about 2 more weeks to the A's
THE freAKING A's
i spent the whole entire week studying econs.
but i still know nothing.
no kidding there.
everything is still in a mess.
the problems and policies.
sigh.


honestly...
they are supposedly quite common sensical.
and i know that i roughly know my stuffs here and there.
i can crap out verbally..
but asking me to write it out in essay?
i think i'll prob flunk it bad.


sigh...
i really dun wanna study anymore.

pictures from the last day of school

went for dimsum buffet with andy, viv lijie..and her fren.. yesterday.
it din turn out so bad afterall...
although i was pretty sure there were a few awkward moments.
maybe i'm just being over sensitive.


i was freaking full after that..
to think i already feel that i'm a pau myself....-white and fat-
and i had to eat dimsum~!@!??
grrrrrrrrrrr......


went shopping after that...and xf came along.
heh.....*winks*
anyway....it soon became a pretty big group...
as jess joined us too.
anyway the girls decided to go the "B-heaven"
which really wasnt the best place to go for the guys..
but they were all such sweeties to tag along.
if i'm a guy...i know i wouldnt.


baby got me the pair of levis that i wanted all along.
i'm freaking happy...although i still wished he din have to spent his money on me.
i could have got it myself....could i?


i doubt i would. even if i could.
i just wouldnt pay so much for stuffs for myself.
i just wouldnt.
but anyway...thanks dear...i lurve it


oh yesh..
we finally got down to buying THE ADIDAS jacket for him.
which cost me quite a bit.
i guess i'm broke for the rest of the month.
the freaking jacket took like more than half my allowance?
goodness.
hahha......but i'm still glad we bought it.
cause he looks great in it.


i searched high and low for it can.
and i was so sad that they only came in the girls sizes when i finally found it and the pacific plaze outlet....yesh..the outlet with the damn ex adidas stuffs.
heh...but haha....he's rather small so he could fit into the largest girl's size.
jess and xf totally talked him into buying it. and it was funny.
those two make lousy sales people man.


went to play mahjong at leslie's house after dat.
i won i won i won~!!!


i made it home in 15 mins after leaving his place.
which is really fast.
i know i stay fairly near him.
like about a 10 mins drive.
but considering the fact that i had to change buses..its pretty fast.
but i had to like RUN... for like more than half my journey to catch the buses.
i seriously almost died of asthma last nite.

it was the last day of school yesterday.
officially.
that's cause my class has declared last day of school since a long time ago.


anyway..
had farewell assembly...which i din feel really sad about.
instead i was having fun with shuying and jiefang...and partially dozing off to sleep during the speeches...
i probably aint as attached to the school as i tot i would be.


had civics which was like the SHORTEST civics ever.
i guess she doesnt have much to say us...
which too was... a very sad thing.
too much explosives btw the two parties i guess.


oh wellz...
my darling class decided to rush down to the cafe to have the reception.
ha..and for the FIRST time..
my class was first.
hahah.....it so funny...when it comes down to food and slack..
i guess nothing beats my class.


so glad to meet my class for like the last time..
cause the next time is gonna be a long time.
i'm just so so upset that yeanling wasnt feeling well and din turn up in school
miss that girl like crazy...
she's just so bubbly and high at times... she's cute.
miss you girl
if only you came...den we could go crazy snapping pictures again.


met mr ng after dat...
and he gave us his 100m dash pep talk.
geez....
he's the teacher that seriously made an impact in my life in jc.
in fact...my time spent in sailing is the time that i really enjoyed most thruout my jc days.
i'm gonna miss my team. no doubt about that.
although the feeling was a lot stronger one year ago.



i'll miss school.
but not for the school itself.
but for the friends i met.

met my girls yesterday.
stead..lijie and viv dear~!!
life has never been greater...
really miss those days with them.
the st.nicks days


we went shopping for shoes. clothes. everything.
and had dinner at fish and co where we shared like one seafood platter and one fish and chips.
and we had a long session discussing our girly future...
and trying dear vivi to join OUR side.
haha....i realized my stead and i are pretty much on the same wavelength.
maybe that's why we're steads..~! haha.


i made a fool out of myself over dinner.
but that's all i'll say.


ended up at esplanade to sit and enjoy the scenery..
take photos...and talk.
but we were like engulfed and mortified by the horrible smoke...
puff puff puff....
smoke chokes man.
so glad we can take a shelter from the smoke free bus-stops.
smoking should be ban~!!


miss my girls already.
cant wait for our scuba diving trip
-that's if it even happens-





tomorrow
tomorrow...
i love ya tomorrow.....

in a span of about 6 hours.
i drank like about 10 bowls of soup.
broke my previous record of 7.
hahah...
but now...
i keep having to go to the toilet...
oops. too much liquid.

spent the whole day doing vectors.
but wth...
i still dun feel confident eh.
man...wad's the point in doing.




i only realized just now that it had been almost a month since i last saw him.
but...he's coming back~!!
dum dee dee dum.......
*hops around*

i miss you.~!!!
cant wait. come back come back~!!

being a good girl today.
i finally appeared in school
worrying that my 2 days "disappearance" isn't a very nice thing to do.

but guess what.
my ct wasnt there to take attendance...
cause she prob tot my whole class was gonna go MIA again.
ha.....

so my pretty babe and i had to join A42. which wasnt a very long line anyway.
haha.....
den ms wong came up to me...cause we had GP tut for the first period- i din even noe-
she looked at me....and asked..

