two weeks since results was released.
slightly more than two weeks left to the dateline of application.

congrats!!!
i still dunno wad the hell i should do.
peace be with me.....


*mediation position*
ummmm.....




p.s i love you.

Happy 19th birthday Ven!!
Happy 20th birthday Vivi!!


poor ven got really drunk at her birthday party...
luckily it was at her place...
it was the first time i saw someone so high and....gone.....

so the weekend had been for the open houses....
NTU open house was at far far away boonlay.
took me 2 hours to get from my place to the entrance of the school. *gosh*

went to SMU today.... and it took me about 45 mins to get there. *hmmm*
so yep... open houses which din really make me feel less lost.
in fact.....i think i'm back to square one...
NIE is back in the picture...


oh gosh.... kill me.


went back to dear old st nicks for st nicks fiesta on sat.
i've so much to talk about it...
but since its almost 3am and i've to wake up in 4 hours....

i should force myself to go to bed and blog about it another day....
for now....
i need to coax myself to bed

the bugger IT guy at my office disabled my internet connection after giving me 2 reasons.
oh no. wait...
he disabled my laptop's internet THEN gave my 2 reasons.
BrrrrUhhhhLL SsssssHhhhhhhIT.

so yesh...i wont be blogging as often anymore cause i'll be too tired to use the com at home.
and also...i rather watch TV.

works been a little more hectic recently...my boss decided to spring us the dateline of the case...
heh...end of this month... so yesh...for the first time in many months...i had to work OT.... *pouts*

no internet + lots of work = tired tired me.

i really wish to burn down the room i'm working in...
its a makeshift library of a law firm.... and plus the 100++ files that i've to cross reference....
oooo.....camp fire burning... camp fire burning.....


apparently i'm suffering from some fungal infection....-geez-
but that's according to my parents....
i think its just a bad bad case of allergy.... dust in the freaking "library" larz...
first time something like that happen to me can?
ARgh....

so anyway...i've a pretty big red patch of rough skin on the back of neck.... yesh...
altogether...EwwwwwWW...
so i'm really upset about it now ok?
but on the bright side...i shall just let down my hair and cover it UP~!! =)

Happy birthday PRisC~!!

been going thru a whirlwind of emotions since the 1st march.
and i would say its the worst case of "bad mood" since i dunno when.

i'm still not happy with my darn shit results.
it's no longer a matter of being able to get to uni..
but more of a..."is this wad i get after all the hard work?"

where's my As?

my body is aches with every movement i make.
see...this is the result of not jogging since last july..
owwwww....

P.S: to A51.
1. Mr Peh asked all to try to go to career fair thingy at suntec ok?
2. Ms Teo called to wish us good luck on day of results
3. Mr Peh feels very "du bu qi" to those who din get As and Bs for econs. -yesh. that's includes me-

we finally managed to pull off a surprise on him.
FINALLY~!

hope you liked the surprise....

to all my frens who did well...congrats!
to all who din.... big *hugs*

i din think i did well...
just average grades.
and i'm still sore over geog and GP...
maybe i could have done better....
lots of maybe(s)

but wadeva it is ...life moves on and if i dun believe in myself...who would?

i know i did my best...and if this is the outcome.... so be it.
for now...
i'm shall just worry about uni application....wad i should take and where i would go...
i'm a confused girl at this moment. no doubt.

to all who've been there for me on results day.... a big huge thanks...
for being there : andy and ven.
for the sms-- you know who you guys are.... sera, lijie, viv, wei, wen, samee, jiehui, and so many more esp grace and cheryl....
it meant so much...
thanks darlings.



courses in mind: business, econ, geog.
NIE is out for the time. - bye PE-


results dont determine your future.... you do.

god bless my classmates.
god bless the sailors.
god bless all my friends.
god bless me.


the dreadful day is tomorrow.
everybody pray hard tonight.
i know i will be.

all i ask is for you to be free on wednesday.
please.....


stop taking him away you darn bloody army.


i'm a sad girl now. thanks army.

i refuse to give in to my body and sleep...
sleeping always makes time past faster...
and that would mean wednesday would arrive sooner...

oh boy oh boy...
i refuse to go to bed.



i wouldnt mind giving up everything just to see you smile.
i would give up anything just for you to be happy.

it's OFFICIAL....... bless me...

http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2006/pr20060224.htm

i feel so helpless seeing you in this state and there's nothing much i can do to help.
i wanna take the pain away from you and see you smile again.
pls do? will you?
hurts me to know that you're in misery.


on happier note,
shopping yesterday viv was great.
i bought 2 tanks, 1 pair of shoes...2 lingiere, 1 pair of shorts.
and viv bought a pretty long skirt...
- i cant wear long pretty skirts cause i'm short- darn

anyway....shall ground myself from shopping for at least the next 2 weeks.
i have bigger plans...

Mr Peh passed a message to leon and it was further pass to jiefang and tracy...
and on and on it goes around A51...
and so at 2.15pm today.... an sms from fang.....

"Wednesday. 1st March. 2pm. Go back to school collect results. Try to go earlier."

Ahhh....at first we tot leon was playing a prank on us.
--yes...that's how much we trust leon. Ha...--
so fang msged Mr Peh to confirm.

And he says..."yes its true!!!!"

AHhHhHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh.....

i thought it was friday??!!??

someone quick get me a ticket to fly OUT of SINGAPORE~!!!!
-panic-



sleepless nights are soon to begin.

army boots + army tee + army shorts =????

all i could think of was kinky when he told me this was wad he had to wear this morning.
haha....
chemical defence i see.....

did i add that his section mates were doing striptease in that outfit?
hahaha....
picture that.. a group of guys donned in boots with shorts!!


results should be out next week.
and if all is well...
yours truly should be opting for NIE to be a PE teacher.
results results please be good ok?


lost weight but i feel so darn fat.
i dun like being fair....it just accentuates the chubbi-ness.
i need a tan desperately....
Sentosa pleeeeeeeeease!


i miss the sailing days...
where i was overly tanned - which i dun mind-
at least i look fitter...
miss my flat flat tummy....
oh darn...i miss hiking out!!

miss having to put dat darn mast into that hole....
which i learnt only cause my buddy graduated....
and since i was forced to do it myself as edgar refused to help me...
remember how the guys only had to use their hands to lift it and i had to use like my legs too...
loser me.

miss having to climb up to that freaking daggerboard after i capsized...
and the big purple bruises i got on my arm. -EWWW-
miss having to pull those horrible punctured trolleys with my boat on it.
heh.... once again...i only started pulling the FULL distance from the lockers to the sea and launch when my buddy graduated.
i usually pull it to the gate and he would help with dragging it across the sand -GRINZ-

i miss launching. i miss recovering.
i miss the sun. i miss my fit body.
i miss the scent of the salty air.

every bit and pieces of sailing i miss.

had a wonderfully packed day..
i have a great sense of achievement now. ah ha....

went to church before heading down to town to get my pretty mango top.
i'm so gonna buy everything from this season's of mango...
everything look so pretty.
rushed down to boon lay to pick baby up before heading down to play a good game of badminton.
after that was mahjong time at les's place followed by a yummy dinner.

ha..... i was really doing stuffs every min.
i like days like these..
it just seemed so much more fruitful.


hope to go shopping tmr...hahaha...HOPE.
NTU talk...here i come.

when hurts been inflicted
you cant take it away with words

all i wanted was you to be happy.
to do my best and make it well for you.
but since you had to put me down...

there's nothing else for me to say.

i'm sorry i tried.

now i dun wanna smile anymore.

it's friday~!!
i cant be anything more than happy....

met sera lijie and viv darlings yesterday....
and....
we ended doing girly shopping....
and it was real fun.
laughing when we walked into the males section....cracking the lamest jokes...
and staring at each other's clothes as we tried them them on.

once again....i miss them.
thanks for the night...it was great.

