the music some soothing dancy song...

it was a sunny afternoon.
people were just walking pass each other without stopping.
a busy stretch of road outside wisma.

and there they were.
holding each other and dancing to the song.
enjoying each other's company.
kissing.

like what we always see on the dance floor of a romantic movie....


it was really sweet.
i guess.
i just couldnt understand how they did it
in the middle of orchard road...
where everyone was looking...

it was out of place.
but it was really lovely.
it just seemed that the world belonged to them.
and only them.

the way they danced
the way they only had eyes for each other.
everything else din matter for they had each other.


it was an odd sight.
but it was still the most lovely scene ever.

whoever said uni was a breeze has gotta be telling the biggest lie.

i remembered when i was taking my Os..
a teacher said we should work hard get into a good JC and all is well.

i believed.
JC sucked.
and there it is again...
teacher after teacher saying that As is the worst it can get.
uni exams are a breeze.

once again...
i feel darn cheated?
or maybe its just the course i'm in.

geez....
a teacher taking exam. such an irony i feel.
i really tot it would have been the end of it all after the dreadful exams one year ago.



the weather is really cooooooling now.
how nice would it be to cuddle under my nice blankie.

but oh no...
me gonna go take a SHOWER soon...
and with my coffee.....
shall try to mug hard on alg.


a part of me still love maths.
someone just slap me and ask me to wake up.
please......

i'm very upset with my calculus paper.
knowing that i could have done it
but at that instance...

i just couldnt.

how many times had this happen??
darn it


worst still...
i have a geog paper in less than 20 hours.
yet to prepare for it.
and i'm in NO mood to.

i hate myself.

even though it was a mere an hour and a half
of coming all the way down from home
soley to accompany me and make sure i was ok.


...it meant alot
the rest of the mugging day seems a whole lot better.
thanks baby~!

barely a week to my very FIRST uni exam.

but here i'm battling with...

1) a really itchy and runny nose.
2) keeping the cruched up tissues ON the table
3) a pretty painful stomachache.
4) my chapters and CHAPTERS of maths.
5) memorizing the "WTF" PROVINGS of maths forumulaes.

it doesnt help that...

1) i cannot understand anything.
2) my brain is not functioning well.
3) i have been doing this for 3 straight days
4) i hate whatever the crap they want me to prove~!!!
5) i have a cup of awful vitamin C water next to me.

i'm going crazy cause...

1) i set my EXAM timetable as my desktop backdrop.
2) i have a exam countdown sheet in my pencilbox.
3) i only see f(x)s and dy/dx and limits= limits=......
4) i blasting music that i usually dun listen to
5) i fear very badly that i'll fail my maths modules.



can you understand my pain?

exams are in a week.
havent started studying at all.
been busy with my essay.

went to search for the past years papers yesterday.
i'm stunned.
read thru the maths paper and i can barely do even ONE question.
geography din seem easy too.

i've never been this scared.
maybe its cause of the among of responsiblity i have now.
there's no room for failure.
geez....

dun tell me that i can practice maths..
cause its not about practicing anymore.
if only it was that simple.
i wish.


pray for me.
things are so uncertain now.

i swear time flies SUPER fast...
like WHEE~! SHORT and fast......

it wasnt too long ago that i found myself struggling to adapt to uni life.
den again.

i still havent really gotten used to it yet.
i'm always still running away from hall back to home sweet home.
i've no idea why i've suddenly grown so attached to home...
when 2 years back...i remembered saying i cant wait to go uni and start hall life.

still struggling badly with academic issues too.
MATHS.
come someone kindly tell me..
WHY THE HELL did i take maths.

2 quizzes in 2 days.
tmr is the next.
planned to stay in hall to study tonight.
but i was on the verge of tears when i sat there for barely 30mins.
that's why i'm running back home again.
nothing feels better then home.

the only thing working against me at home is the TV.
nevermind. i know i can fight it.

barely 2 weeks to my first paper.
god bless me.
i'm still stuck in the maze of algebra and calculus.

it's really upsetting to know that
when ONE ignored the fact that she had tons of work to do...
and was really really tired and drained.
and gave up sleeping
just to complete something to save her group's presentation.

ONLY to find out later
that someone removed all her hard work.
zlich is left of that night's work in the slides ok?.
fuck.
wad did i stay up for?
ass.

i dunno to be angry or upset.
took the initiative to be nice to f***ing do something about it
and this is wad i get???
group presentation??
wtf.
i really wished i was given the option to choose my own members.
i hate this.



the village @ heeren.
blasting mambo night songs in nic's car.
starbucks @ holland.v
the talks.
ride round a quarter of singapore.

yet another friday night.
i love the freedom i'm getting.
i can learn to live this life.

to you: please stop drinking.
wake up and look around...
people that care for you are hurting.

to xf: you were the best. thanks for saving my lappie top.

retail therapy rocks.
one skirt. one sweater. one berms.
150 bucks.

yum.

loved the time with my girls and my boy.
vivo is nice.