"so do you have any questions to ask?"

me:"eh no?"

msw: "i tot so too....how to have tut like that? one on one? if the rest comes and want to see me.. den u give me a call.." -shakes head and walk away-


ha...welcome to my life in my class.
hahahahha......told cha my class rocks.


couldnt find mr ho to amend my cca record and so i resorted to sms-ing him.
damn...i should have just done that in the 1st place and not go to school.

wouldnt let my travelling time to school be a waste of time...
so decided to hurry book a consultation slot with ms tay...
and wanting joined in again.
but today was good.....cause we had so much time to work with. hee.




he called to say he din make it.
it was bittersweet.
really hoped he could pass.
but at the same time....
i'm just so glad and happy he's coming back soon.

decided not to go to school again.
i din make full use of my time at home though.
only managed to do like 3 chapters of maths yesterday.
isnt too productive.
but it beats going to school.....cause i have no idea was i did in school on monday.
prob staring at psa building.


but i need to go to school by tmr
to get my cca records amended.
shucks....

din go to school today.
it's just pointless.
its better off to stay home and study.
den again....
that's IF i can be disciplined enough.



yesterday...
they started making noise about our language and the things we said in our blogs.
we werent maligning people anymore... in fact some of us din even start it in the first place.
so quit finding fault with blogging.



wish u would hurry come back

went out for dinner with my class yesterday...
and attendance was almost full...
surprised~!!!
it's hardly that everybody would turn up...
and ya...yesterday was FRIDAY....
but my class attendance was ZERO in school.
heh...my class rocks when it comes to "being absent from school"

mr peh joined us for dinner...
he's really a funny guy.
he's so sacarstic at times that it's just hilarious.
used to think that he's the scary and unreasonable teacher.
due to past encounters.
but after this year....i had a 180 degree change in my impression of him.
and to simply put it....think he's a great teacher...
in comparison to all the other teachers that teach me.

heh..had this crazy photo taking session...
and my pretty darling wanting totally cracked me up...
she's just this pretty and naive babe... similar to that of a blond bimbo...
but she's more cheena.... a bimbo with brains. -lots of brains-


she was like eating lots and lots of cockels....

me: "stop eating so much of that....its high cholestrol."

wt: "its ok...i took jab liao"

me: "huh? jab? erm....jab is for hepatitis B dear."

wt: "oh it is??"

ahahhaahha.....she's just amusingly silly. seriously.
but...she's damn smart....book smart.
so i cant say she's dumb.

but wth??
you took a jab and dunno wad it is for....
and its for cholestrol control??
cool....den no one would die of heart attack due to their blood clogging up in their fat filled veins.

we had this other conversation arguing over diabetes.
i shan't say much here.
but goodness.....the innocence of my classmates sometimes really surprise me.
but i still love my class.




had a small sailing gathering today.
and we watched this STUPID M-18 show at cine.
seriously.....just when i tot boogeyman was bad.
devil's rejects is even worse.
grace was right....it has no plot, no horror. nothing.
just a little gory.... alot of f****** sex...literally.
every sentence had at least 2 F-word.

think the only redeeming factor of the show is the pretty girl.
or maybe when you're bored....count the number of F-word they say..
which i can easily say a 100 min.

WAD KIND OF SHOW IS THAT????????~!!!!
i cant believe we spent $57 bucks on that show.
goodness....
MDA probably allowed it to pass and be shown to cheat poor movie-goers like us.
lost and blur teenagers.
i feel robbed.....off my 10 bucks.

how could 8days rate it 3/5 stars?????


i managed to buy my sandals.....
la dee dee dum.....
i'm happy.

on a happier note today...after yesterday.
i finally passed geog.
like BOTH physical and human.
obviously the latter is better done.
but only like 4 of us in class passed the physical part
so yesh...
i'm damn proud of myself now.

but a D aint too great a grade.
managed an E for econs
and O for maths.

i did improve...
but i definately need to work extra extra hard this 5 weeks.
5 WEEKS?!???!@#@@!

ok...dat's fast...
and me in my own world JUST realized it today.

since it's the last tutorial of our JC life...
Mr Peh started telling us about getting back our results NEXT YEAR.
and what he would do to "haunt" us before it.
like sms-ing us 2 days before and say "2 days more"
and gradually counting down till the night before...
"sweet dreams..sleep well......ending off with FFF"

hahhahaha....he's such a joker.
not taking into the account that we HAVEN'T even take our A's
and he's talking about getting back our results.
geezz....but he did scare me a little.
think i'll totally freak out before getting back results.

wadeva...i should just quit thinking so far and just be a mugger toad now.
i wanna get my A for econs. -i dun believe i cant-
just so as to thank him.....


heh...that probably means that i'm aiming for straight As....
i'm crazy.