the HR of the office has changed the sitting location of me and sam..
so now we are bounded in this small lil meeting room cum library.
great!
no more open concept...and that means i could slack all i want and play all the online games that i want without someone having to walk pass my screen every min.
oh yeah...now working time will pass a whole lot faster!!


anyway,
i'm gonna end up spending my entire paycheck soon
someone gotta stop me. please.
darn.

my boss was being very concerned when he found out i wasnt going to take the afternoon off.
started questioning on why i din have plans and all... giving me that "its v-day" face.....
so i ended having to explain that andy's in camp...and that he cant come out?
duhz....
and i was bombarded with more why why why?

haiyo.


happy valentines day to all my darlings...

viv.lijie and sera: miss you guys so much.... thanks for always there for me..wad more can i say.... love ya loads....
wei.prisc and wen: miss you guys loads too.....we gotta meet up more often ok? hate the fact that we are drifting away....all busy with our own lives
yeanling. jiefang. wanting. the whole of 04A51
grace. cheryl. charlene. chong. jp. ben.
ven. edgar. grace. mich. samuel.
leslie. jess. xf.
daniel. aly.

love ya all....


its sad to know that when you're out of sec and jc...
v-day never seemed the same again.
remember those day where we would go to school on v-day with boxes of chocolates and tons of flowers....
happily giving our frens the chocs and flowers.
a simple gesture that just makes v-day the most interesting day in the school calender.
it doesnt matter if you were my fren's fren..... whoever we see we would just pass the goodies around.
v-day should always be like that.




thanks for the beautiful flowers.
happy valentines day.

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY to one and all....

due to the someone robbing me off my sleep this morning...
i'm feeling a tad teeny weeny high...
so i dun feel like sleeping yet...
so i'll be high for a while....

and tmr...i'll suffer the repercussions of nodding off at work.
but who cares...
when i see the 18 files i have to clear in front of me... and the tens of files that forms a great wall around my desk....
it acts as my lullaby.

lost eastern bird

its been a good weekend once again.
sigh...and its over.

spent the weekend chilling out...watching movies...
swimming and having prata with great company.
next weekend hurry come please!


and so i ended up at JP as darling yeanling always say.
and yesh...JP is an alien place to me.
i was literally walking in circles around the train station so as to find THE bus stop he was asking me to meet him at.

according to instructions given....i'm supposed to find the bus stop where most people are heading to?
but wad???? people are heading in ALL directions...
and so i spent 20 mins walking around JP looking like a lost lost eastern bird.



Valentines' day's tmr!!!
-big deal-
sucks when he's in camp.
worst.......
outfield.

it aint a good end to the week since...

1) my bro got back his O's results....and it really aint good.
i'm just praying hard he could still make it to poly.

and now i'm really scared for mine too. sigh.

2) baby's really sad cause he cant go to OCS because of some bloody f*****
- apologies for the language.... but trust me...this particular guy deserves it! ARGH!! stupid POS-
darn..... i'm gonna curse him....

so tmr....i'm gonna be a good good girl and go to novena and pray for everybody...
and of course myself!

and so after being lost in my own world for a long long while....
i'm back.
the weeks been pretty great.
and it's sat tmr.....
guess wad that means???


celebrated daddy's birthday yesterday. and he's 50. oh man....sounds old.
and that also means my coming birthday...i'm 20. darn.

ntu's admission talk is on 19Feb. gotta make a mental note.
i just kept thinking it is in March.
if i din remember wrongly, the OPEN HOUSE is in march.... and probably after the results...
which i think is the one i should go for.

doubt the admission talks would actually make me more certain of wad i wanna take.
at the end of the day...it would really depend on my grades rite?
i'm not the kind who is confident of getting straight A's....thus i cant for sure say that "Ok...i wanna do this and that..."

not like the school would want me.


and since my stupid grades are probably on their way back to singapore.....
i can only cross my finger hard that i would get no lower than BBB.....i would be one happy girl then.

a phone call woke me early this morning....at about 5 plus....
sounding all excited and upbeat.

"hey dear, i striked 4D!!"

me sounding really sleepy.. " huh..really...cool....." and den i sounded more awake...
strike 4D wad.

"you know the number i bought yesterday? yeah..it came out"

"yeah...congrats...so how much did you win?"

"THREE dollars !!!!!"



wth................



you're just so adorable at times

it dawned on me the other day that i'm a very lousy friend-keeper.
seriously. period.

i miss my friends.....but it just aint me to take the first move to give them a call or drop them a message.
i'm just too lazy..... and at times....too forgetful.
i love my frens.
i love hanging out with them.
but i sometimes just cant set my priorities right.

i lost my good fren back in p5..... after she left for NZ.
and now i feel that i'm drifting away from my close frens.

guess i gotta start taking the extra effort in keeping my great and wonderful frens.
cause i seriously miss them loads.
my girls.... 04A51....


to all my frens:
know that i love you and miss you...
and that i never mean to not wanna spent time with you.




had a great weekend....
with the gang at les's place.
mahjong.....eating....and more mahjong....
i love weekends like that because it just helps make the whole week more bearable.

so i had a company post cny lunch at fullerton.
and that was the only good thing out of it.
din think food was fantastic...
and having to seat at the table with the partners and lawyers.... wasnt really the best company to be with.
lawyer talk i would say.

p.s they have pretty nice toilets. duhz....FULLERTON.


and so again....i found out how small the world is...
the big big boss of the company...turns out to be Mr Leonard Ong's elder brother....
hehe.....they honestly dun look the same.....
guess who's better looking?

i promised to be strong...
and hence i would.
i just hope that everything would turn out fine.


dun leave me.

so cny is finally kind of over...
wasnt the best new year....but wasnt the worst either.

sucky cause i'm now almost 20....and it's supposedly more right for me to join the adults table...
which is just filled with talks...and talks...and more talks...
doesnt' help that i dun really have cousins of my age?
sigh...

better part was.... of course...the usual gambling games...
and i had 2 families to spent my cny with....
my own already huge family..and baby's even larger family...
big grin to lots and lots of ang pows....ha


so this year din really start off as well as i wanted it to be...
just wished it could have been a better.....
dog year is not good for tigers..... i agree.

anyway...friday wasnt good cause it was meant to be a good day spent with him...
but was totally taken away by the army...again.
i was pissed...but at the same time.... i feel sorry for that guy.

sat was spent cleaning up...
which resulted with me having a dust allergy reaction.
on CNY's eve? gosh.

sun and mon was spent eating gambling and sleeping.
barely ate this year....
i hate steamboats....i suddenly grew to hate the sickening smell of seafood.
so i only chomped on nice cookies.... not a fan of pinapple tarts though.

tues was spent house visiting with baby's family...
it was nice.....but i just wished it wasnt so rushing.

so yesterday...skipped work... and spent the day with him.
i like.

never really thought that i would miss SA as much as i do now.
i actually miss the school.

thinking back...

remembered arguing with my mom...
insisted on putting SA as my first choice...cause i wanted very much to join their bball team.
remembered being in an awful dilemma when i was asked if i wanted to join sailing.
which of course i did in the end...drama...


i miss my class... need not say much.....04A51 is just a very different class from all the others i've been in...cant say it's because of the large no. of girls since i was from an all girls school.... but wadeva it is i love them to bits...
i miss my sailing team.... the times we would just meet up at the sailing table... to have our breaks together...complain about everything.... crapping around...and even attempt to study at that noisy table.
i miss the times i had pe....
i miss the times we trained till late.
i miss sitting at the gallery talking to my frens...
i miss the long queues in the small cafe during our common breaks.

i miss chilling out with everybody...
i miss running to the side gate whenever i hear the bell ring when i'm still at the opposite bus stop...having to run like mad hoping the teacher wouldnt stick out his hand and stop us from entering.
i miss getting my green slips...
and i actually miss studying.

could still remember how i refused to run during cross country... only to freaking sprint my lat 200m because of the milo truck.
and how we happily agreed to Mr Ng's suggestion on whether we want to help out for cross country and sports day.... just so we could skip the runs

i miss the horrible power flush toilet.
i miss the table-less Audi.
i miss LT1 n 2 with that lingering smell.
i miss the huge cold LT3
and never forget the supposedly haunted toilet next to it which totally scared the shit out of the house council.

i miss the times when we would drag the tables from the cafe and support the soccer and rugby teams...although i know nuts about the game.
i miss the times we would talk our teachers into cancelling lessons...just so we could catch the bball finals.
i miss the saints spirit.


once a saint always a saint

in my attempt to find out more...


i've learnt that ignorance is bliss.


pls dun let it be....



anyway....I HATE WORK. =)

my head's in a freaking mess now.
i just hope it isn't
praying hard it isnt .

