i know i woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.
when the first thing on my mind is my GPA.


once again.
darn it.

whirlwind of emotions

results for sem 2 are out.
din do well.
in my opinion.
i dunno since when i've become so result-oriented and competitive.

but like andy said.
its maybe cause i'm comparing with my frens.
as long i can get my honours,
i should be happy rite.
since there's no diff in pay btw 3rd and 2nd class lower.

sigh.
did worst then last sem.
no As.
but maths was slightly better.
one B one C.
sigh.
and the one i got C for was the one i was more confident and studied harder for.
darn it right?
right.

i think this is it.
i need to switch my major to geog.

i'm freaking upset.
now i dunno if i'm eligible for exchange.
and i still need to work darn hard for year 2.

in short.
screw it.

Jess and Justin and maybe xf

Here are the pictures for xf's bday:
sorry for the super long delay ar.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2091302384

the sunshine of my life

my boy came to pick me up from school today
after my hall meeting at 1030pm

he even gave my roomie a lift home too.

how oh how sweet is that?
very.
love love you to bits.


i really can learn to live life like that.
rx8 soon baby?
whee wheeeeeee

Happy birthday Wenwen!!!

the most spontaneous among us
and craziest too.
even though we used to have one really bad cold war.
ONCE.
i still love her very much.

i remembered how she took the left wing and i took the right.

and we ran the base line as much as we could

trying to score as many balls as we should.

i remembered once that jao lian ask the both of us to shoot in 500 3-pointers each.

and we were competing so hard.

just because we were angry with each other.

i remembered how we slacked and slacked in 2 Purity.
Mrs Tian slamming jingjin's books.
Du Lao Shi scolding us and calling you "shi er hao."

how we cheated during chinese. jingjin grabbed i dunno whose paper

and WE EXCHANGED papers.

i still cant believe we did that.

but i'm really glad i met you babe.
those were the days

love love love you.

hope you liked your surprise!

i'm so glad we pulled it off.

it was a pretty last minute plan.

and although there were um.. 2 hiccups!!

i think it really went as planned.

prissy dear...i think we did it great.

we should hang out more.
more taboo too.

taboo with the girls are so darn fun.

i wish i could pen it down.

alright.

pictures here.
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2091336999


the other day on our girls night out.
we got adrenaline high on our secondary school days.
love chilling out sessions like these.

sorry for the late pictures,
but here goes..
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2091334717

xoxo

the last supper?

2 days without having to work is wonderful man.
feel so carefree.
need not wake up at 5am to head down to the airport.
8 long dreadful hours of standing.
i HATE standing.
facing ah nehs and suspicious uncles.

HEAVENLY.
i love this break.

anyway.
31st may was the last day of work.
had supper with my working mates after work.
which was 12am.

my "sister" guirong, emo weiwen and the other dfs peeps who ended their shifts at 11pm left first.
roy came to pick mich, linus, jaime and myself at 12+
headed down to simpang bedok (i hope i got it right) for prata.

i actually stayed out till 3+.
i guess hanging out with fun peeps takes away the tired-ness in me.
we talked about hall life to ghost stories.
made us even scared of going to the toilet larz.

i'm not a fan of toilet trips in pairs.
but that night.
no choice. too scared.
had to ask sequeena to go with me. =(
feel so useless.


haha....supper never seemed more fun.
finally found more east-siders.
gosh. wait till i go back to staying in ulu hall in NTU.
jialat.
but its ok.
more of the absolute peeps are going to uni.
yeah. we can have our own supper nights out den.
YUM.

ABSOLUTEly wonderful

its gonna be my last day of work today.
yeah at the airport. at d-f-s.
i'm gonna miss working there.
laughing at ah-neh attacks with my fellow absolute frens.
rolling our eyes at people only interested in free drinks.

met a few rock-on funloving peeps over the last 2 days of my work.
the crazeee bunch of peeps.
baby says they are so lame.

but i guess that's how we make time past faster when the going gets tough.
i'll miss working there.
not because i like to do sales and promoting.
but simply because i'll miss the friends i made there.

when i first took up the absolute job.
the mom made a huge fuss over working enviroment to outfit.

now that i decided to stop working.
the mom is saying that i should just continue working
and earn more money.


how freaking conflicting is that?????
very.
i'm upset now.

i love days like this

friday was spent with the girls.
a short walk around the crowded town.
short shopping trips.
followed by great food at coffee club.
catching up on our secondary school days was darn fun.
i loved the laughters.

saturday was much time spent with my boy.
breakfast at cartel.
followed by shopping in town.
GSS. shopped like crazy.
we got so worried on budget.
hahaha....

left town when the crowd started coming in.
it was great to shop when the crowd isnt in.
YET
i love you ah boy.
yesterday was just wonderful.


p.s prisc. i bought the dress. haahhaah

i wished i never started on this holiday job at times.

i think i'm just tired and feel like ranting. =(

friday darlings. friday.
shopping it is. and dinner.
can we have good good food?

Break a leg

my legs are numb.
sigh.
i need a foot massage bad.

barely reached home 45 mins ago.
and i'm leaving in 30 mins time.
off to meet my boy..
its his daddy's bday today.

=)

my oh my 21st

sorry for the lack of updates
i'll try to put up my birthday photos soon.
SOON.

works been tiring at the airport
standing 7 hours a day is no joke.

birthday party din really turn out as i would love it to be.
but it was still fun.

you could check out it out from justin or jessica's blog first.
=)
i promise i'll put it up soon.

i see many air stewardess from where i work.
i saw one today who was a student from sajc.
one year younger than me.
makes me wonder if i would have gotten thru the last time,
if i hadnt walk away.
hmmmm...

i wanna travel.

it has only been a week...

only been a week since i ended my horrid sem 2 exams.
it was a major disaster.
shall not think about it till results are out.

anyway.
that's not the point.
after exams have been really boring.
supposed to start work.
but since airport security took really long to clear my pass.
and they still havent

i'm hence still currently stuck at home
watching cable 24/7
even cable is getting boring for me.
=(

and since my boy is working ot every other day.
double unhappiness.

weekend's coming soon.
friday and saturday..
and sunday~!!!
wheeee

my first time

completed RUNNING at macritchie OK?
note. my 11 years in sn
they never had cross country at mac.
i think.

my 3 years in SA?
ya they do have annual cross cty.
but i always happily skip it due to voluntary services.
ha. ask mr ng.
its probably a sailor thing. =)

so yes. today... no yesterday.
met up with the gang at 9am to run.
wheee....
ok i sucked.
i was really slow and stitches got to me really quickly?
but at least i ran ok.

i'm turning 21 and its the FIRST time i completed running at mac.
tell me how sad that is.

i just dun understand

its disappointing to see things turn out like that.
to think i tot i knew you well.
maybe its time i stop living in self denial and wake up to something called reality.

life plays real jokes on me at times.
i'm naive i guess.
i actually wished for a perfect birthday party.


baby. you know it isnt you i'm referring to.

i seriously need to stop spending.

wtf.
seriously.
period.
i have no idea how much i have blew this month.

but i'm sure its ALOT.
i need to stop.

ouch

went to thread my eyebrows at browhaus today.
ouch. i tot i had a high threshold for pain.
but i TEARED...

ok. looking neat now though.
although its still alittle red.

friends. esp jess dear.
if anytime you wanna thread your eyebrows or go to browhaus let me know.
i freaking bought the 10 session package.
so yes. it'll only cost you 10 bucks if you wanna thread at browhaus ok?
lemme know and i'll give you my details to book an appt. =)

i hope you like your watch

wad's the deal with 21st birthdays.?

i lost the energy to want to celebrate it
i lost the excitement to look forward to it.

i cant believe we quarrelled over my 21st.
gdi.
tell me once again.
wad's the point in celebrating when the person you love most ended up quarrelling with you over it.

maybe you're right.
i'm bloody self-centred.

a job to be happy about?

i've gotten my holiday job
promoting absolute vodka at the airport.
pays well. 10/hr.
8 hours a day.

i'm supposed to be happy.
but after looking at my uniform.
i'm really just full of apprehensive-ness.
i'm quite upset at this moment.

on a much much MUCH happier note.
shopping with my boy today.
you wouldnt wanna know how much we spent..
ha..

a good time we had?
yes indeed.
i love you dear.
thanks for my erm...
presentsSSSSSS~!!