8 months. love.
and yup. i'm damn proud of it.
ah ha..~!

i just feel so jaded.


i really you were right beside me now

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one downY
ou sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day

The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you knowT
hat you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most

my mom just made me feel so guilty for not taking the initiative to start a conversation with my cousin.
said that being the older cousin...
i've the responsibility to talk to her.
damn it.
i'm only 2 years older.
ok...wadeva...


i'm just an anti-social bitch.




it's gonna be MONDAY tmr.
that means i gotta go BACK to school.
QUIT slacking and "worming" around
and get down to STUDYING.

ok....that's gonna take lotsa determination to do so..
cause i'm such a procrastinator.





my daddy told me today that he's not gonna pay for my driving lessons and i gotta pay for it myself.
OK~!!!! den thou shall not go take my driving license.
*winks*

i'm totally alright with taking public transport around.
plus my baby can drive....-i like to be driven, coz i'm LAZY-

and even if i were to get my license..
i wouldnt have a car to drive...
so....cons more than pros.
so unless my daddy forks out my fees....
i'm not gonna learn.
HA.~!

i miss my boy....

Happy birthday bro~!!

went back to school today.
and it sucks.
argh.
i ended school at 1015 cause ms wong was absent.
and yet...i was stuck in school till 1245.
i hate this freaking rule that we cant leave school till 1~!!
den again...
i tink i'll just skip school altogether liao.
heck.

on a happier note..
met lijie and sera yesterday..
after like times and times of postponing...
finally.
i love my girls man.

went to this place at the new marina square..
changing appetite...
and had a wonderful and fun time.

marina is like a food heaven now.
yummy food all over.
*slurp*

sera dear gave me a ride home after that.
ha..no comments though.





miss my boy who's like gone for only a week~!

went to send grace off at the airport.
and had a small gathering with a few of the sailors.
sigh...
it was just a sad sad scene?
cant imagine if i was the one who have to go overseas.
alone.
study alone.


anyway...3 months will pass soon enough.
den we can have the popiah party..


thanks ros!!....
for giving me a lift home.

it is so annoying when your plans are thwart.
esp by my mom.
it's getting so frustrating~!
2 days already.

f***
i should just heck her and go out all i want.
i'm pissed.


3 days...and i hardly did anything fun.
wad the hell..



i miss you like crazy.

my silly daddy keeps pestering me over his new V3....
do this for me...
do that for me...
why like that?? why like this??
change the function for me....

i'm like....
come on man...give me time~!!
let me figure it out.
it's a NEW phone..... for a reason.

and he's like....
but ANDY has it too..
dun you know how to use it already?
*bangs my head*


fathers.........
welcome to my life.

saw this g-force one plane on apprentice just now.
it works on zero gravity.
which means...you get to float around like an astronaut in outer space.
even though you're only still flying within the atmosphere.
weightless.
cool.

i wanna go on that too.
geez...if only....
that's like the closest thing i can get to to my dream.

the week sure passed faster den i tot it would be.
but i'm so glad its over.

would A's be worst?
i think so.



andy called me this morning.
once at freaking 7+ am
and i missed the call.
like by a ring. DAMN.
i missed his call~!!!!

but seriously dear....it's 7am...on a SATURDAY.
AFTER my prelims....
I NEED MY SLEEP.....
haha....

i got another call at 10~!!!
yeah....*smiles*
sorry about the fact that i just woke up and sound so so drowsy.
but thanks for totally waking me up.

i managed to clear my room in record time today.
yipee....its like nice and neat now.

it wont last long though.
once i start revising for A's in a week.
it's gonna be a freaking pile of mess again
but for now....i think i did a great job

its so weird that when you're shopping and this good looking salesman comes up to you
flash that smiles and that cheeky grin
hoping you would stop and listen to wad they have to say.

no doubt it is a good way to attract my attention.
no doubt they are cute.
but seriously...
uh uh. NO....Nnoooooooooooooooo~!


went bugis with viv
and wei joined us later.
jie couldnt make it in the end.
so did sera. sigh.
disappointment there.
but my two girls were fun enough.
viv and her usual quirky acts.
and wei....looking gorgeous day by day.


bugis was nice. bugis street was exceptionally nice.
but just wasnt in the shopping mood.
when you are short of cash.
you just cant enjoy shopping as much.
damn.

met grace and cheryl for dinner at coffee club.
mudpie was sinful yet yummilicious.
talks about studying overseas.
boyfriends.
maids.

i'm glad i'm bound in singapore for now.
i'm glad i've no intentions to studies overseas.
and i'm glad i have you.

happy birthday edwin~!!


its finally over~!
for now.
the worst has yet to come.


haha....it seems like e topics i predicted would come out did come out.
agribusiness. ecotourism. casino. migration.
smart ar...?