ITS FRIDAY ITS FRIDAY....ITS BRIGHT AND SUNNY FRIDAY~!!!!

i've officially appointed MR. ANDY NEO as my personal trainer.
since i'm obviously growing fat and bloop...
and since the even more obvious thing is that i'm one hell of a lazy girl.

so yup!
i need a motivator who would make sure i exercise every week.
who makes sure i keep up with my daily exercise routine -that's if i even have one-

so thank you baby....
i know you're gonna get mad at me gazillion times for being soooo lazy...
but i will too, get angry with you for being so annoying....
ha...yesh....sacrifices for looking good.
darn.....

i hate exercising.
although i would love to play a good game of bball....
as in the full game....5 on 5 full court.


here's a song to you:

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby

Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys

after seeing and hearing from my frens about their relief teaching jobs...
feel a sudden urge to apply for it and give it a try.
at least it seems alot more interesting than what i'm doing now.
think i'll go apply later.
and see how it goes.....


it feels quite annoying to know that someone is out to ignore you....
i guess that just totally spoilt my bright and sunshine morning.


it's only thursday?!
how i wish it was friday today... geez....
i wanna quit my job......
but till i find another...
it doesnt sound remotely possible to go jobless even for a little while...
since my parents arent just making me support not only myself fully...
but also happily assumed that i ought to be helping out with every little thing in the house.
my dad just told me straight in the face this morning to give him 50 bucks so that they could buy my sis the spikes and sports shoe she wants...

i'm like....wth?
dun happily assume that i HAVE to share just because i'm working.
the least you could do was to ask if i wanted to share rite?
doesnt help that i'm barely earning 1k and they make it sound like i earn 3k a month.

phone bills....
saving up for my driving lessons....
supporting my ugre to shop....
i suddenly wonder where have all my money gone.
seriously....is 1k a month alot? seems like the more you earn the more you spent.
still owe baby a treat.....but it really seems that i dun have much money left...
and i just cant understand why??????


really wish to play and relax for a while....
i've been shit working since after my A's....
and i mean STRAIGHT after....
geog paper ended on a thursday...my last paper....and i rushed down for an interview...got the job...
and started working on the following tues.....
that gave me wad???
4 pathetic days to enjoy my POST EXAMS....
this sucks...
now i know why i'm so bloody upset.

i need more money....
so that i can be happier......=(

the weekend is freaking over...
and i'm back at working.

it's getting so frustrating.
waking up at 7 every morning.
catching the 745 bus 70 all the way to shenton.
the same freaking landscape.
the same freaking rushing scenerio.
4 hours of work.
lunch at 1.
another 4 hours of work.
before i sleep my way home on the bus.

it's getting really boring and irritating.
sigh...i really hate working.

love the weekends...which always seems to pass so fast.
sat was spent making pineapple tarts at my aunts place.
and yesterday was just perfect...
woke up early to meet the girls for breakfast.
but only managed to meet lijie and sera dear.
caught up a little. complained about life.
just the usual stuffs.


the rest of the day was spent with baby.
nothing could beat that.
lurve you to bits.


i just love weekends like that.

it's friday the thirteen.
but all is well...
the sun is finally out....
and holding up high in the sky...
just so so glad its finally a dry and sunny day.

getting irritated with the cold weather...
and it helps that i'm feeling so much better today.
no more puking syndrome...but more of hunger pangs.
heh....hungry...


tmr is the weekend...
i'm happy happy.
guess why?

happy birthday lijie dear...


i hate the fact that it has been raining everyday.
i hate the fact that i cant sleep in when it rains in the morning.
i hate the fact that i have to drag myself out of bed to come to work.
i hate my puffy eyes now.
i hate it that i feel like puking every now and then.
i hate the fact that i dun feel well.

i hate my life now.

i cant believe it rained the whole of yesterday.
it just took away all the joy of the weekend...and as gloom as the day was.
my day wasnt perfect either.



i thank a boy who came down on sat...
despite coming out late.
despite being awake since 4..
despite feeling extremely tired...
you still made the effort...
i can only ask for more....



feeling very excluded from them. know that i love you.

have this sudden urge to go give tuition..
just so that i could earn more money so that i wouldnt feel so broke.
i'm just so thankful that i'm still paying the student rate for buses.
hope it really lasts till 2007 as my card reflected.

cant imagine if i have to pay the adult fare...
cant imagine how much more i would have to spend on transportation.
*gosh*
i think i would rather cab around then.


i'm just lucky.


anyway...daddy finally agreed to pay for a partial of my driving lessons.
hopefully he sponsors like 700-800.
den i should be able to pay the rest.. of about 800.
taking private cause its so much cheaper.
let's just hope i can pass my first time round.

so to give or not to give...
anybody has students for me?

would guys prefer a girl who's pretty but aint have such a nice figure?
or one who have a nice figure but aint pretty?


i MIGHT choose the latter.

and so it is the new year...
darn...
spent the three days doing nothing much.
new year's eve was spent at home...and so was new year's day.
yesterday was spent with baby at the wake.
sigh.

i just realized i cant see people cry...
cause i'll start crying too.
its so silly....but i'm just so emo.

so my weekend was gone just like that...
and baby's back in camp.
hope these 4 days would quickly pass....and sat would come again.

and so....my new year resolution for this year...the one and only one.
exercise and eat less...so as to lose all my fats.
i'm starting to look rounder...and that's bad news....
i dun usually make new year resolutions....so yeah...2006 shall be special.
LOSE MY DARN FATS~!!

sailors gathering at grace's place yesterday...and once again....
i was bounded by joy and laughter.
love every sailing gathering we have.
the crazy bunch of people...who never fail to bring that laughter to me.


the rain stopped while i was on my way home.
good to know that it had...
not nice to have the weather dampen the last day of the year...
people ought to be out celebrating it...unlike me.


so in my attempt to spent a happy last day of 2005.
it dint turn out all so well.
went to church followed by long bus rides to boon lay to pick my boy up.
halfway....my phone vibrated... only to found out his godsis passed away.
no longer a happy day. no longer the day i was looking forward to the whole week.


he tried to be strong and kept his promise to shop with me.
the weather din allow that....things that happened din allow that.
so there i was....on my way home alone from clementi....
with the rain adding to my loneliness.