=)

my birthday wishlist

i really really want an instant camera.
2 to choose from for the time being...










Instax200. 79 bucks with film costing 15 bucks for 10.
its super big and bulky. but i like that the film is big.















instax mini7.
so small. and portable i guess.
99 bucks with film that cost 12.50 for 10.
cheaper option i think considering that film is 2.50 lesser than the above?
hmm...instant camera's film are ex.
but the film is only credit card size... =(


help me choose someone.
dun bother telling me its pointless to get an instant camera.
i know digital is better.
i'll get BOTH. =)

the aftermath

its terrible.
i just feel that i've failed myself miserably in my maths exam

i couldnt say i din do well.
i mean. i did attempt all the questions i tot was impossible.
and to know that i actually got a couple right to a certain extent..
i think i should be happy.

but the plain carelessness and how i managed to solve a question
yet.
cancelled it last minute was totally wth.

i'm sad.
i'm very upset. with myself.

2 down in 2 days.
one last paper to go.
my most confident maths module by far.

its a stress i'm gonna n have to put on myself.
i need to pull up my gpa damn it.

if only life wasnt just about grades.
i wish. not when my pay is dependable on my grades. sigh.


i actually wished my roomie was here so i could rant out. =(

life is that unfair. ha

my darling roomie and i took our first paper which is geography today.
however....

i have 2 more to go.

but it was her last as well....

now i'm in hall alone.
i'm quite sad.
i shall munch on the loads of food she left behind for me..
famous amos...yum

think i'll go do the laundry later.

i sneezed till my some vein in my nose burst i think
cause my right nostril hurts like....CRAP now.
seriously. wad a time to feel awful.
mommy asked me how to study for exam like that
i look so tired.

i also dunno how.
hang on lor

i got my 21st bday present from my boy already
its gorgeous...
=)

ah-chhooooooooooooooo

i think i've been bitten by the FLU bug again.
exam starts next week.
jialat.
i have 8 days to balance my studying between my tougher maths module out of the 2 maths i take
and also the equally tough geography.

and with the flu bug now.
i really dunno if i can.
i shall sleep early tonight.
crap.

home has never felt better

after my close to breakdown yesterday
it really feels good to be home today
last ALS lesson went on smooth and fun.
i guess it really gave me new insight to things.

i'm still in a cranky mood.
i cant explain.
maybe it really just is the time of the month.

i was blog surfing and took this off kathleidoscope's blog.
pretty much sums up what is in my head and heart all these while.

"i sometimes read too much into things. i try really hard not to, but most of the time i do.
i'm sorry i need you to constantly remind me of how much you love me,
how much you care
i suffer from what is commonly known as obsessive compulsive relationship disorder,
something i contracted the moment i thought you meant the world to me.
each time i suffer a relapse,
i wish there was something i can do that will take it all away.
i hope i'm not mad or something. i wish someone knows how i feel,
because when u meet someone who is very dear to you,
you would want to hold on to him no matter what."


i'm sorry i've been a bitch.
sometimes...
i really wish i wasnt like that.

sorry

i'm sorry i ranted and ranted and ranted today.
i knew i was probably getting on your nerves big time.

but because you knew i wasnt feeling good
and because you love me... rite?

you never once flared up at me.
in fact... you took everything to stride.

for that... you know i love you very much.

i need to find myself

i know its getting late.
but somehow i cant bring myself to sleep
a maths test in 8 hours time.
i'm done revising.
more or less.
but i just cant get to bed.

i dunno if it is cause i'm feeling empty or wad?
depressed isnt the word i wanna use to describe myself.
i'm actually feeling lost.
and i dunno why.


my ipod has been playing the same 34 songs.
repeat mode for the last 7 hours
just imagine.
i think i've reach a point where i'm not even listening.

at 4 am..

i've been on my ALS term paper for the last 12 hours.
ok larz. you could minus about 3hours cause i was slacking and having dinner etc.

oh well. i've managed to complete a term paper due 2 days before its due ok.
i usually complete it the night before only.
hahah...
wad to do..
i have 2 maths test on thursday which i'm not prepared for.
tmr is number theory day.
yawnz.

my roomie has been asleep for the last 7 hours. coolios man.
just imagine.
i'm amazed how i'm still not sleepy at this time.

Man U is thrashing AS Roma right now.
wanna know how i know?
cause the guys in the next hall are screaming
GOOOooooOOOoooooooooo......OAL~!!!
every 10 minutes or so.
they really drag the oooooooo OK?
hahahah guys.

it's quite interesting actually.
just imagine the scene at the hall lounge.

AS Roma just scored.
yes. i know it just by hearing.
they boo-ed.
hahahahhaha this is actually quite fun ya know.
i can actually update my boy without the tv or livescore.


i'm feeling hungry. its almost time for breakfast.
hahha i had dinner 8 hours ago.
WOW.
its weird when you count time like that.
i dun usually go hungry 8 hours.

yes i sound pretty high. high on teh-o peng.

BUILD-A-BEAR

yesterday i brought my little darling niece to vivo
so she could build her own bear
it was pretty fun.

on how they get to pick a toy.
pick a sound to put it in.
stuff it.
fluff it
dress it and name it.

although it was obviously a cheat my money and the kids thingy.
i must say that it is a very smart marketing idea.
i paid 40 plus bucks for the bear.
and that was probably one of the cheapest.

how they actually made kids feel like they really OWN the bear.
kiss a little heart and make a wish with the heart before putting it into the bear?
followed by sewing it up?
it was really sweet larz.
at least... the girl would really feel that the bear is hers.
and not just another toy.

you should have seemed how uptight and sensitive she got everytime andy walked near a dustbin.
she was so worried we would throw it away cause she was being naughty.

she dressed her princess bear in cinderalla outfit.
wah. that little outfit cost almost $30 bucks larz.
think...barbie doll dressing up.


OH YA.
did i mention the girl who tended to my niece tot that WE were her parents?
tmd.
my niece is turning 5 larz.
so if we were her parents...
that would make us 16 only lar.

either amelia looked young
or we looked old.
it's andy fault i tell you.


the girl just said we looked like a happy family.
OF COURSE LARZ.
i mean one is my niece and one is my bf mah.
how unhappy can we be?
@(Y)@$Y&(##&($T(&@~!(*@&^


oh yesh.
withdrawal symptoms...
i havent's shop for sooooo long!
i walked past forever 21 yesterday and i din get to SHOP
ah i'm sad.