but the smarter thing is i chose not to study them.
*rounds of applause*
=)



ok...i'm starving now....
gotta go meet viv and jie for lunch soon.

happy birthday yewteng


the good thing right now is....
my last paper ends in about 18 hours.

the bad news...
i'm down with a slight fever.

and.....
I HAVENT FINISH STUDYING FOR IT.
in fact...
i'm not even HALF WAY done.

econs was pretty fine today.
only that my mind wasnt functioning well enough
and i misread a couple of mcqs.
heh......i know i'm smart.


i finally understood how it feels when "nothing goes into ur mind"
totally. well understood.
and did i mention? it's a terrible feeling.
you cant sleep. cant eat. cant study.
sweeeet..



miss you loads

econs paper 3 was a little screwed.
i'm just very weak in econs.

geog wasnt too bad....but i seriously hope i could ace it.
i did my best no doubt.
panicking and shivering before the paper wasnt the best way to deal with it
but i was so glad he came to pick me up to school.

maths is ok.



i din expect things to feel so bad.
at least not so soon.
the feeling of missing someone so much is really indescribable.
and i din think i would feel it so hard.



had a hard time falling asleep last night.
miss you.

tmr's gonna be the start of THE FREAKING PRELIM week.

damn it.
one paper everyday.
and i'm like not fully prepared for any freaking day.

i really dunno wad to freakning do now.


doesnt help that andy's leaving on tues.


how am i gonna survive the week.....................
sigh.

i think i gotta resort to sleeping on the floor tonight.


cause there's freaking no space on my comfy bed.
its totally strewn with all my notes.


prelims. ARGH.

i'm on the edge.
on the verge to just get myself crazy~!

it seems that no one ever believes abby when she says she CANT remember anything and she WONT DO WELL.
i guess everybody just has this huge assumption that she's a smart girl.
and all they will say is...
"dun worry...you can do well wan lor...just crap..you're a smart girl..you can do it."


den...when the results are out...
everybody will just say...
" why like that....better study harder...you can do it wan lor. work harder k"
den....they would all give me that....-i'm very very disappointed in you- face.



seems like i give pple this impression that i'm a really clever girl
who can like ace her exams without studying much.
one who is like.... good in piano...music.
blah blah blah....

but i'm not....

maybe i'm just street smart.
that's why i look smart.
but book smart is definately not me.

maybe that's why i should be in poly.

spare my language here...
but i'm damn bloody drained.
mentally drained.

finally finished READING thru entire 2 years of econs.
i emphasize reading....
which means....i havent touch..
1) tutorials revision
2) essay outlines
3) doing mcq -which i noe is very very impt-
4) doing case study.

whatever it is.
i'm freaking dead. i know.
gonna do maths anyway.
more confident for that....even though i think the grades wouldnt be much of a diff.

did i mention?
i havent completed human geog.
or even started on physical geog
*big smile*....knife pls...

ok...i barely started on geog....finished like a couple of chapters say 3-4 weeks ago??
i'm sure they are still in my head.

oh man.

dreams are the best thing the mind could do.


i want dreams to come true.
had this wonderful dream of someone special last night.
wanna sleep and dream again.


i'm barely done with studying though.
so sleeping gotta be the last thing on mind.
=P


rebecca was out last night.
a waste of such a pretty girl.
why keep brittany.~!!!
yucks.

love my boy for waking up early to accompany me to church.



today's a sad sad day.
i spoilt my birthday present.
sob.

i love you so very much.

things seemed to have turn a little sour lately.
it just doesnt seemed the same.
maybe its just the stress.
maybe its just me being over-sensitive.

whatever it is.
just wanna knock it all out of my mind.
and just study hard.
*knocks hards*

but it just keeps tossing up and down my heart and mind.
and boy does it hurt.

i just hope everything's alright.

just when i felt confident enough to do well enough for maths....

sigh.
killer paper.

den again i expected it din i?

oh man.
wad kind of paper is that.
ARGH.

anyway...gotta like spent two hours to fold the clothes later.
that big huge mountain of clothes.
although i swear it seemed bigger when i left the house.
maybe the bottoms got really compressed??

oh well.

weekend wasnt too bad.
went to my cousin's chalet...and my aunt decided to ask andy along.
geezz.....
anyway....someone decided to bribed my little princess....- with a swimming pool at his place-
and guess wad....that little niece of mine decided she wanted to follow him home.
goodness....
she's so easily cheated.
haha.....
she actually cried and insisted she wanted to go home with andy.
no daddy no mummy...just andy.....
goodness gracious~!
she din even want me.

anyway...had gp yesterday.
i actually finished my paper in exceptionally fast time.
cool
let's just hope i cant break the C5 barrier...

now...i'm waiting for my stupid maths paper to come.
gotta prepare to go to school for my 3 hour paper soon
i'm scared~!!
i'm petrified~!!
i'm so afraid dat when i see the paper later....
everything will just like.....blast out of my brains.
den that's it.

the end.