A happy new year to one and all. =)


it had been a pretty eventful year of 365 days since Jan 1st 2005.
in JAN....i had you...and no regrets ever since.
in FEB... my nicest valentine's day
in MARCH...my horrid Block test 1.
in APRIL....baby started the much dreaded "commitment to the nation"
in MAY....my wonderful frens spending my birthday with me.
in JUNE....our regattas where we showed MJ that they have met a strong competitor.
the tough trainings...my beloved team....
in JULY.... we fought hard and came in victorious second...the long awaited silver....i was so proud of my team.
in AUGUST.... i had to prepare for my prelims...and at the same time...deal with my horrid bt 2 results
in SEPTEMBER.....just study study and STUDY.
in OCTOBER...prelims...
in NOVEMBER.... my life in JC came to an end....and it was my dreadful A levels.




to my darlings... lijie, sera, wen, vivi, wei, prisc...i love you girls...and i'm always thankful that i've you guys...for always being there...for always loving me.....

esp to viv...known you for almost a decade....you've always such a great fren...calling me every now and then and entertaining me....to silently being there for me..love you very much.

to lijie and sera..... things have changed a little since you both left sa.... but i still love you guys so much...and miss those chilling out times we used to have often in the past.

to my class of A51.... we have grown so much closer this year....and i'm so very glad that happened.....cause you guys have been wonderful....our nonchalant attitude towards certain teachers...our mugging together... 14 girls and 2 guys.... the cheena pok class...=)

to yeanling and wanting....for being my greatest classmates....yeanling...for always having to bear my nonsense and crazy moods.....to help me collect my work and copy your notes everytime i skip class....for keeping me awake during tutorials....i miss you much....
wanting...for being my pretty and funny babe.....miss you too.

to my sailors of 2005.... edgar and ven for being such great captains....the three of us make a great leadership team. to grace and michele for their funny tactics.... to jiayi and yulin....for bringing us the medals..... to dinghao and samuel....the not so well taken over-ed quarter masters....but still...you guys did a great job.....to edric....for being such an idol with your fan club...and to fidelis...our team's little baby....
thank you girls for bringing such a great ending to [SA]iling.
would never forget the moment we heard we got 2nd.

not forgetting to my baby dearest...
for entering my life.... not just as my buddy...
for being my best soulmate...
for being the person you are.....
love you.

lastly.......to every person who have made an impact in my life this year in a way or another...
i wouldnt mind if you continue to be in 2006.

latest addition to my wishlist......
holga....

i got tagged AGAIN...by darling yeanling...

1. i like taking photos... =)
2. i quite like shopping.
3. i'm a closet tomboy.
4. i think i'm fat....but because i think that we live to eat..... i'll prob not slim down. =(
5. i was a st nick girls for a decade plus one!!! *yes....SN gal i am*

people i wanna tag...
1. yeanling
2. see 1
3. see 1 and 2
4. see 1,2 and 3
5. see 1,2 ,3 and 4

yeanling~!! 25 things~!! thanks....*smuacks*

decided to go vegetarian tmr...
cause of the large portion of roastd duck rice i had.
3 bucks for like a plate of 1/3 roasted duck.
for MYSELF.
detox pls.


dinner with the girls...
meeting time was 6...but i only saw lijie and sera at 615...
the rest??? they came at like almost 8??????
*&#$@#J#**
but i still had a wonderful time.
the crazy photo sessions..
the olging..
dinner at fish n co..
girls' talk at esplanade.
our funny tactics...

my girls....i miss them so very much.
if only time would return to the st nicks days.

a strong realization on how much our lives has all taken a huge turn since our blue pinafores days...
7 girls whom have all become fine ladies.



when's our bball game??? i want...soon pls....






splendid 11 months.... no regrets..

my boss is a coocoo k....
when sam and i are around...
he reviews ONE file.
when there's only one of us around.... which at this moment is me and only me
he reviews FIVE file...
talk about sharing the work load...
*SOBzzZZzzz*


had lunch with the secretaries today...at this malay stall which i still think its a rip off.
the food is nice....but still dun think it is justifiable by the price.
oh well.... i blew 8 bucks....
maybe shall not take dinner tonight.

anyway.... "best fren" started telling us her life.
she said she was a flirt. ya...she said it out loud...
den she started telling us that she doesnt believe that we should be tied down to a guy.
ya...she flirts around...

oh ya....but i din mention...
she's married~!!


for 5 years.....

she says she encourages her husband to look at other girls...
and that she will look out for pretty girls and TELL him...
gosh.....
she also started saying she doesnt wanna have kids cause she doesnt want the reponsibility and commitment.

den comes my question....why marry? sigh....

funny thing was...she din even how she ended marrying her current hubby...
cause she din wanna get married...
but it was a moment of.......passion???

wadeva is....."best fren" is wild man...



meeting my girls tonight...cant wait.

i had been tagged by my dear stead...
its this thing whereby when u've been tagged you're supposed to say five things about yourself and then name five people you wanna know more about and tag them.

so here goes...

1. i hate smokers. and i hate it even more when they puff it straight in my face.

2. i love painting....cause i love colours... love playing around with colours....isn't it bea-u-ti-ful?

3. dun get into my bad books...cause you'll rarely get out of it....

4. i look really dao when i dun smile..... and i dun usually take the first initiative to know people... so....sorry if i scared you? haha....

5. i'm pretty angsty....=) so be nice to me...and i'll be nice too~!! *peace*


5 frens i wanna tag?

1. menghui.
2. lijie.
3. sera.
4. jiefang.
5. yeanling

back at work..zzz..
the familar footsteps of "best fren"
the sound of the coffee machine.
the mundane working hours...

bangkok trip was awful...
just pure horrendous.
i was like pissed and irritated most of the time.
and i barely had time to shop.
thanks to my wonderful beloved uncle.
damn it....it was as though i was running the amazing race.
wth..

anyway...its too long and too irritating to blog out everything.
to simply summarize it.
bad trip.
and i will NEVER travel with my uncle...
period.

i wanna go bangkok again though.
cause i freaking din get much things for myself.
talk about shopping....all i bought was a few bras for myself.
that's about it.
darn....like that's ALL???!!!!!!??
wtf....

anybody interested in going to bangkok???


christmas weekend is over.
barely felt the christmas-sy mood this year.
sigh....
maybe cause i only came back on the 23rd.
feeling DARN F up. *smile*
apologies with the language.

christmas eve was spent with baby and his family at costa sand at east coast.
bbq...and that's about it. sigh...
a little boring.

christmas day itself was dinner at my aunt's place as usual.
got a levi's voucher.. a charles n keith voucher and a polo tee.
that's about it.
heh....guess they all ran out of ideas on what to buy for me.
so vouchers are good. den i can go shop myself....wheee....

boxing day was spent with baby again.
poor boy had to book in at 9pm.
and he was so darn upset.

conclusion: army makes guys upset..
especially mine. sad....





sorry for saying those mean words to you
sorry for making you worried.
SORRY~!!! *smuacks*

dun wanna go to bangkok anymore.....
*sob*

happy birthday pretty wanting!

about an hour to lunch now.
and sam n i had did NOTHING since reporting for work.
basically we're getting paid to surf the net.
for now.

my cousin's gonna drive me to the airport straight after work.
=) off to bangkok...
which i dun think will be such a great trip.


would rather be in singapore and not leave my baby in a lurch.
he seemed so upset to be back in camp.
feel awful leaving him alone when he needed me...

it seems that guys being in army only make them more treasure their girlfrens more.
so i guess...that's good for most girls out there...
rite?

its christmas week....whoopee...
had a fairly good weekend i guess.

met up with the sailors on fri.
queued for an hour beforer dinner at nydc.
it was fun.
everybody was present.

after dinner...we walked like from wheelock to heeren..
hoping to find a place at the balcony.
and we slowly moved down to emerald hill.
and den back to the al fresco coffee club.
in the end..had to settle in a squeezy cosy corner in starbucks.

but it was fun.
catching up on everybody's life.
esp cheryl and her vet stories...
"castrating" the dogs and cats... and the horrendous and painful looks on the boys faces.
grace and her foreign frens.
charlene and her gigs.
pure hilarious.

cheryl: ya lar...after you cut it off...just tie a knot.
jin: huh?
cheryl: just a normal knot larz. knot knot.
jin: so you can choose wad knot to tie?
chong: ya..reef knot? bow line? half-hitch?
*laughters*
jin: ya...you can choose to tie a diff knot everyday!!