MJ and KK? great combo man

Had MJ with the usual peeps on thursday evening.
hahah it was the MOST fun one ever.
Mr Alvin Chong was on this freaking lucky streak that by DONG FENG...
he won 70 bucks.

ya. he zi-mo 4 tai ONCE.
man tai once and 4 tai once or twice i think.
even though we played 40 80c which is quite alot
but man. 70 bucks by DONG FENG is too fierce.
considering we all started all with only 40 bucks.

ha but its ok.
i bao-ed him one. HHAHAH
so i barely won back my money.

hahah jp and andy was so darn happy when chong kana bao-ed
but you should have seen poor chong's face.
he was utterly devastated.
"i was winning 60 bucks. now it HALVED!!"

ha i really really love mj-ing with them
jp just gotta quit playing in his flight suit.
poor boy.

and so one pilot fren drove me to meet my OTHER pilot fren
for THIS!!
















































oh yum yum yum!!!

i collect it close to 11pm that night.
but by the next morning.....
this was all that's left...

its sinful.

but i cant help it..

bugs are not my frens

daddy mommy and my bro just left for cambodia this early morning
no idea why cambodia.
gosh. think army boys. think malaria.
eeekss...not my kind of place
i hate bugs.


speaking of which
my ants incident ...







































Due to it raining the night i found ants on my clothes.
i had to mass wash my clothes
and hang it in the room.
thanks to the improvisation of my roomie.
we hung a twine across the room.
from her cupboard to the windows.
cool huh.

its quite unsightful actually. oh well.

have to go back to hall tonight.
how sad. its's sunday night larz.

my other pilot fren.....

edgar got me krispy kremes from down under!!
woootttttweeettttt.... yumyum yummmmmmmmm
i lurve edgar dear!!!







justin... take that! nanny nanny poo poo.
hahah kidding.
i promise i'll get you those from sunny singapore.
*heeeeeee*

IT dont simplify things. it makes life worst actually.

finally handed my ICT project.
so glad its over.
i have one more major term paper due.
NEXT WEEK.
sigh.

ICT was terrible.
the flash error was seriously getting on my nerves and anna's.
my lappie simply refuses to acknowledge the flash images.
even after i downloaded shockwave and flash player more than 5 times.
it was nerve wrecking.
at 3 am last night.
i still refused to sleep.
i had to make sure everything was ok or at least until my partner sleep too.

luckily everything worked out fine in the computer lab this morning.
all ready to submit it and there were ERRORS AGAIN on the burnt cd.
i'm telling you.
i can die. sucks sucks sucks.




On monday:
i had to clear my entire wardrobe and wash all my clothes
cause they were infested with ants!
ok i'm exaggerating.
there were a couple of ants.
but its enough to scare me larz.

i'm perfectly ok if they are on the floor.
but ON MY CLOTHES?
NO WAY MAN.
last week my roomie had hers infested.
but mine WERE fine.
were is the key word.
i guess they erm.....
migrated???
wad the hell rite.

i hate ants.
at least not on my clothes.
bring on the ant chalk
ant powder.
insecticide and wadeva that is poison to them.
die ants die.


i actually had an ANTS nightmare.
wtf.


off to nap.zzz

during my convo.....

during my conversation with justin...
he told me this....

"other than fav andy. heckcare les, bz jess and emo xf,
there's always free justin. "


how apt.

i love these guys.

TGIF

The food...




















the company




wala-ed with these guys on friday night.
it was good chilling out...talking...
shouting to each other admist the um...band.
and playing 7-UP just so we can finish the drinks.

justin..you're right.
friday nights aint so bad after all.
after a long week of work and late nights.
i really needed that.
love you guys

i'm not a fan of people asking wad i would like for my birthday.
perhaps...
i'm just not used to asking for things.
i would love anything people for me.
something practical would be better definately.
its the thought that counts anyway.

i'll try and think up a list of things i want soon ok?
=(

its club 21 in about 5 weeks.
i'm still thinking if i should get a chalet to celebrate THE day.
but cost is a huge factor.
and since daddy mommy aint forking out anything for me.
i really cant imagine paying every single cent.
i just aint that rich.

i have an ideal party in mind.
but like i said.
its IDEAL.
not realistic.


birthday's were never supposed to be such headache.
just give me a surprise.
abby love surprises.




edgar passed his air grading.
he read my blog and saw me craving badly for donuts.
he said he would get me KK if he could.
i love you edgar. - if you can get me donuts that is-

no larz. kidding. =)

on a happier note....

in the midst of all my sighs and burying my face in my lappie's screen.
my phone vibrated at 11.45pm

"hello" i said.

"where are you?" he asked.

"hall lor"

"then why din pick up the phone? hmm"

"doing work mah. din realized it was vibrating. why?"

"open the gate for me please?"


yeah. my boy appeared at my hall again.
you know...
even though i always sit at my desk hoping he would be here.
or should i say expecting him to be here...

i'll always still be really happy and surprise when he springs up here.

he was decked in his working attire.
how smart.
he smelt really nice.
*sniff*

we went for supper with my roomie again.
i'm telling you.
me and wenjie is so gonna grow fat soon.

the boyfriend is weird.
he wants me to lose weight.
yet he's instigating all the late night supper.

we wanted to purchase my little miss tee on the online spree.
but his ib din work.
sigh. i want i want i want.
its ten bucks cheaper den what they sell at heeren.


i'm heading back to my work.
happy 26 months. =)

i'm this close to break down

i'm tired.
hence the angsty-ness.
my boy's been so busy
he barely has time for me.

i cant fault him.
financial month or year or WADEVA closing.

essays are duing (i know there aint such a word)
i have a maths test tmr.
i've so many things running through my head at this moment.
i'm running on 90% cpu memory.

my head is slowing down.
i'm hanging.
just like how my lappie is gonna die on me.
i think its heating up far too much
i'm sorry darling lappie.
you know i love you.

i've been a major scatterbrain lately
forgetting this and forgetting that.
like seriously.
i think i might just forget to wake up soon.

how nice.

single or double.

can someone just help me with listing of pros and cons for staying in a double room or single room.

i love my roomie.
but there are somethings i wished she was more open to.
just one or two actually.

she's been great.
i'm not gonna complain.
in fact she's been wonderful.

so yeah single or double?
den again.... maybe i dun qualify for single. =(

i love my milo with cream cracker.
WAH. YUM YUM YUM

its probably gonna be my dinner for the next month
still....yum yum...

right now...
i really just want my doooooooooNUTS...

i'll love whoever who gets it for me to bits.
ahhahaha

dooooOOOOOoooNUTS

last week.
i had krispy kremes brought back by shuyi.


and now....i have a crrrrrrrrrrrraving for donuts.
more more more.
=(

i've been checking the donut factory everytime i'm in the area.
but the queue never seems to shorthen
in fact, it keeps getting longer.
=(
i want donuts.

my beethoven.

ignore the irrelevance of the picture to the title.
but yeah.
HE is my beethoven.

although it was only an octave worth of notes
although it was just the most chicken feet song most pianist would say.
my boy played it all nice and sweet.

it was so fun to see how he remembers what i taught him.
it was so fun to see how he wanted the song to be in perfection.
how we took the pain to make sure we played it nice and smooth.

he learnt the piano with a maths brain.
numbering the keys.


i know i sound all mushy...
but he is the cutest.