itz been one hell of a long week
i gotta say i actually managed to turn myself into a mugger toad.
and start doing lots and lots of maths.

but i hardly feel i learnt much.
it seems like everything just comes out there and then.
i wish myself good luck.

i doubt i can pass paper one for maths.
differentiaiton.
integration.
vectors.
3D.
functions.
complex.

stuffs i'm not confident in.
which is like almost 3/4 the paper?
sigh....

stopped studying since 12.
just cant go on no more.
i'll have to continue later.

grace and cheryl came back to school today
miss them.
cab home with ms tan after that.
it was on the way.
and i was damn scared.
somehow....i just dun like being around ms tan.
stupid pple with poor results. like me.....dun really wanna be around with an f maths teacher.
-smart teachers-

going out with my baby tmr.
*smile*

its one hell of a draggy day today.
came back early and i still gotta mug for maths
mugger toad i've become.

i dreamt of maths formula today.
geez

4 days.
damn.


i freaking put on weight AGAIN~!!!!

little princess came over today.
kinda blew my plans on studying in the afternoon.
she's sound asleep now.

i'm just waiting for her to create havoc again.

a nice boy willingly gave me a ride all the way down to bukit timah.
otherwise...i prob would have to cab down.
thanks to my mom nagging and being angry
again.
anyway...thanks....you're QUITE a safe driver.

had lunch with andy and his family.
it was just....
nice.
but i'm damn fat now.

cab home in the end.
14 bucks.
f***
i'm freaking broke...and i just spent 14 bucks cabbing home
damn it.

anyway....went grocery shopping with my parents after dinner.
i love grocery shopping.
esp when i'm not the one forking out the money.
kinda bought enough food to settle my week. -in school and for studying-
yeah.

din study much.
i was tired. and homework is piling.

just bought my bro a really early birthday present.
and my mommy got jealous and started nagging again.
about wad a tough life she got.
hahaha....

i'll get her the nice bag i saw.
soon.
but i'm really broke.
as in...
negative.
deficit.
minus minus minus~!!!!!

my class finally gave in all to all the shit we've been getting from our teacher.
kinda had an argument today with her.
a pretty big one.
meiping and peiwen sure flared up big time.
i was shocked no doubt.

home visit was fun.
but my legs are aching from chasing the guy.
he's seriously over-hyper.

met bing over dinner.
he was complaining about the whole thing of VS going co-ed.
i gotta agree....
it's a really bad idea.

129 years of tradition.
you cant just change it to a co-ed just because of a freaking new IP
which therefore need more students.
it just doesnt make sense.
129 years of VS boys are sure gonna flip.
den again....the first 50 years or so are prob dead.
but pls...dun make it a co-ed school.

9 days to prelims.
it's finally on a single digit~!!!

i think i'm losing it.
bear with me.

11 days.
f***

blogging just isnt the same when u cant rant out everything and anything u want.
the school's been on it.
again.
some j ones got into shit i guess.
talking about a certain teacher.
whom i'm quite familar with.

seriously...
no one will blog bad stuffs about you if you werent creating an "impact"
in their life.
it just gets a little annoying when everything little thing you do
you're being controlled by a higher body.

will it work better if we start ranting out straight at your face
instead of "talking behind your back"
geez.....get a life.
no one even outrightly stated who it was.

a blog is no doubt not a private diary as its published on the world wide web.
but everyone is entitled to his freedom of opinions to a certain extent.

just dun go to the extend of writing out the NAME you are against.
how would anybody know.
seriously....wad is wrong with you guys.

i better think twice of wad i have to say.
or else i'll be next.

the tv messaging system flashed a big huge 12
in my face the whole day.
12 days to prelims.
and i'm barely half way done.

i finally got my sailing photos. wheeeee...
love the background. love the sea.
but it's not my sail..not my nooblet.~!!

someone sure knows his way around the opposite sex.
that's it.
my mommy definately likes him better than us.
we happily din get my mom anything for her birthday.
only intending to treat her to dinner...
and someone bought a bouquet of roses for her.
how can??

haha...
happy birthday mommy~!

prelims is starting in two weeks and a little.
sian.
i just dun feel like studying again.

badminton tmr...yeah
i think i'm growing fat.
bloop.

malaysian cars should be ban from singapore.
or at least roads surrounding the driving centres.

because of a stupid malaysian car.
i dunno when i could get my ride.

poor dear.
forget it.
just try again ya.

met my girls over dinner yesterday.
and a game of mahjong at sera's place.
miss them so much.


school started of pretty bad today
with a certain lit teacher screaming at the arts faculty.
as usual.
tracy decided to dare her.
and seems like she's gonna start taking attendance for MY class.
WTF.

missed civics caused we all assumed there wasn't
assumptions are bad.
apparently she got really mad and informed silas about it.
damn it.
gotta meet him at 4 tmr.
the whole class.
Wth....we din mean to skip civics.
it was just a freaking communication breakdown.



a nice lunch and long bus ride home.
however.
totally made the day a whole lot better.