grace was talking about her british fren who likes relationships with NO STRINGS ATTACHED.
and jin got so excited.
den charlene mentioned her outgoing aussie frens too.
cant remember exactly who mentioned which country.
but because of the liberal minds and openess of the foreign counterparts mentioned
jinpeng started listing the countries he wants to visit.

cant wait for the sailing gathering.
miss the team already.


sat was mahjong with the gang
and i won like 24 bucks.
from everybody. so i was like the ONLY winner.
think i'm condemned by leslie now.
won really big tiles. and won many games too.
les told me to announced that i was waiting to game if i was to be waiting.
special requirement from me and only me.

woohoo....every mahjong game should be like that.
*grinz*

went out with baby to suntec after to do my last min christmas shopping.
ended up buying huge barney for my little princess.

woke up early this morning to head down to city hall for the mango sale.
my crazy cousin wanted to go.
gosh...this would be my first and last first day mango sale ever.

firstly,
i had to join the crazy queue at 715 am.
which was already 40 people long...in a single file.
den i have to wait for the doors to open at 8am??

secondly,
people were pushing me around.
and taking into account i'm pretty short and comparatively small.
i could barely even figure my way around.
gosh.
all i saw was boobs and bags.

thirdly,
i got stomped on by freaking heels.
stabbing hard into my poor feet.
ouch.

to top that off... the clothes arent even that nice.
sigh....i'll just stick to shopping when there's lesser people.
frantic shopping is just not me.
could literally see the cat claws coming out of the ladies.
fighting for that piece of clothing they eyed.
the stares they give you when you're holding to some nicer top.

where's the joy of shopping.
no enjoyment derived there.
pointless.

left the shop within 10 mins.
and waited outside for my cousin and sam.
staring at people was much more interesting.

a number of ladies brought their guys there.
poor guys...
they were there to fulfil their duties

DUTY 1: to buy breakfast for their honeys while their honey joined the queue early in the morning.
DUTY 2: to be the "shopping bag", i.e, where the girls dump their shopped clothes at. --saw 3 guys by the corner looking bored with hands filled with clothes--
*giggles*
DUTY 3: to queue up for payment as the ladies continue scramming for clothes.
DUTY 4: pay for them???


i'll stick to slow shopping with my frens.

got my pretty new birks today...
whee.....happy....
i would prefer them in white though.
but i already have another in that colour.
oh well....this colour is pretty pretty too.


i love this new laptop i'm using now too.
nice.
the old one back at the old office was horrendous.
killer to my poor fingers.


hate working at this new office.
hate that bitchy lawyer who THINKS she's damn hot.
ewwwww.....
that's about it.
thou shall be nice.
=)

been wandering the 48th floor office at uob plaza yesterday.
just settled into the new office...
which other than the splendid view....i barely like.
it's more cramped up den the old office...
worse still....filled with more people. esp irritating ones.
even the bosses barely have enough rooms for themselves.
so basically i'm just gonna have to hop around.

sitting in one of the big bosses room now.
he aint coming back till next year.
so for now...
i'm typing away with the gorgeous view of half of shenton way, sentosa and the southern view just behind my screen.
gorgeous. pure bliss. wonderful.






a sudden guilt just slapped me hard.
feel that i've neglected my girls.
just feel so drifted away from them.
miss sera...miss lijie...miss those days the three of us were always hanging around.
miss vivien...the times we always played around.
just wished i had more time for them.

maybe cause i'm no longer on the same "year" as them.
maybe that's why i feel so dislodged.



drifting away by myself.
miss you all.

Happy birthday Willy....


3 things i did today.

1. got angry with you. -sorry-
2. minimized baby's lost in mahjong game. -phew-
3. bbq-ing for andy's brother's birthday. -zzz-


2 things i regretted doing today.

1. getting angry with you.
2. skipping mass.


1 thing i wanna do now.

1. hug you to sleep.


christmas is coming in 2 weeks
havent started christmas shopping.
and i barely feel the christmas mood this year.
is it cause i'm broke??

but somehow...
the idea of buying presents for everybody is a very appealing thought.
besides totaling the receipts at the end of the day.......

not boasting here but sometimes...
do think that i'm quite efficient when i want to be.
note the " want to be" though.
been helping out in packing the files of diff lawyers into boxes the last 2 days...
cause we're shifting to the new office next week.

and the people here are like finding work for me and sam to do.
cause we tend to finish wad is given to us pretty quickly.

anyway...office politics have set in against the both of us.
yucks. but bring it on.

that aside...went back to collect my testimonial this early morning.
and i have a pretty good one of that.
ya...another testimonial that happily promotes me to be a cousellor.
just like back in st.nicks.
The only diff is that my O's testi emphasized on my 120+ CIP hours.
but in JC...ahhaa....i barely did any CIP....so the focus was more on class rep and sailing.
being responsible....being a team player.
oh well....at least the facts are fairly accurate for me as compared to my classmates.
but at the end of day...... i sound like this really lovely girl who everybody likes and talks to....
which i really doubt so.

HAppy birthday grace~!
it was yesterday...but blogger was down..so yup


i'm still burnt.
still in pain.
i've started peeling a little too.
my skin is so dry. gosh..

i'm so sad..
cause i've got this tiny white peeled patch on my face.

it's been a long time since i last baked myself under the sun.

yesterday...went out to sea with his family...
and now...
i finally have a tan...
i'm finally darker....

had a really nice time yesterday...
speeding out to pulau hantu...
followed by sun-tanning at the deck of the boat..
and of course....playing and jumping of the boats and bridge...
pure silliness...but pure fun...

my shoulders are hurting bad now.
ouch.
got a mild bite by stupid jellyfish...
baby got bitten too.
double ouch.

love my tan...love the sun.

had a class chalet at changi yesterday.
almost everybody was there with the absence of peiwen and lihmin only i think.
even our darling boys came.

leon just touched down from hk and he rushed over. with fresh lao po ping.
so sweet. think this boy changed so much over the year.

oh yeah.
mr peh joined us too.

mr peh was kinda like "serving" us.
clearing the mess we created..
he was like "haiyo...u girls never clean up wan eh"
bbq-ing for us.
ya...and he claims he was "chicken-biased"
cause he only bbq-ed chicken wings.
anyway...he made great choc bananas.
yummilicious....plus fattening of coz.

he's such a funny t-cher.
he's like one of us.
he kindly offered to "chauffer" the girls everywhere...like pick them up from the mrt.
send them so they could get e last train. and even like offered to send those staying over early back home e next morning.
how nice is that.

anyway..i think i bbq great marshmallows. serious.
crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. *anybody wants one?*
wanting makes nice prawns.
and yeanling make yummy sausages.
we're great cooks man.


the wind was like really strong last night.
and i mean really.
you could seriously be blown away man.
i'm used to strong winds out at sea..but this was like....whoa.
the waves were slamming hard onto shore...
sounded like it was the end of the world.
scary.

hope to have a class chalet soon again.
miss my class already..
thanks for the great night.

menghui dear...thanks for getting the chalet k?
and jiefang n yeanling for being my crazy photo partners.
love ya all.


http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2116710298

met my girls for dinner yesterday.
6 out of 7 present..
where did darling lijie go? i wonder.
so i guess it was more of a bballers date.

anyway...some were late... and some had to leave early.
short but sweet.
i'm so glad i met my girls.
and i miss them so much.

christmas dinner ok?
ya...and we shall all dressed up PROPER.
can't wait to see them again.
love ya all.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2116739110

tee hee...i got bored over at baby's house e other day.
so i decided to snap my time away.
fun.

love this pic......

love this boy.

sometimes i just love it so much when my mummy's not in singapore.

my daddy is so much better when it comes to telling him we're out.
my mom will start asking lotsa of questions and start her usual nags once we said we're going out.
i'm 19...and she just wouldnt let go.

daddy is great...
all he would ask is where and who...just for the sake of asking...
and den he would say dun come home too late ok?

that's it.
lurve my daddy.

my special day

for the surprise i got when i left the office building.
for the wonderful dinner we didn't finish.
for the walk around shenton.
for the long bus wait that never came.
for the every minute i spent with you......


i could only wish for more.


thanks for making this day so special.


love you so very much.
nobody else but you

came across ros's blog and i chanced upon this entry she made...

it happened some day in march 2004
we were celebrating the march babies birthday - chong ben and ven-
and we ended up playing taboo in ros's room.

it was a guy vs girl thing...
and we came to a huge realisation the heavily polluted mind of our boys.