NLB

am sitting here by a nice glass window...
at the National library.

i do miss the good ol days at the old NLB.
but the view at the 11 floor here is simply gorgeous.

here i'm on wireles. Finally.
with a gorgeous view of raffles hotel. suntec. esplanade. pan pac. shaw.
indoor stadium. and even the sea. PLUS PLUS PLUS

the FERRIS WHEEL~!!

i love the ferris wheel under construction.
i love the 180 view.
i love the small little cars i see.
i love this place.....

doesnt matter that i'm here trying to find information on my essay.
its tough to try to get as much info as i can NOW.
cause the books are not on loan...
=(

it doesnt matter.
the view is simply....
wow.

not in the right state of mind

i have an 830 class tomorrow.
830 MATHS class actually.
it lasts till 1030.
i'll probably be tearing and yawning through it.

i cant last an 830 class when its 3am
and i'm still not asleep.

i'm tired actually.
but my bloody geog assignment is killing.
plotting graphs that are on 3 decimal place on a normal graph paper SUCKS.
when your x value range is 0-80.
i'm upset.

but wad to do when the lecturer doesnt even tell us wad to do????
she gave us the assignment.
and just told us to MEASURE the plot the slope.
which includes gradient, distance... elevation and i dunno wad else.
i dun even wad is needed and wad is not.
thanks ar.
it's weird.

i dun classify this as independent learning actually.
its WAY overboard.

on a lighter note.
SN has accepted my request for practicum there.
i'm very happy.
i love SN so very much.
i hope NIE dun reject me.

went back to SN today.
pictures will be up soon.


oh ya.
my boy made me run 6km+++ today.
it was madness.
i think i walked about 1km+++
and that still made total running distance about 5km.

it is by far.....
THE FURTHEST DISTANCE I HAVE RAN.
it's an achievement man.
FOR ME.

i shouldnt have accepted my new sports shoes.
i knew there were repercussions to it.
=(
ah boy said we should make it a weekly thing.

AHhhhhhhh......
=(((((((((((((
Grace!!!!! I JOGGED TO YOUR HOUSE CAN??????
and BACK~!!!!

my roomie dear just cooked pasta for dinner w campbell soup.
favourite.
but me aint feeling good.
barely ate much.

still feeling drowsy over medicine.
wanna stop.
but i cant.
am still sick.
not fully recovered yet.


datelines datelines datelines.
finished my individual geog assignment already.
finished my survey sampling for techniques of geog too.
that's barely half of my term papers.


i would very much like to do it now.
but i'm in a hibernation mode.
think i'll go run later.
make use of MY SHOES.


hahahah....
hall application for next sem starts next week.
would very much wanna opt for a single room.
but its lonely to stay alone.
its 60 bucks more a month.
i could buy 2 tops with that.
EVERY MONTH.
ha

also it seems that my points aint enough.
oh well.
just get me back to HALL 3.
please.

















to the boy who gave me this.
love you.

on my way to a healthy healthy lifestyle

went shopping at queensway with nd on saturday
to get my yoga mats.
for mommy and myself.
and my boy bought me a pair of sports shoe.

my FIRST pair of sports shoe since JC 1.
since my nike one spoiled when i was in J1
that means.... the last time i owned a pair was 4 years ago.
4 donkey years!!!

YES.
i have been running, jogging, playing basketball, badminton doing PE
in my
SNEAKERS.
no go rite?
i know.
so here.
presenting my newly OWNED sports shoe.

....

...

.

















i FINALLY have no more excuses for not exercising...
hahahah


but i really HAD no proper shoe wad.



sunday was yoga-lala class with mommy.
wah....my bones and muscles and veins and skin were really stretched.
so comfy.
hahah....
felt so healthy after that.

i know i know...its all psychological. =)

ker-CHING...i'm on the unwanted list.

it was mahjong with chongster and mr.JP on friday night.
first round took almost 4 hours larz.
and i won about 70 bucks in total from the nd and JP
i was really really lucky that night.

second round finished in less than 2 hours.
made us wonder what we had been doing for the first round.
nd won about 30+ bucks from the three of us.

making the combined winnings of me and nd almost 100 over.
it was fierce. playing 40c 80c is really fierce.

i love playing mj with jp and chong.
they are so funny.

like how i was waiting for tile to game and JP obviously KNEW that i was on a lucky and winning streak and
made a mental note to chong saying DUN PLAY TONG ZI.
i had man tai already.
and Chong happily threw BA TONG for me to game.

hahah 12.80 from chong and 6.40 from JP!!!
JP almost went bonkers when chong threw the tile.
he pulled his own hair and asked chong wad he did that for...

note: JP was barely left with chips.

CHONG (unsympathetically): but i ting-ing also wad.
JP: chong! YOU only had TWO tai~!!!
CHONG: but but....... i can win wad..... =(


hahahah JP was constantly on the verge of killing chong.
cause JP was on a pretty unlucky streak.
and he played safe and defensive...
but chong kept pulling him into the "shithole"

hahah...
it was funny how JP compared his chips to oh well... *censored*
and how we were taking his dignity away.
he and his fat cat role.
purely hilarious.

although it was 3am
and i was barely sober due to medication.
the guys are really pure fun.



anytime mahjong-ing with you guys.
count me in.


bad luck come in threes....
dun they? =)

sickly sickly me

my throat is hurting badly
feels as though small little thorns are covering it
every time i swallow.
it hurts big time.

everytime i cough.
i just feel like vomiting.

doesnt help that my body temp is rising.
=(

i have no idea why my post arent UP~!!!

birthday weekend.....

Happy birthday chong-ster.
bring on your si tai wu tai.





















Happy birthday stead....
time to be a lady all pretty and sweet ok?
hope you like your nina ricci.

















Happy birthday viv dear..
its been 11 years.
more than half of how much i've lived.
our bball days at the shorter net.
before we moved on to the higher net.

our primary school teletubbies day.
to our bunny frens.
now.... you should just be known as my greatest pal.
no matter how far we are
and how we always dun meet up.


i still love you babe.

every now and then,
it feels as though i'm all alone.
completing something so idealistic.
feel as though i'm just trying to hard to make things nice
but i'm not being appreciated.

its getting tiring.
i wish i could make everyone happy.
i wish everything could be Perfect with a huge P.

perhaps its just me.
maybe i'm just looking too much into things.
are we drifting away?
feels so.

but then like i said.
it could just be me.

just read yahoo news!
a 6.3 magnitude earthquake just hit indonesia sumatra island.

"The U.S. Geological Survey said the tremor, which had a preliminary magnitude of 6.3, struck around 30 miles from Padang, a city on Sumatra's western coast. It had a depth of about 20 miles."

figured what i felt just now was an earthquake.
but still couldnt wait to check it out.
kept refreshing my yahoo news page.

it might just be some army guys bombing something at the firing range mah.
my hall is just opposite the firing range eh.

coolios. finally got to feel an earthquake.
wheee...
i'm so sorry.
i know the poor people in indo are suffering.
but as a geog student here...
i'm super excited that i felt it!!!!
wah...that adrenaline rush.
ha.

=)

mahjong-ed with my friends last night
in my room from 9pm till 3am.

used the bed as the mahjong table.
man.
backaches and leg aches i tell you.
we're growing old larz.

baby joined us too.
cause he brought my lappie back.
=)

my back is aching.
but ha..it was fun.

and the world fell silent

my room just SHOOK~!!!
man....my heart really stopped for a second there.
was alone in my room using my lappie.
itunes playing.
and suddenly, there was this silent feeling in my ears and everywhere.
my eyes darted around and it felt like the entire room was shaking.

was i dreaming?
checked the bottle on wenjie's table.
and saw the water shaking as well.

scary.

