i need to find myself

i know its getting late.
but somehow i cant bring myself to sleep
a maths test in 8 hours time.
i'm done revising.
more or less.
but i just cant get to bed.

i dunno if it is cause i'm feeling empty or wad?
depressed isnt the word i wanna use to describe myself.
i'm actually feeling lost.
and i dunno why.


my ipod has been playing the same 34 songs.
repeat mode for the last 7 hours
just imagine.
i think i've reach a point where i'm not even listening.