Question: What do you guys look at when you see a girl?
Ben: Tits
Andy: Breasts
Jinpeng: I can't remember what he said but of course it's something dirty.
Chong: Figure!! (correct answer)
Apparently Chong gets the most correct answer when it comes to disgusting stuff.

Another one,
What happens after you had sex?
Chong: hyperventilate! (what?!)

Welcome to my life in [SA]ling....
our boys....our always hilarious and funny boys...
but they were too....the most helpful boys in like the history of [SA]ilors...


and i truly miss them.

felt so sad going down to nsc today.
1st...i miss the place.
2nd.. i miss sailing.
3rd...i couldnt get my tan.
4th... i saw my darling 151485 sail and my darling Nooblet in someone elses's hands.

sigh...i'm sad.
my wonderful sail which has accompanied me thru all weathers...
my darling nooblet...of which andy and i shared...
of which i took so much effort washing and protecting it.
and of course...my beautiful rigs...my gorgeous rudder and daggerboard.
my thin traveller...my smooth power pac system....
my colourful nooblet...
you'll be greatly miss.

i've like the prettiest boat...its so colourful...
i've a white hull.
red outhaul.
yellow/black tiller and tiller ex.
green tapes on my rudder.
blue downhaul.
blue life jacket.
purple mainsheet and traveller.

my rainbow....

the worst thing is it's sold to Pong pao ling.
gosh....she's like our -out of age group- enemy
argh.... i've a long history with her man...
maybe i'll start rambling another day.

for now... i just miss my nooblet.
the boat that both he and i loved so very much.
sobz......

i was so tempted to "kope" one sail back.
the one with 115 printed on it.
used to be my sail....Long time ago.
wanted to use it as a curtain.
hahah...and i was told i was crazy.

i miss my sailors too.
i shall blog more about it another day.
for now..let me mourn....

thanks for coming to help.
you are such a sweetie

i'm just so mad with my mom.
i'm just so fed-up with her.
i'm just so PISSED off.

just leave me alone.
Fucking leave me alone.


sometimes.. i really wonder why i even exist.
i've been such a klutz today.
bumping into everybody in town.
tripping...almost falling off the escalator.

now..
i really wish my klutz-ness would kill me.
like maybe i'll trip when i'm crossing e road?
and a car comes along?

then i wouldnt have to feel the way i am now.


would i be miss if i'm gone?

Sam (the other girl working with me) and i have decided to do our work really slowly today.
so as to keep ourselves occupied...
so we are both like surfing the net...checking ebay...
haha....this is slack.
lurve it.
taking our own sweet time to type.
sipping our nice cup of coffee and tea...

speaking bout the tea...
bought it from this stall...this indian uncle...
who like earns 30 k a month just by selling coffee, tea, milo..etc.
it's just those push cart stall....
but he sets it up like a mini cafe...with like those starbucks umbrella.
and its call Teh Tarik PTE LTD.
gosh.....i bet it can be a HOLDINGS soon.

so see.....it doesnt neccessary mean you gotta like get a degree and all before you can earn big bucks.
just make good coffee man.
and sell them at shenton way...
working people loves coffee and tea man...
just look at the queue that uncle gets everyday...

man....but his drinks are tasty..yummy and thick.
and its not ex...like 1.20 for like a venti size you get at starbucks...
totally worth it.

i wanna sell coffee too.$$



its the weekend tmr....
yeah....badminton time.

so glad "my" laptop's back.
i was stoning too much before lunch cause someone needed it at like took it for like the whole morning.
so i was left with no com to do data entry.
sob....stoning kills at times.

gonna type at a slower pace today.
cause 1. there's is no more cases for us to enter.
2. i dun wan more to come. so gotta look busy.
3. gotta give the boss sometime to review more files.

hahah....when he opened the door to check on us.
he was happy and sad.....guess why?


i've been cooped up indoors since after interschools...
which was in july??
gosh...i'm sooo fair now.
cant wait for sat to come.
NSC here i come.

i need the sun.

my pretty sandals is spoilt
all thanks to the past 2 days rain.
sigh.
i'm sad.

half an hour to end of work.
hurry hurry....
i wanna go home and zZzzZzzzz...

at work now...
typing and typing.
sigh.
the only good thing about working is that i get paid for my work.
paid more.

and i just realized i'm not earning $72 a day...
but $64.....
sob............
its 8 bucks diff...
haha...i'm such a cheapo.
but i'm broke.
so blame me.

i'll not wanna work at shenton way when i start working...
as in after U...
it's jus crazily bombarded with humans.
*winks*


i'm in love with shoe shopping..

gotta change my blogskin again.
cause the previous one died on me...
=(

shopping yesterday was great.

and i ended buying heels of about 3 inches -i'm crazy-
a nice brown tube.
a black skirt from toss
and an esprit pink tee.

i'm turning freaking girly i know.
and i'm also freaking broke.

baby ended up buying the skirt for me.
cause he likes it... so ya.
and he fairly well knows if he doesnt buy it for me...
i probably wouldnt get it myself.


just when i was feeling at my most broke point.
my mom told me i should start paying for my own hp bills.
dotzzzzzzzzzzzz........

i'm sad.

i did something stupid today

that is to cab when i'm already so damn broke.


man...
i'm sad...
i'm just so sad...

i can hardly buy things i want to buy
cause i'm just so damn broke.

and to top that up...
i havent shopped for a damn long time already can?
ARGH.


anyway...
i'm just so glad exams are over.
life can never feel better than this.
carefree. pure bliss.

things i wanna do

cont....

10. learn keel boat.
11. watch lotsa movies.
12. i dunno..............................................................



mr peh said this the other day before econs mcq and drq..
"don't fail too badly ok? get an O can already, please don't get a F!"

man....

it's all finally over....
yeah...
but geog wasnt easy.
again.
cambridge is seriously out to hunt us down and kill us this year.

sigh.
but its over.
so i shouldnt think about it.

i was damn freaking happy when i saw the clock showing 11.
heh....i was like grinning.....
that's it....
no more studying till a long while.

anyway....found a job that pays well.
yeah...double happiness.
8 bucks an hour.
not fanstatic rate but good enough to keep me happy for now.
and the boss is really nice...
he said i could like take leaves anytime i want and all.
just make sure i let him know beforehand.
- cause he believes that people our age should be enjoying life and the hardwork should be subjected to people of his age-

cool.
but its gonna be fairly mundane i guess.
but the idea of it being a law firm just makes things sound a whole freaking lot better.
he was like filling me on the case they are handling....
cool. seriously. cool.

my room's in a mess.
but i dun think i'll be packing it till the weekend.
hmm....
lemme think....wad do i wanna do now?

life seems meaningless.


at this very moment.

5 down and 4 to go.
YESH......... i'm half way there.*yeah*


just gave up going to the movies with baby over studying at home.
cant believe i actually finally chose to stay home and study....
but i guess its the better choice...
i can play in a week's time....
so i should better put in the extra hard work now and make little sacrifices...
before i regret it later.


but i'm still feeling a little sad...

had a small disagreement with him last night...
and i really din like the how he made me felt....
it really aint my fault that my mom is so restrictive.
or maybe it is...........
too much bad stuffs in sec school i guess.

sigh.......i hate spoiling people's mood.
and i hate being angry with him.
almost blurted out stuffs that i know its just a fit of anger....
but words said can never be retreated...




just've been so foul tempered lately.
and its just accentuates the guilt i've in me.



sometimes just feel that i make people's life unpleasant.
and me walking into their life's are just their sheer bad luck.

yewteng told me this a while ago...

