wad's going on

i had lotsa break again today. tuesday...my dunno-wad- i-am- doing in school day
oh well....i spent like all my breaks talking to jos...
well....it kinda got me thinking how i really feel about things
about pple.
feeling quite lost now.
am i truly happy with everything?
or am i just trying to be happy with everything.
i'm confused.
i'm starting to lose myself.
not abling to fully understand myself.
but have i ever really understood myself...
have i? 

 
"My Happy Ending"- avril lavigne
 
So much for my happy ending
 
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hangingIn a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
 
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
 
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
 
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
 
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
 
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
 
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...So much for my happy ending...