29 February

a day that din exist this year.
our day that din exist this year.

maybe come next year.
we'll treasure this day more.
once every four years.
how interesting.

i love you.

i really just hate it when things are planned and arranged
and people just foiled it all.

it's kinda selfish?
i dunno but i really just dun like it.

gone and back again~!!!

two days back.
my daddy lost his darling motorbike at tampines.
i dun wanna be racist here.
but i really think its done by M.

its chinese NEW YEAR.
and hey. no chinese will do something like that on CNY rite?
its bad luck.
and we who study social studies back in secondary school would know that east is heavily populated with ya... you know who.
esp bedok and tampines.

that's beside the point.

it felt so sad to see daddy so upset.
not with the fact that he just bought the bike not too long ago and the money he lost.
but more like it was his Favourite.
was so tempted to just use all my angpow money and with my sis and bro's
get him a new one.

so glad my prayers were answered this morning.
and his bike was found.
in an alright condition i think.

daddy has gone down to the police station to pick it up i guess.
and probably cleaning it up now.

i'm just a noisy girl.

yes.
i just like to make noise.
maybe cause i expect people to know what i really want.
i'm sorry if i upset you.
but to you, i really dun mean anything i say.
i just like to disturb you. =)


i had a great valentines' day.
of course that's course i have a great company.
it was dinner at sketchers
where the charged me wrongly AGAIN.

then it was a short walk around bugis before grabbing a long bus ride on 61 back.
the boy fell asleep barely 5 minutes after we sat down.
i like to watch him sleep.
spend the entire bus ride sight seeing.
it was nice and peaceful to some extent.

chinatown. jalan bukit merah.
st. theresa's. harbourfront.
former SAJC. queensway.
holland V.

it din matter if i din have any flowers in my hands.
it din matter that he was asleep the whole ride.
i had him next to me.
holding my hand as he slept.
that was all that matters.

i just wished work din tire him so much.





i felt silly and stupid.
i still do.

he offered to buy me ben& jerrys
gave me 10 bucks to buy it from the petrol kiosk.
i went in myself.
searched for the SMALL pint and couldnt find.
so i ended up buying snapple and walls.

den he came in and ask "no ben & jerrys?"
i said no.
he looked over and saw many many LARGE pints.
"so many??" he asked.
but i had already paid for my stuffs.

he later told me in the car...
" i was expecting you buy the large pint, you know"
i replied" but cant finish wad"
" den you share mah. or keep?"
"i gave you 10 bucks for the large pint. that's why i asked you if it was enough"


why did i think of buying the small pint and only the small pint?
*sobs*

the numbers 1 and 6.

Happy Valentine's day one and all.
*smuacks smuacks*

12 hours ago.
i tot my boy was soundly asleep in his comfy little bed
as he was really tired from work.

but at close to 1 am.
when i was cuddling up under my blanket reading my papers
someone came jumping on me.

my first thoughts were,
what the hell was wenjie( my roomie) doing?
why the hell is she jumping onto me.
and i suddenly realized.

WAIT.
she wont do that
and no she aint that heavy.
and since the person's face was covered by my newspapers
and a bouquet of flowers
it TOOK ME AWHILE to figured that...
IT's MY BOY.

1am in the morning.
he surprised me with yet another gorgeous bouquet of 6 roses.
this time in pretty champange.


my boy has a knack for springing surprises on me in the early morning.
not that i'm complaining

i went to bed with a big huge ass smile last night.
it felt really sweet.



YOU should know which 3 words i wanna say....

In the mood for love.

two years ago,
someone scare the daylight out of me, literally,
when i found him waiting under my block with a bouquet of flowers
at 630 am in the morning.
i was on my way to school.

one year ago,
that someone was fulfilling his obligation to the aRMy,
but he still got his friend to get me a bouquet of flowers.

my 3rd valentine's day with you.
time sure flies.


Happy Valentine's Day dear.

i had a craving for hot fudge sundae
and my boy drove to my hall with IT.
but that's on top of bringing my tootie back.
heh.

is he sweet? yes.
love him.


today marks the beginning of my financial plan.
buy-a-present-fund
hope i can save enough by then.

and the stomach rumbles....

it is really nice to study in the night.
the cool wind.
the peaceful surroundings.

that's until i hear my stomach growl...
grr..i get hungry so easily.
and staying up late only makes it worst.

i'm hungry now.
at almost 3.

like what andy always say...
this is NO GO.

ice milo blues AGAIN.

had one of the worst case of stomach ache yesterday.
the symptoms seemed to be more of gastric flu.
terrible terrible pain.
lost of appetite.
puking.

terrible. cramps are so much less painful.
felt so miserable.
legs were feeling soooo weak from the pain.
was at chinatown but could barely enjoy the CNY mood.

but i have to thank my baby boy.
who ever so caringly took care of me.
stomach feels a whole lot better today.
thanks.

i think i shall pack my things before taking a nap.

feeling lazeeee.

Bang bang bang!!

walking back to hall from school
i hear the continuous sound of the rifles shooting.
and i'm actually very amused with the fact that andy is there
at the firing range shooting.
it actually crossed my mind that
perhaps
one of the shot i heard was done by him.
i couldnt help smiling.

i have a wild imagination
and i'm easily amused.
hah... and yes..
i sound darn love sick.

but i really think its so cOOl wad.



heh.

this week did pass faster than i tot it would.
but too..it has been my worst week since school started.
i'm constantly so tired.
frens were commenting how pale i looked this morning.
pale aint a word associated with me...

better take more effort into taking care.
on the bright note. it's e-learning week next week. =)

blogger seems down..
and i cant blog surf.

the weather is great for bed.
maybe me shall be a good girl and sleep early tonight.

wanted to do some work.
but most of my assignment will only be posted online next week.
zzzzz....

had a yummy dinner.
thanks roomie.

the weather's been great.
the sun's blasting as usual.
but it's never humid.
the chilling and howling wind just cools everything.
in fact it's so chilling that i have to wear a sweater to school in the morning.

however,
a wonderful time for the beach.

hit the sandy beaches yesterday.
love it.
the sun was high and sunny.
it wasnt as hot.
it was in fact...pretty cold.

empty beaches.
i only saw 4 people around me for the whole 2 hour plus i was there.
wonderful.
sentosa never looked so peaceful and quiet to me.


hitting the beach after school was a great idea.

You know life is getting sad when its almost 2am
and i'm still sitting here at my desk typing my academic discourse skill reader response.

i love my roomie.
we share almost similar taste in food.
she bought campbell chunky back to hall
just when i was thinking about it just now.
yum.
it is actually such a happy sight that our food rack is all packed.

heh...we'll grow fat. i just know it.

went jogging again just now.
the other we went jogging round the loop round the hall 8-15.
today we conquered the NIE round.
maybe we shall try the Campus round next time.

that's a big ass round.
i'll probably be NOT able to walk the next day.
and lazy me...
i'll probably run halfway and grab a shuttle bus back for the next half.


this is not a good way to go.
i have an 830 class tmr.
and 6 hours sleep is so NOT enough for me.

on a brighter note.
beach tmr with my boy
ooooo...... sentosa.. =)

Just three simple words.

I.

Love.

You........