"my teacher said the human geog will probably be hard. so be prepared k? good luck!"

@#!!!@#$#%@!

goodness....how worst can this get?!!?

wad is freaking wrong with cambridge??!!!
why are they tormenting our poor little minds?

we are just TEENagers who just wanna enjoy our life?
but seriously..........wad have they done to help.
life's a nightmare.

hadn't been having a good 3 days.
finally able to catch my breath....
headaches are awful.


my whole world came crashing down when i faced the maths paper today.
wad the hell was that all about?

geog yesterday wasnt fantastic either.

i feel so defeated.

but i did my best.
and all i can do now is hope for the best.

things i wanna do after the 17 nov.

1. go get a tan
2. get my driving license
3. get my powerboat license.
4. sail
5. shopping.
6. clear my room. burn my books.
7. lose my FATS.
8. earn more $$$.....so maybe i can go to a freaking slimming center.
9. probably and hopefully plan a nice holiday.

exam blues..............

i was feeling a little confident for my geog....
that was until i decided to look thru the previous years A level questions...

den i realized how bloody screwed i am.



i doubt i can answer those questions under exams conditions...
and the drqs are seriously rather tough.

i'm feeling so so uncertain now.
that sickening feeling in my stomach is back again.

everything just piles up...
and now...i think i'll flunk maths too....


could things get any worst?

my mom just gave me a whole load of excuses on not letting go overseas myself after my exams
damn it.
something about its dangerous.
i'm just so annoyed when she gets paranoid over the slightest things

i cant be bothered to argue with her now.

we'll talk about it after my A's.


which would be over in 2 weeks.

running a flu now.
body temp's a little off...
and i cant stop sneezing.


did i mention that A's is in like 5 days.


how great can it get.

tired out...........

exactly one more week to my first paper for the A's


feel just a little more prepared today.
spent the whole afternoon at baby's clubhouse studying with xf and jess.
with certain extent of assistance for les
managed to complete last year's maths paper...
seriously hope i can get an A for maths...

anyway...
baby just "send" me home.
that is...he drove me home...
plus a little more...-note the ""-

i think he's a pretty good driver.
i'll prob rate him 8.5 out of 10.
yupz....
he just needs to be a teeny weeny more confident.

woke up early this morning to have prata breakfast with the gang at casurina...
but the nice stall was not open...
-we happily forgot it's THEIR holiday-
oops...
so we just had to make do with the stall next door...
which....dint really serve that nice prata...
but....BURP~!



i love yesterday.
and i really hope there's more to come.


which i really doubt so.

i realized last night...

i really miss my class.
never really thought that i would miss them as much as i would be now.


but i do.
study hard my dears.....

went to novena this morning..
and shopped around novena square after mass.
bought a nice white tee from espirit....
nice...i like it....

rushed down to tanglin cc for my badminton game.
damn....its been long since i last used so much energy....

but 2 hours plus of badminton rocks man.
the feeling of pespiring and all that body heat in you sure makes one feel alive.

played with CS...his gf adele...and his twin bros....whom they call "babies"
i think its such a cute way of calling them....
since they are already like in sec school...
the youngest in the family i supposed.

more badminton games for me.
anytime.

it's less than 10 days to THE EXAM.
and yet...

i still dun feel the stress i ought to be feeling

it's weird how this time round i really dun feel the pre-exams blues
and to think that the A's is prob one of the most impt exam in my life..

i cant figure out what is wrong with me this time round.
but it's really really not right.

i've never felt so at ease about any exams
not even my O's
even though i felt confident i would do fine for it.

to make things worst....
i'm not even that confident for my A's
at all.

i just feel so un-motivated now.
so un-stress.

my frens thinks its good that this time round i dun feel stress
cause i everytime i'm stress... i screwed up.
but i really need a good push to start this 100 m race.

now.



going for badminton tmr.

managed to dragged myself out of bed this morning at 8 and be a good girl and clean up the house a little before making my way down to gardens to study with edgar

i'm so glad that boy asked me out to study in the morning...
cause if i din go...i'll be wasting my morning at home...
doing i dun even noe wad....

so i managed to do a paper 1 and paper2 for maths...
which supposed usually takes a total of 6 hours.
since i finished it btw 930-130 including breakfast.
i guess i had a fruitful morning~!!!


biggie breakfast was yummy.
till i saw the freaking nutrition info on the paper they put on the tray.

damn it...
i realized i was like consuming how much cholestrol...sodium...saturated fat...
and it totally made me just wanna stop eating.


speak about enjoying my meal.
#@!~!@$%@@@###@!!!......

went for consultation with mr peh yesterday.
a trip back to school only made me realize that time is running out fast.




finally feeling the little worries and stress that i should be feeling a long time ago.
barely 2 weeks left.



and i suddenly feel that i'm not confident at all.
i'm only praying hard now the papers are not tough.



i'm scared. i finally am.




to you who made an effort to give me a call last night.
thanks for you concern.
dun fall sick too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY~!!


woke up slightly earlier today cause i was all ready to go to school to book my consultation slot before going over.
but my laziness got over me and i just called fidelis to help me booked it.
feel extremely lazy to travel all the way down to school just to book a slot.

opp cost doesnt justify my actions.


still so full from yesterday.
burp.
doubt i'm taking any meals today.


went for high tea with his family.
no joke....i could really feel the fats multiplying inside me.
met up with the gang in the evening...
it was supposed to be a surprise...
but as i said right from the beginning...
it wouldnt work... cause he's just too alert for that.
anyway...there were far too many loopholes larz.


it wasnt well-planned nad well-carried out.
haha.
dinner at swensen's with earthquake as the cake.
yummy.........
den decided to visit alley bar for a drink.
it was a nice night.



no doubt.



i certainly dun feel a sense of urgency.
and it's getting worrisome.
why am i not getting fussed up over my A's
i need the stress to push me harder.


i'm too slow.
and time is running out.

when i saw the number of days left.
my heart sank.



but i really cant study much.

i think i'm finally able to finish my econs tys mcq by tonight~!!
oh yesh~!!!!!!!!!!
i hope i can get full marks for my A's mcq...
den that could save my life from my terribly disgusting awful horrendous ESSAYS.
seriously...
econs essays are the downfall of my A's.


i need consultations.
lots of them.


mcq tonight.
and hopefully 2 drq 1 case study and 2 essays tmr.
nothing is impossible.



but it's painfully tiring.

about 2 more weeks to the A's
THE freAKING A's
i spent the whole entire week studying econs.
but i still know nothing.
no kidding there.
everything is still in a mess.
the problems and policies.
sigh.


honestly...
they are supposedly quite common sensical.
and i know that i roughly know my stuffs here and there.
i can crap out verbally..
but asking me to write it out in essay?
i think i'll prob flunk it bad.


sigh...
i really dun wanna study anymore.

pictures from the last day of school

went for dimsum buffet with andy, viv lijie..and her fren.. yesterday.
it din turn out so bad afterall...
although i was pretty sure there were a few awkward moments.
maybe i'm just being over sensitive.


i was freaking full after that..
to think i already feel that i'm a pau myself....-white and fat-
and i had to eat dimsum~!@!??
grrrrrrrrrrr......


went shopping after that...and xf came along.
heh.....*winks*
anyway....it soon became a pretty big group...
as jess joined us too.
anyway the girls decided to go the "B-heaven"
which really wasnt the best place to go for the guys..
but they were all such sweeties to tag along.
if i'm a guy...i know i wouldnt.