18 days to go.

woke up fairly early this morning (considering the fact it's national day and wad hell time i slept last night)
met dear and his parents for breakfast (or was it brunch)
i really love cartel breakfast.
i dun think i would mind having it every weekend.
yummy.

was supposed to study when i reached home.
but i just gave in to my already tired body.
falling asleep and waking up every half an hour or so.
and this routine lasted me till 3

ok.
it's definately time to study at least a little.
19 more days to prelims.
no joke.

just came back from a really full meal with mr ng.
seoul garden with the sailors was fun.

and mr ng gave us a nice sailor table mat.
hahah

i still couldnt find my little heart.

but someone made me a new one.
*smile*


sigh....its been a pretty lousy weekend.
just wish i could turn back time and make it a little better.

losing something significant to you is just a sad thing.
i still cant find it.
and i probably cant find it anymore.
i'll try the LT first thing tmr.
hope it's there.

where's my little heart.





baby passed his medical.
which means flying off to aus in time to come.

some things should just be left as it is.
there are just this little things dat i chance about
and it makes me question so much about life.

why why why?
i could just feel everything shrinking inside me.

wad have i done to myself?

lurve...u

6 fabulous months.
180 wonderful days.

thanks for everything.
i love you.

exams is just like sailing.
u gotta keep putting in effort throughout the race
not make so many mistakes.
concentrate on your OWN race abby
race is won within...not by looking at how well others are doing..


dont be demoralised.
cos the a's results is the finish..
only then the results matter
until then u will have good and bad results.
just keep working smart.
doing badly now is like doing badly in a regatta in january

sailing hard= studying hard
sailing fast = studying smart
DONT EVER THINK YOU'RE A FAIL STUDENT

singapore papers always make people fail.
but when a level comes u wanna be prepared for CAMBRIDGE questions.
not sajc stuff
keep your mind focused on what u have to do to win okay?
dont get distracted by people or results.

take care abby..
you're always a champ to me la anyways
keep your head up k


jc is tougher than uni
so dont worry.
i got o's an f's too.
i was getting eee for prelims too.
but i never told myself i was stupid ..
what the hell..just study anyway la.....since got no choice.

if u ever get stuck with dilemmas in school
use sailing to help you.


spoken like a coach
with sailing as an analogy.

just went to the playground to relieve my childhood.
it was fun.

i'm at the last of my teenage years and i still act like a kid.
goodness.


vivi...hope u're fine~!!
hugs..

does it hurt alot to cut yourself?

is it true that physical pain can take away wad hurts inside?

i just want the pain to go away.
i dun wanna feel.

failures is the mother of all success.


whoever came up with this is totally bullshit.
i know i'm turning all pesstimistic...
but seriously...blame me.


its all crap when you were younger...your parents tells you that
its ok if you fail...just pick yourself up and you'll succeed.
since when is it true?


at least not for me.


i'm just so tired of picking the pieces up.
if failing means falling down....
i'm very sure my knees are all bruised now.
in fact...i might just shatter every piece of bone in my knee.


how many times do i have to fail before i could succeed.
i cant fail anymore.
i have only one last chance to fail.
just one.


i'm trying hard.
studying hard.
i really am.
believe me.

a certain teacher has this way of making feel as though results is all that matters in life
i mean that is no doubt true.
at least for now....
when my A's is approaching...
results IS ALL that matters.
but seriously.......do you have to make it sound like that?


someone has to tutor his junior.


call me being over sensitive...
but i just dun like the sound of it.

a sweet lil boy came all the way down to my place to have dinner with me.
despite hurting his leg.
i love you for being so silly.
love you for being so sweet.


it's just these little actions that makes you love a person even more.


dinner was great.

got back to school.
only to realized i'm lagging behind by quite a bit.
sigh.


failed my maths by 2 marks.
and i had like tons of careless marks deducted as usual.
sian.


failed human geog.
last in class.
great.
just really hoping i ace my physical part.
wad happened.


got c6 for gp.
lots of room for improvement.
still aiming for my B4 at least.
sigh....is it really that hard.


i happily lost my mommy's sd card too.
512Mb....aint exactly a cheap one to replace.


wad a week.
i hate it.
i'm just feeling down down down.


i miss you.

a job well done...

me anv ven...we won.

i just realized something cool.

http://www.ri.sch.edu.sg/nationalsailing/byclass.htm

that's it man.
i'm never ever gonna apply sunblock on my face
ever again.


my face is like a piece of patchwork now.
white patches here. black patches there.
thanks to the wonderful peels the sunblock gave me.
it's gonna take some time to recover.
dammit.
there's hell nothing i could do to save it now.
at least if you cut your face u noe you could apply cream to make it recover faster.
wad can make your face peel faster??
or like some miracle cream to make the tone the same??
anybody?
help.


my poor face.


how to face the world.


au natural.
is always the best.

a race well sailed.
a race well fought.


to my dearest sailing team~!!!
love you girls...
we won we won~!!!!
we beat MJ.....
we're second.... yeah baby yeah.
wonderful girls.