Happy 2 years darling.

quite like my desktop at this moment.
the cute little icons.
and my organiser at the corner that show my to-do-list
WIDGETS..!!! haha i feel so organised.
let me self-delude for awhile.

WaTCH OUT!!

had my FIRST driving lesson yesterday.

ooo.. it wasnt as bad as i expected it to be.
stalled ONCE.
at THIS particular traffic light slightly before Millenia Institute.
its always there that i have problems with moving off from stop.
haha...give me some chance ok?
i was panicking¬!!!
super duper kan chiong.
hahah....

i think i did my turns pretty well.
haha....tend to be a little violent though.
i think its the daytona i play.
it's the only time i actually drive a car wad.
hahah...

ha. realized i have the tendency to speed up too.
NEED FOR SPEED
jialat.
dangerous driver here ok?
haha OH YA.
and i have the tendency to hold the steering wheel with one hand too!!
i know where that bad habit came from.
ahha.....

heh...baby baby....lemme drive your car PLease........ *smuacks*


went for supper with my roomie, ben mich and baby.
banana honey prata.
yum yum.
came back to hall straight after and slept.
felt darn piggie. oh well. =)

suffering from major cramps now.
which is so preventing me from doing work.
eeee AGRH¬!

PicTures from Justin's 21st

The Usual Gang i supposed.




















Haha... Poor Justin was really trying
super duper hard to blow them out.
I swear.
It wasnt easy.
No more Fish and Co birthdays.
Thankfully he's only 21 with TWO big and ONE small candle.
imagine 29.....
















Oh yesh...we love you Jus....but you din have to do this.
*haha smuacks*




















Phang was ALL decked in proper and nice attire ok?
with a nice bag too.
We were all so stunned to see him.
TILL we saw the sandals.
Spoiler!!
















Phang, The B-day Boy with his present, Nd and Les.
Its a gorgeous watch ok.

And the BIG PROCRATINATOR SPEAKS

After 2 and half years since i took my basic theory
after 2 years since i took my final theory.

I'M FINALLY GONNA START ON MY PRACTICAL.

damn it man.
sometimes i really am a huge procrastinator.
so clever and wonderful rite?

2 years eh.
i think i'm the pro.


heh... dun scold me ok?
love you.

i woke up this morning feeling all awful.
yes...i AM still pretty much upset.

spend 2 hours + travelling to school by bus.
enjoyed it.
even though i was dozing in and out of sleep most of the time.

i've a great sense of guilt in me now.
dun ask why.
i dun even noe why i'm even blaming myself.

week 2 of sem 2.
things seem to be going quite ok.
keeping up with my work.
esp for maths. which is wonderful!!

just went to do the laundry.
sneaked in when a girl opened the door earlier on.
but i'm currently locked out.
cause there's something wrong with my key.
and i'm classified as a 'INVALID USER' according to the scanner.

so yesh.
my roomie and my clothes are probably spinned dry.
but i cant go collect them.
=(

gonna go out for lunch.
i'm starving.

it sucks to know that things are more or less planned.
and you're all ready to get a ticket
only to know that someone changed her mind and words.
AGAIN.

i hate it when she does that.
i just feel like i've been cheated all my life.

right now.
i'm just feeling freaking awful.
as though i'm to be blame for everything.

dun cancel the trip please.
just go ahead with it.
i will feel better.

i hope.

seriously.
i'm sorry i'm giving a really black and bad face now.
my mood is terrible.
but just let me be.

i wanna throw it all out.
but it seems that no one truly understands.

MORNING everyone.

i miss my daddy mommy sista and brother.
although the 2 latter is more to pissing me off then wad.
i still miss them.

to think i've only been in hall for 2 nights.
jialat.

it's super tiring to wake up every morning at 8 larz.
830 lessons are terrible.
sometimes i was thinking.
maybe it doesnt really make a huge diff if i wake up at 6 and head to school from home.
sigh.

maths ar maths.
seriously out to kill me.

just realized i have to keep my GPA at above 3.7
by the end of Year 2.
so that in YEar 3 and 4.
i can get like 5000 a year.
i dunno how i'm gonna survive without that about 400 a month.
hall expenses. bills.
1000 now is a luxury man.

i want my 2nd upper.
have to work harder.
yawn....

off to school¬!

my boy

just had a not so nice convo with my boy.
it sucks to quarrel.
but sometimes...
it really feels as though we dun understand each other.
i'm sorry.
i was too harsh i guess.

it was great last nice.
rushed down to his place straight after GESL.
so late. cabbed down and i reached only at 8.10 like that.
and i boarded the cab at 19.55.
So...THERE's WAS 2 bucks surcharge.
i'm so sad.

but everything else made up for it.
a nice hot piping noodle with lotsa of yummay egg.
my dear cooks a mean bowl of instant noodles man.
and later fell asleep while he was playing DOTA.

The perfect dose was dear drove me back to hall when i was
EXPECTING to take a bus back already.


you were such a sweet heart. thanks

Had to come all the way home from ulu Hall.
To pick up my new sim card.
cause M1 happily de-activated my old sim card.
couldnt survive without a phone.
a 2 hour journey home i MUST make.
how sad rite.


its been a fun-filled weekend.
Two 21st birthdays.
Lijie and Justin.

Friday was lijie's.
In a room at panpac.
i dun think it went as it was planned.
but fun it was nonetheless.
Taboo was hilarious.
so was dadee and bridge my dear viv and wei.

Justin's was yesterday.
At fish and co.
Hope you like your prezzie dude.

Remind me never to have my bday celebrated at fish and co ok?
i dun think i can ever do the blow a candle while i'm standing up on the chair.


Happy birthday to the 2 of you.
that should be all for the 21 year old jan babies.
Pictures up soon.
When i get it... that is.

hall 3 peeps

small puan. medium mich and fat ben had been wonderful peeps
they helped me move my stuffs over just the other day.

and we were played da-dee.
puan purposedly lost so she could hurry back to hall and study.
these peeps are the most fun.

borrowed dingyi's mahjong the other day
and we mj-ed till late.
wanted to die.
i was tearing the next day.

i still miss home though.

i have a nice roomie.
and a nice hall.
wenjie is so sweet.
she bought me fruits to eat cause i'm sick.
i'll take pictures someday and upload it into my blog.
my lousy fujitsu dun have bluetooth... unlike wenjie's POWER ibook.
*jealous*

i'm so freaking bored now.
was supposed to meet baby dear.
but last min the aRmeee kept him in.
i'm sad.

i'm going thru major pms today.
the weather's not helping.

completed my maths tutorial one already.
how's that?
i'm on my second one which is a little tougher.
i want my second upper honours.
dun stop me.

boy boy. i promise i'll lose my 5kilos. OK?
i TRY

2007 here i come

it's almost a week into the new year.

i have no resolutions.
that's cause i know i'll never stick to them.
maybe i'll stick to one.
lose my flabs.

one is enough for me to stick by.
i'll try ok dear?

so 2006 just came and went.
real fast.
maybe caused it was because i started working.
time flies when you're working.
you're just so caught up in the routine that you dun realize 8 months flew by just like that.
i was at the law firm for 8 months.
it really never felt that long.

den it was the decision of my life.
to sign THE bond with MoE.
there are times when i still regret it.
to teach for 4 years.
i really dunno if i can do it.

i'm in.
no more looking back.

signing this bond really made me grew up.
i feel.
i look at things so differently.
it's the responsibility.
to take things seriously.
to do well.
to think of my future.