baby got me the pair of levis that i wanted all along.
i'm freaking happy...although i still wished he din have to spent his money on me.
i could have got it myself....could i?


i doubt i would. even if i could.
i just wouldnt pay so much for stuffs for myself.
i just wouldnt.
but anyway...thanks dear...i lurve it


oh yesh..
we finally got down to buying THE ADIDAS jacket for him.
which cost me quite a bit.
i guess i'm broke for the rest of the month.
the freaking jacket took like more than half my allowance?
goodness.
hahha......but i'm still glad we bought it.
cause he looks great in it.


i searched high and low for it can.
and i was so sad that they only came in the girls sizes when i finally found it and the pacific plaze outlet....yesh..the outlet with the damn ex adidas stuffs.
heh...but haha....he's rather small so he could fit into the largest girl's size.
jess and xf totally talked him into buying it. and it was funny.
those two make lousy sales people man.


went to play mahjong at leslie's house after dat.
i won i won i won~!!!


i made it home in 15 mins after leaving his place.
which is really fast.
i know i stay fairly near him.
like about a 10 mins drive.
but considering the fact that i had to change buses..its pretty fast.
but i had to like RUN... for like more than half my journey to catch the buses.
i seriously almost died of asthma last nite.

it was the last day of school yesterday.
officially.
that's cause my class has declared last day of school since a long time ago.


anyway..
had farewell assembly...which i din feel really sad about.
instead i was having fun with shuying and jiefang...and partially dozing off to sleep during the speeches...
i probably aint as attached to the school as i tot i would be.


had civics which was like the SHORTEST civics ever.
i guess she doesnt have much to say us...
which too was... a very sad thing.
too much explosives btw the two parties i guess.


oh wellz...
my darling class decided to rush down to the cafe to have the reception.
ha..and for the FIRST time..
my class was first.
hahah.....it so funny...when it comes down to food and slack..
i guess nothing beats my class.


so glad to meet my class for like the last time..
cause the next time is gonna be a long time.
i'm just so so upset that yeanling wasnt feeling well and din turn up in school
miss that girl like crazy...
she's just so bubbly and high at times... she's cute.
miss you girl
if only you came...den we could go crazy snapping pictures again.


met mr ng after dat...
and he gave us his 100m dash pep talk.
geez....
he's the teacher that seriously made an impact in my life in jc.
in fact...my time spent in sailing is the time that i really enjoyed most thruout my jc days.
i'm gonna miss my team. no doubt about that.
although the feeling was a lot stronger one year ago.



i'll miss school.
but not for the school itself.
but for the friends i met.

met my girls yesterday.
stead..lijie and viv dear~!!
life has never been greater...
really miss those days with them.
the st.nicks days


we went shopping for shoes. clothes. everything.
and had dinner at fish and co where we shared like one seafood platter and one fish and chips.
and we had a long session discussing our girly future...
and trying dear vivi to join OUR side.
haha....i realized my stead and i are pretty much on the same wavelength.
maybe that's why we're steads..~! haha.


i made a fool out of myself over dinner.
but that's all i'll say.


ended up at esplanade to sit and enjoy the scenery..
take photos...and talk.
but we were like engulfed and mortified by the horrible smoke...
puff puff puff....
smoke chokes man.
so glad we can take a shelter from the smoke free bus-stops.
smoking should be ban~!!


miss my girls already.
cant wait for our scuba diving trip
-that's if it even happens-





tomorrow
tomorrow...
i love ya tomorrow.....

in a span of about 6 hours.
i drank like about 10 bowls of soup.
broke my previous record of 7.
hahah...
but now...
i keep having to go to the toilet...
oops. too much liquid.

spent the whole day doing vectors.
but wth...
i still dun feel confident eh.
man...wad's the point in doing.




i only realized just now that it had been almost a month since i last saw him.
but...he's coming back~!!
dum dee dee dum.......
*hops around*

i miss you.~!!!
cant wait. come back come back~!!

being a good girl today.
i finally appeared in school
worrying that my 2 days "disappearance" isn't a very nice thing to do.

but guess what.
my ct wasnt there to take attendance...
cause she prob tot my whole class was gonna go MIA again.
ha.....

so my pretty babe and i had to join A42. which wasnt a very long line anyway.
haha.....
den ms wong came up to me...cause we had GP tut for the first period- i din even noe-
she looked at me....and asked..

"so do you have any questions to ask?"

me:"eh no?"

msw: "i tot so too....how to have tut like that? one on one? if the rest comes and want to see me.. den u give me a call.." -shakes head and walk away-


ha...welcome to my life in my class.
hahahahha......told cha my class rocks.


couldnt find mr ho to amend my cca record and so i resorted to sms-ing him.
damn...i should have just done that in the 1st place and not go to school.

wouldnt let my travelling time to school be a waste of time...
so decided to hurry book a consultation slot with ms tay...
and wanting joined in again.
but today was good.....cause we had so much time to work with. hee.




he called to say he din make it.
it was bittersweet.
really hoped he could pass.
but at the same time....
i'm just so glad and happy he's coming back soon.

decided not to go to school again.
i din make full use of my time at home though.
only managed to do like 3 chapters of maths yesterday.
isnt too productive.
but it beats going to school.....cause i have no idea was i did in school on monday.
prob staring at psa building.


but i need to go to school by tmr
to get my cca records amended.
shucks....

din go to school today.
it's just pointless.
its better off to stay home and study.
den again....
that's IF i can be disciplined enough.



yesterday...
they started making noise about our language and the things we said in our blogs.
we werent maligning people anymore... in fact some of us din even start it in the first place.
so quit finding fault with blogging.



wish u would hurry come back

went out for dinner with my class yesterday...
and attendance was almost full...
surprised~!!!
it's hardly that everybody would turn up...
and ya...yesterday was FRIDAY....
but my class attendance was ZERO in school.
heh...my class rocks when it comes to "being absent from school"

mr peh joined us for dinner...
he's really a funny guy.
he's so sacarstic at times that it's just hilarious.
used to think that he's the scary and unreasonable teacher.
due to past encounters.
but after this year....i had a 180 degree change in my impression of him.
and to simply put it....think he's a great teacher...
in comparison to all the other teachers that teach me.

heh..had this crazy photo taking session...
and my pretty darling wanting totally cracked me up...
she's just this pretty and naive babe... similar to that of a blond bimbo...
but she's more cheena.... a bimbo with brains. -lots of brains-


she was like eating lots and lots of cockels....

me: "stop eating so much of that....its high cholestrol."

wt: "its ok...i took jab liao"

me: "huh? jab? erm....jab is for hepatitis B dear."

wt: "oh it is??"

ahahhaahha.....she's just amusingly silly. seriously.
but...she's damn smart....book smart.
so i cant say she's dumb.

but wth??
you took a jab and dunno wad it is for....
and its for cholestrol control??
cool....den no one would die of heart attack due to their blood clogging up in their fat filled veins.

we had this other conversation arguing over diabetes.
i shan't say much here.
but goodness.....the innocence of my classmates sometimes really surprise me.
but i still love my class.




had a small sailing gathering today.
and we watched this STUPID M-18 show at cine.
seriously.....just when i tot boogeyman was bad.
devil's rejects is even worse.
grace was right....it has no plot, no horror. nothing.
just a little gory.... alot of f****** sex...literally.
every sentence had at least 2 F-word.

think the only redeeming factor of the show is the pretty girl.
or maybe when you're bored....count the number of F-word they say..
which i can easily say a 100 min.

WAD KIND OF SHOW IS THAT????????~!!!!
i cant believe we spent $57 bucks on that show.
goodness....
MDA probably allowed it to pass and be shown to cheat poor movie-goers like us.
lost and blur teenagers.
i feel robbed.....off my 10 bucks.

how could 8days rate it 3/5 stars?????


i managed to buy my sandals.....
la dee dee dum.....
i'm happy.