tied with mj at 54.
but thanks to our greatest 420 sailors.
we broke the tie and won.
jiayi and yulin....you're da girls!..


this is just the way to end our sailing year with a BANG!

to all pple who likes tanning out there..
when research says that the sun is the strongest between 11-3pm
believe it. and take really good care of yourself.
it's no joke to be BAKED under the horrendous scorching sun btw this period.
i tried it today.
its terrible.
you just feel totally dried and fried.


interschool started with a four hour slack
and three races in three hours.
the wind just dun wanna pick up.


i swear i could just punch a hole thru my bow.
frustration.
anger.
annoyance.
just so full of it after race one..


i'm tired burnt and sleepy now.
so i'll continue my HORRIBLE day tmr.


keep it up girls

.

woke up early to go for cartel breakfast.
yummy...
and i spent the next few hours shopping and shopping again.
bought a 3/4s from mango.
gorgeous....
it makes me look taller...
haha....and that's just wad i need.
illusions to make me seem taller....
ha....and now...i've the same bottoms as jess...
my other shopping mate.
the girl who seriously loves shopping.


shoppping with my dear is just so nice.
its just so easy to have someone to pick out nice clothes for you to try.


had to rush down to nsc at about 3.
argh...
in the end we only trained for like 1 hr....
when i could have stayed in town all these while.
talk about opportunity cost.
ya....and weiguo was so "nice"
thanks for wad u said about me.
ouch.


dun worry....i'll make sure i beat ven to prove you wrong.


rush back to town for dinner...
and someone surprised me the wallet i eyed....
lalala......

its finally OVER over...
wheeeeeee......
i'm so happy....geog din seem that bad
cross my fingers hard...
hope i can pass.
i think i can~!!!
yipeeeeeeeee.....


next week....i'm not going to school for the entire week
*laughs*
interschool.
now let's hope we can get second.
oh yeah....light-medium wind pls.
thank you~!

third paper down.
econs was a killer.
din do a 13 mark essay.
totally...first time in my life i TOTALLY din do a question.
jialat.
econs confirm fail.
=p


tmr's geog...
yeah...i'm gonna ace it~!

5 months.
love you

i just love u so much for being so special.


lunch company was great.
thanks dearie.


met alywin this morning....
yawnz....rush all the way down to see him for like 15 mins.
i could have taken my own sweet time. heh.

frustration frustration!!
just tons and tons of it...
only second paper down...maths
i had great confidence in it.
but i just lost it all again.


i lost eight marks....eight freaking marks which i knew how to do...
but at that point of time...
i just fell for the tricky part.
i fell for it.
damn it.


i hate it when i know i can do it
and yet i couldn't.

sera's party was a blast.
i guess meeting up with everybody was really fun.
crapping....verbal bullying...
met jules dear.....and his usual crappy shit...miss him loads.
thanks angelo...for being such a great host..
stayed till late....and took a ten mins walk home. hahah....talk about near...
had a great time...

caught initial D yesterday....
its a rather good show....
i'm not really into this kind of show...
but it was still nice to watch...
maybe cause edison is really cute.
ha....


woke up with a really bad diarrheoa...
been visiting the toilet say 4 times already...
argh....
couldnt bring myself to leave the house to go study with edgar and grace..
gotta go to sera's party later...
so i better visit all the toilet times i have to NOW.

school's starting~!!
it is it is.....grrrrrrrrr.....


yeah....and my dear's holding an office position at cmpb for the next 3 months...
and that's like a 15 mins walk away from school.
which means...i can still get to see him during the weekdays..
yeah yeah......
but that's till he flies to aus....
den....that's like a month...
its ok...i'll be having my A's by then
A's..........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......


dinner was great on sat...
i want my cartel breakfast though....

took the extra effort to wake up 30 mins after my morning call
and STUDY.
i was struggling btw staying awake and focusing on my notes
geeez.....it's so tough to wake up early nowadays.


met my dearie in the afternoon
and its another day where we spent the whole day shopping with each other.
i just love days like that.
it's a very nice feeling to just spend the entire day with that certain someone.
enjoying each other's company.


everything is short lived though....
block leave will end soon...
and its gonna be back to me and my mundane school life...
and mugging for the freaking A's
which seems to be moving towards me like this huge gigantic wall.


i'm not running towards it.
in fact i havent even finish warming up.
the finishing line is just moving towards me.
FAST pace.

i'm officially down with a flu and cough.



zzzzzzzzz....help...

Happy birthday JesS~!!



it been a nice 4 days...
slacking with my dear...
geez...if only life could always be like that
no sailing. no studying.


i'm sure...


just came back from bbq at andy's place
it was fun and hilarious...
the crazy bunch of peeps...


*sniff*
having a block nose...
how am i gonna sleep tonight...