one sem have passed in uni.
3 and a half years more to go in NIE.
7 half to completing my bond.
man....



i'll post more on my NY celebration soon.
right now.
i'm mourning over the lost of my hair.
and fretting over the horrible cut i'm sporting now.
help.

met up with wenjie at hall 3 today
to get our keys and do cleaning of our room
i FINALLY have a fren as my roomie.

we were having so much fun cleaning and getting the antenna right for the tv.
oh ya. wenjie broke the antenna though. oops.
reception at NTU sucks.
the only channel that we could receive REALLY clearly was TV3.
channel 5 and 8 had shadows...
it was like watching it in slow mo.

cant wait to decorate my room.
i think i'll finally have a cosy room.
and hall 3.
i'm just really happy.


i hope to lose 5kg asap.
help.
it was my resolution a year ago.
and i still havent.
i'm not gonna let myself down.
argh.

my 20th christmas.

a really wet christmas season this year.
and i love christmas.
how everything would feel so christmassy.
the joy of sharing the love and all.

my christmassy season started about a week ago w
hen i had to do shopping for everyone's pressies
spent alot this year.
it really din matter how much i spent...
it's weird..
but i just wanted everyone to be really happy.
it was all that matters, even if it meant going broke.

so there it was hunting high and low for the presents my loves wants.
from my mommy's 200 bucks pillow to baby's wallet to my little darling niece's minnie mouse vaccum cleaner.
it was shopping and shopping all the way till sat.
spent big bucks.
but i've yet to know the exact amount cause everything was paid for by card.
i'm so dead when the bill arrives.

mommy daddy totally forgot to get me a present.
but surprisingly, i was expecting it.
this christmas has really been a more giving one than receiving....
and it feels good.
weird yet good.
maybe it's cause of the extra cash i got. hence the spending.

oh well. so sat was spend with andy's family.
sentosa cove.
it was a lifestyle i think i'll never get used to.
always felt that it's.... out of my league.
but i love my boy... i'll learn to live it.

christmas eve.... a wet wet christmas eve.
went to my aunt's house for dinner..
played with my little darling.
and she came over to stay.

christmas day was also spent with da little monsta.
running round my house.
pestering me to play with her.
she's a pest. hah...a really adorable and annoying pest.



















it's been a nice year.
results wasnt great but good enough.
did wish it was better.
but i'll just work harder.

going down to school to collect my hall keys tmr.
life been's great.
seems to be going smoothly.
i need to thank You.

rain rain go away.....

wanted to go out with jess dear.
but it just keeps pouring and pouring and pouring
and that just really dampens our mood.

if only singapore was just alittle colder.
then it would have been snow instead.
how nice..


i dun mind a cool weather.
but this rain is just killing.

my boy called and ask if i could meet him tonight.
and bring nice food.

he has been starved for the last 4 days.
poor boy.

cant wait to meet him.
i'll bring yummy yummy food ok?


there are so many things i wanna buy.
but i seem to lack the moolahs...
christmas christmas~!!!

Outward Bound School II

Day 2's night activity was SOLO nightwalk.

it sounded quite harmless..
a walk in the forest at night.
with only the moonlight as your light.
gosh.
ALONE.

i hate things like these.
it's worst when you have to wait for your turn to enter the forest.
the instructors told us to follow the glow-in-the-dark lightsticks.
does it make me less scared?
not really.

so i waited for about 30 mins for my turn.
couldn't find the entrance to the forest.
all the entries point look the same..
i started panicking...

and so i entered..and followed.
it was scary.
walked about 15m.
and i met up with my frens.
bottleneck i supposed.
waiting for part II of the night walk.
was expecting a tunnel walk.

but when it was my turn to be brought to the tunnel??
it was a freaking ring kinda well tunnel.
i seriously started freaking out.

had to climb down a ladder and crawl.
in a pitch dark tunnel.
worst when the instructors told me..
THERE WILL BE DIFFERENT PATHS.
if you choose the right one... you'll exit at somewhere that look like the entrance.
AHHhhh.....so many paths???
help.
but ha.. in the end.. it was only ONE SHORT crawl.
but it was a bad enough scare.

i'm happy i completed it.
but ask me to do it again..
i may not dare.

sorry about the OBS part II

its taking awhile..but i got lazy.

i was a sad girl yesterday
but am a happy girl today.

went out with viv darling yesterday and we checked out forever 21.
i found a top i really liked.
only to find out they din have Small.
to think the stock came in ONLY yesterday morning.
asked the sales girl if they could check with the vivo outlet
and she told me that both stores carry different stocks???
ok so i went home feeling sad.

i went to check the online store!
and they only had Large left.

so this morning...
i woke up feeling really bu kan yuan
so i made my way down to vivo before meeting the girls
i combed the whole store....

and i FOUND IT~!!!!
they had 2 S left.
only 2.... phew...
but instead of just JUST getting my 50 bucks top.
i ended up getting a 60 bucks denim 3 quarts too...
heh...i blew 110 bucks. JUST LIKE THAT.
wun-der-ful....

=)
so it was dinner with the girls w/o wen at swensens.
yummy.
and the catching up... ya-da ya-da ya-da.
wanted to head to minds cafe.
but they had a private event today. OF ALL DAYS.

so we settled for chill out at the nearest uni THERE.
how sad.
love my girls though.
we have all grew up...
views and thinking changed..
i dunno if that is good or bad.
but i still love you all.

Outward Bound School.

my very first OBS.
and probably my one and only one..

hah....too many mozzies and ants for me to take it.
my lastest updated count was 72.
Amazing eh?
i'm SHOCKED.

my left hand had about 20.
and so did my right.
the rest were scattered around my legs
to my ass... and my lower back.

i was wondering how they bit me since i DID wear track pants.
then...
andy told me that they actually are able to penetrate the clothing
AHHHHHHH
din help that my sister's track pants were a little thinner than those thick woolly ones.

so day ONE was the meet at punggol jetty.
the mozzies started attacking me from then on. =(
wenjie and i were in the group which was great.
too bad anna was separated. YUP..there were only 2 groups. of 14 each.
so we had to PADDLE across to UBIN from the JETTY.
gosh. i was expecting a ferry ride larz.
luckily i had breakfast.
so we did managed to survive the paddling then it was settling down FOR AWHILE.
before kayaking to our FIRST campsite.
I HATE KAYAKING.

FIRST CAMPSITE was some old former granite quarry...by the sea.
it was terrible.
had to cook in the dark.
pee in the woods.
take powder baths
and sleep on hard pokey granite rocks.
i wanted to scream...
i could see sengkang from where i was...
HOME~!!!!!!
and so that night was a very hard nite rest on sharp rocks poking my back
with ants and mozzies attacking my FEET and hands.

woke up to a really cold morning on DAY 2
burnt my baobei sailing cap while trying to warm it by the fire. -damn sad can-
it was THE cap that i u-turned during a race to pick it up when the wind blew it off my head.
day 2 was also the sea expedition.
we went along the jelutong swamp
which means we got stuck at mangroves.
meandered along lotsa meanders.
got lost.
and finally exited at the northern part of ubin.
kayaked the entire north and western part of the island back to OBS.
never felt happier to see OBS.
finally got to take a shower and set of trekking to our next campsite.

will continue later....
starting to feel it's a little LOooooooong.....

