around with an f maths teacher.
-smart teachers-

going out with my baby tmr.
*smile*

its one hell of a draggy day today.
came back early and i still gotta mug for maths
mugger toad i've become.

i dreamt of maths formula today.
geez

4 days.
damn.


i freaking put on weight AGAIN~!!!!

little princess came over today.
kinda blew my plans on studying in the afternoon.
she's sound asleep now.

i'm just waiting for her to create havoc again.

a nice boy willingly gave me a ride all the way down to bukit timah.
otherwise...i prob would have to cab down.
thanks to my mom nagging and being angry
again.
anyway...thanks....you're QUITE a safe driver.

had lunch with andy and his family.
it was just....
nice.
but i'm damn fat now.

cab home in the end.
14 bucks.
f***
i'm freaking broke...and i just spent 14 bucks cabbing home
damn it.

anyway....went grocery shopping with my parents after dinner.
i love grocery shopping.
esp when i'm not the one forking out the money.
kinda bought enough food to settle my week. -in school and for studying-
yeah.

din study much.
i was tired. and homework is piling.

just bought my bro a really early birthday present.
and my mommy got jealous and started nagging again.
about wad a tough life she got.
hahaha....

i'll get her the nice bag i saw.
soon.
but i'm really broke.
as in...
negative.
deficit.
minus minus minus~!!!!!

my class finally gave in all to all the shit we've been getting from our teacher.
kinda had an argument today with her.
a pretty big one.
meiping and peiwen sure flared up big time.
i was shocked no doubt.

home visit was fun.
but my legs are aching from chasing the guy.
he's seriously over-hyper.

met bing over dinner.
he was complaining about the whole thing of VS going co-ed.
i gotta agree....
it's a really bad idea.

129 years of tradition.
you cant just change it to a co-ed just because of a freaking new IP
which therefore need more students.
it just doesnt make sense.
129 years of VS boys are sure gonna flip.
den again....the first 50 years or so are prob dead.
but pls...dun make it a co-ed school.

9 days to prelims.
it's finally on a single digit~!!!

i think i'm losing it.
bear with me.

11 days.
f***

blogging just isnt the same when u cant rant out everything and anything u want.
the school's been on it.
again.
some j ones got into shit i guess.
talking about a certain teacher.
whom i'm quite familar with.

seriously...
no one will blog bad stuffs about you if you werent creating an "impact"
in their life.
it just gets a little annoying when everything little thing you do
you're being controlled by a higher body.

will it work better if we start ranting out straight at your face
instead of "talking behind your back"
geez.....get a life.
no one even outrightly stated who it was.

a blog is no doubt not a private diary as its published on the world wide web.
but everyone is entitled to his freedom of opinions to a certain extent.

just dun go to the extend of writing out the NAME you are against.
how would anybody know.
seriously....wad is wrong with you guys.

i better think twice of wad i have to say.
or else i'll be next.

the tv messaging system flashed a big huge 12
in my face the whole day.
12 days to prelims.
and i'm barely half way done.

i finally got my sailing photos. wheeeee...
love the background. love the sea.
but it's not my sail..not my nooblet.~!!

someone sure knows his way around the opposite sex.
that's it.
my mommy definately likes him better than us.
we happily din get my mom anything for her birthday.
only intending to treat her to dinner...
and someone bought a bouquet of roses for her.
how can??

haha...
happy birthday mommy~!

prelims is starting in two weeks and a little.
sian.
i just dun feel like studying again.

badminton tmr...yeah
i think i'm growing fat.
bloop.

malaysian cars should be ban from singapore.
or at least roads surrounding the driving centres.

because of a stupid malaysian car.
i dunno when i could get my ride.

poor dear.
forget it.
just try again ya.

met my girls over dinner yesterday.
and a game of mahjong at sera's place.
miss them so much.


school started of pretty bad today
with a certain lit teacher screaming at the arts faculty.
as usual.
tracy decided to dare her.
and seems like she's gonna start taking attendance for MY class.
WTF.

missed civics caused we all assumed there wasn't
assumptions are bad.
apparently she got really mad and informed silas about it.
damn it.
gotta meet him at 4 tmr.
the whole class.
Wth....we din mean to skip civics.
it was just a freaking communication breakdown.



a nice lunch and long bus ride home.
however.
totally made the day a whole lot better.


18 days to go.

woke up fairly early this morning (considering the fact it's national day and wad hell time i slept last night)
met dear and his parents for breakfast (or was it brunch)
i really love cartel breakfast.
i dun think i would mind having it every weekend.
yummy.

was supposed to study when i reached home.
but i just gave in to my already tired body.
falling asleep and waking up every half an hour or so.
and this routine lasted me till 3

ok.
it's definately time to study at least a little.
19 more days to prelims.
no joke.

just came back from a really full meal with mr ng.
seoul garden with the sailors was fun.

and mr ng gave us a nice sailor table mat.
hahah

i still couldnt find my little heart.

but someone made me a new one.
*smile*


sigh....its been a pretty lousy weekend.
just wish i could turn back time and make it a little better.

losing something significant to you is just a sad thing.
i still cant find it.
and i probably cant find it anymore.
i'll try the LT first thing tmr.
hope it's there.

where's my little heart.





baby passed his medical.
which means flying off to aus in time to come.

some things should just be left as it is.
there are just this little things dat i chance about
and it makes me question so much about life.

why why why?
i could just feel everything shrinking inside me.

wad have i done to myself?