This.......is my baby.

kisses from my "stead"

pretty babes. love you all.

love you all

i burnt and aching.
sucks...
gotta start mugging again.
cant wait for wednesday to come.

team SAiling

it had been a long week.


had a 5 day regatta....draining.
mentally... for the first 3 days
the wind just wouldnt pick up.
terrible.
AP AP....had to fight a battle with the currents.
the shifting winds. headers...lifters...
game plan game plan....
hot sun. sea sick.... everything
but i gotta thank weiguo...
he is a good coach.....
and he was right....i should be sailing a whole lot better den wad i did for this regatta.
shouldnt be so far behind ven...
he's very right.


4th day was even worst.
the worst of all.
2 races...
one which was strong wind.
couldnt hike out much....was struggling like a poor shit.
and claudia was flying....i could just see her way in front of me....with her boat flat...
and me....almost capsizing everytime i tack. crap.
the other was even more horrendous...
i couldnt start on time.....
i started like 10 mins late...
but i did sail well for it...just a terrible start. sigh. and that did screw me up real bad.
it's just disgusting. as weiguo would say.
but the day ended on a nice note....
when he came down.... and sailed my boat back with me...
thanks for coming down dear.....it was really sweet.


today was the best...
i sailed the best race in my life.
i had the prettiest start ever... first boat off and flying.
if only weiguo was there to see it...den he would stop saying my starts are killing him.
but....i guess i gotta thank you....for nagging at me the night before.
last race was gorgeous too....finished off sixth.
a great battle fought.
and hence....we beat MJ...yes...YEAH...we did it!!!...
nice one ven. nice one grace.
thanks for coming down too....grace ros zhenfang.
a big huge thanks for being there.....


had dinner with his family too.
one word.
fun.


i'm just tired now....sleeping time

just cut my hair.
hope i did the right thing.
haha.....

i'm stuck at home.
gotta study extra harder before my 5 days race
i dun really wanna sail anymore.
sigh....just an obligation to sail.
an obligation to study.
wad a forced life.


hey darlings...let's meet up one evening again.
it was great having dinner with you guys at chomp chomp
it was great catching up with all of you at the bbq.
a crazy time together.
i miss it already.


viv~!!!
wear your skirt the next time we go out k.
pretty pls.........love you.
hope you're working fine.
must get more sales k.

my other 2/3....making us a whole.

woke up early to have a breakfast.
caught an early movie.
and spent the rest of the day shopping.
it was tiring.
but i had wonderful day.
thanks.


the company was great.
and that's all that matters.

thanks for the handmade book
thanks for the cards.
had a wonderful meal at cartel with sera and lijie yesterday.
catching up on everything.
school. guys. army.
argh.
time was short.
hope to see you guys real soon


went to watch bball finals.
HC girls thrashed VJ 68-34
sadly,
HC guys lost to TJ by 5 points
no. 10 is cute.
haha...


yeah...he's coming back tmr...
but dun think i'll get to see him
gotta wait till monday. -pouts-

my "cuzzie" my darling and myself. love you

a big thanks to all who remembered my birthday. sera wei viv lijie wen sameema prisc jiehui ben. everybody
esp the guy who msg me from aust. THANK YOU~!
love ya all.
to my darling class.....for giving me a surprise celebration during econs. with almost 19 candles.
to my dear sailors....thanks for the gifts and yummy cake too.
to wanting...for the error filled birthday card.
and to yeanling for the wonderful pictures.... thanks.


it was a great day.....with a little downside... =)


lijie dear....is everything alright?
how's the application and all?
hope everything's fine.
been a long time since i last caught up with you


sera dear...
i dun like the army.
keep me company ok?
sigh.....


viv...happy working at video ez...
is it fun?
i'll call you when i can k... sorry
been busy.......acting guai.
hahah...


another week to last.
seven days.
three days without news.
hope you're fine.
get well soon.

stop buggin me to study.
i need a break too.
so sick of coming home and knowing that i have to study
just to satisfy you.
i'm so tired of studying.
i'm just studying for the sake of studying.
sian.


sigh. one more week....meet the hod.
think its the arts hod.
praying real hard she's nice.


got down to ordering the flowers for my mummy and his mummy for mothers day.
i think they are gorgeous.
ha...i'm so proud of myself.


i wanna go shopping...
been a long time since i last shopped.
ARGH.
so irrritating.


hehe
I MISS SERA TOO~!!!

heh...been almost a month since i last blogged
so many things happened
but i'm obviously too lazy and too cant be bothered to blog everything down liao
heh...
hhaha....my com crashed...and no one at home bothered to do anything about it.
so well...
i'm at andy's house now stoning.
so i might as well blog.
before pple like dear jh start scolding me again.
hey darling...rest well ok....how did u get appendicitis anyway -ouch-


lijie and wei....i miss you guys.~!!!!!
we'll meet up soon rite? *hint hint*
hahaha....
girl ar...dun be jealous larz...u still got him mah.... rite?


vivi....dun always be so sad ok....need anybody to talk to....i'll still be here... =)


sian....he's going back in again.
packing his bag now.
2 weeks....argh.
hahahha.... marathon time~!