MOZzies and Ants

it's been quite an interesting 4 days.
i'm covered in mozzy and ant bites now.
last count was 40.
yes...it seems that THEY like me alot.
i'm sucked dry man.

itching like CRAZEEEEEEE
and i'm trying hard not to scratch.
although some have already bled. -mommy and andy is so gonna scold me-
damn it. more scars.

i'll blog about OBS later.
waiting for the andy to come over
to join me for dinner.
i'm starving.......

hurry come!!

the sweet ass is coming straight from ulu boon lay.
miss him so much...
to think that i was at pulau ubin
and he was at pulau tekong.
argh...


i wanna eat ice cream
and ooo chomp chomp...here i come!!

maybe you're right.

i can learn to love living life like this.

a bbq by the sea.
on a boat.
with the beautiful night skyline of shenton.
with the wonderful sea breeze.

sitting on the pontoon and eating?
yum.

it's a pity..
i will never be able to buy a boat on my own.
never.

you know..

sometimes...
i just wished time would hurry up FLY
damn it fly...

so that andy could finish army soon.

i hate to see him so tired and stressful
and it doesnt help that he's always so prone to falling sick.
and it's worst when he's stuck in the "i'm gonna fall sick but i'm still capable of pushing myself" state.

it hurts.
army is supposed to make boys become man.
but seriously...
boys will be boys.
so just quit making their lives so difficult.

it was supposed to be a happy day.

exams are over.
my FIRST uni exams.
and i HATE it...

heh...gotta start getting used to it though.

today's phy geog was crappy.
hahha... everything that i studied with wenjie yesterday was USELESS.
ok...except for those bits with discussed randomly and briefly.
haha... not a single question i did today was related to anything i've read recently.
i think every piece of it.. was based on my JC knowledge.
crapping here and there?
smoking here and there. hahhaah
rocks big time. no pun intended.

*cross my finger and hope to do OK*


came out of the examination hall all happy and smiles.
was loving the day and enjoying every moment of it.


till it all happened.
it's just so frustrating how misunderstandings can lead to one thing and another.
it's cumulative.
and you get so mad you refuse to admit its your fault.

little assumptions.
little misinterpretations.
little things that leads to one big quarrel.

life is shit when it's like that.
it never was supposed to be.

maybe i'm being selfish.
but do you also understand how i feel?

maybe i shouldnt have
maybe i should have.
i dunno.

since you said you din want me to call.
i wont.
or should i?
i'm starting to lose the ability to understand you.
or maybe i din understand you right from the beginning.
maybe i just cant.


its supposed to be a happy day.
but i'm not smiling.

the music some soothing dancy song...

it was a sunny afternoon.
people were just walking pass each other without stopping.
a busy stretch of road outside wisma.

and there they were.
holding each other and dancing to the song.
enjoying each other's company.
kissing.

like what we always see on the dance floor of a romantic movie....


it was really sweet.
i guess.
i just couldnt understand how they did it
in the middle of orchard road...
where everyone was looking...

it was out of place.
but it was really lovely.
it just seemed that the world belonged to them.
and only them.

the way they danced
the way they only had eyes for each other.
everything else din matter for they had each other.


it was an odd sight.
but it was still the most lovely scene ever.

whoever said uni was a breeze has gotta be telling the biggest lie.

i remembered when i was taking my Os..
a teacher said we should work hard get into a good JC and all is well.

i believed.
JC sucked.
and there it is again...
teacher after teacher saying that As is the worst it can get.
uni exams are a breeze.

once again...
i feel darn cheated?
or maybe its just the course i'm in.

geez....
a teacher taking exam. such an irony i feel.
i really tot it would have been the end of it all after the dreadful exams one year ago.



the weather is really cooooooling now.
how nice would it be to cuddle under my nice blankie.

but oh no...
me gonna go take a SHOWER soon...
and with my coffee.....
shall try to mug hard on alg.


a part of me still love maths.
someone just slap me and ask me to wake up.
please......

i'm very upset with my calculus paper.
knowing that i could have done it
but at that instance...

i just couldnt.

how many times had this happen??
darn it


worst still...
i have a geog paper in less than 20 hours.
yet to prepare for it.
and i'm in NO mood to.

i hate myself.

even though it was a mere an hour and a half
of coming all the way down from home
soley to accompany me and make sure i was ok.


...it meant alot
the rest of the mugging day seems a whole lot better.
thanks baby~!

barely a week to my very FIRST uni exam.

but here i'm battling with...

1) a really itchy and runny nose.
2) keeping the cruched up tissues ON the table
3) a pretty painful stomachache.
4) my chapters and CHAPTERS of maths.
5) memorizing the "WTF" PROVINGS of maths forumulaes.

it doesnt help that...

1) i cannot understand anything.
2) my brain is not functioning well.
3) i have been doing this for 3 straight days
4) i hate whatever the crap they want me to prove~!!!
5) i have a cup of awful vitamin C water next to me.

i'm going crazy cause...

1) i set my EXAM timetable as my desktop backdrop.
2) i have a exam countdown sheet in my pencilbox.
3) i only see f(x)s and dy/dx and limits= limits=......
4) i blasting music that i usually dun listen to
5) i fear very badly that i'll fail my maths modules.



can you understand my pain?

exams are in a week.
havent started studying at all.
been busy with my essay.

went to search for the past years papers yesterday.
i'm stunned.
read thru the maths paper and i can barely do even ONE question.
geography din seem easy too.

i've never been this scared.
maybe its cause of the among of responsiblity i have now.
there's no room for failure.
geez....

dun tell me that i can practice maths..
cause its not about practicing anymore.
if only it was that simple.
i wish.


pray for me.
things are so uncertain now.

i swear time flies SUPER fast...
like WHEE~! SHORT and fast......

it wasnt too long ago that i found myself struggling to adapt to uni life.
den again.

i still havent really gotten used to it yet.
i'm always still running away from hall back to home sweet home.
i've no idea why i've suddenly grown so attached to home...
when 2 years back...i remembered saying i cant wait to go uni and start hall life.

still struggling badly with academic issues too.
MATHS.
come someone kindly tell me..
WHY THE HELL did i take maths.

2 quizzes in 2 days.
tmr is the next.
planned to stay in hall to study tonight.
but i was on the verge of tears when i sat there for barely 30mins.
that's why i'm running back home again.
nothing feels better then home.

the only thing working against me at home is the TV.
nevermind. i know i can fight it.

barely 2 weeks to my first paper.
god bless me.
i'm still stuck in the maze of algebra and calculus.

it's really upsetting to know that
when ONE ignored the fact that she had tons of work to do...
and was really really tired and drained.
and gave up sleeping
just to complete something to save her group's presentation.

ONLY to find out later
that someone removed all her hard work.
zlich is left of that night's work in the slides ok?.
fuck.
wad did i stay up for?
ass.

i dunno to be angry or upset.
took the initiative to be nice to f***ing do something about it
and this is wad i get???
group presentation??
wtf.
i really wished i was given the option to choose my own members.
i hate this.



the village @ heeren.
blasting mambo night songs in nic's car.
starbucks @ holland.v
the talks.
ride round a quarter of singapore.

yet another friday night.
i love the freedom i'm getting.
i can learn to live this life.

to you: please stop drinking.
wake up and look around...
people that care for you are hurting.

to xf: you were the best. thanks for saving my lappie top.

retail therapy rocks.
one skirt. one sweater. one berms.
150 bucks.

yum.

loved the time with my girls and my boy.
vivo is nice.